please help, I don't know how much time I havv left....

[JerryTaker]

HK, please I ned to figure out what's wrong with me before I do something drastic...I mean. how do I deal with the fact that I hve to be alone for the rest of my life, and will nefver know the touch of a woman agiin? should I just kill myself, rather than live a barren, empty life? or is there anything I can still do?

I'm seeing a therapist, but my insurance can only sustain so many visits... I mean should I lock myself up, so I never bother anyone again? Am I just so not fit for society, that I should spend what's left of my life in a box?

HK, please, I don't know what to do anymore, all I know is I'd rather die than live another day like thiis... but the days keep soming....and the pain keeps intensifying....

Thanks to Hosp for the Idea:
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"Who do you trust when everyone's a crook?"

[Christy]

Call me ... you have my number if you need to talk sweetie!!! ANYTIME, DAY OR NIGHT!

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[fatty]

listen man, i'm not qualified to give advice but when i lost my first love i seriously considered killing myself so i know how you feel.

don't do it man. i NEVER thought i would get over feeling the way i did, and it took me many years to do so. you will go through times where it isn't so bad and then you will go through times where you pick up a knife. those times are more often than not, and it is always hard to get past them.

the only thing that will help you besides therapy is time. get drunk, get high, cry, listen to music, hang out with friends, watch movies, write your feelings down, punch the wall... all these things do not do anything but pass the time until you'll be okay again.

all i can say is i am with someone who is my best friend and someone i love very much who loves me back. it's crazy to look back to how i was and think i can be as happy as i am now. believe it or not it is even hard to remember how i felt when i was that way, something that amazes me to this day.

all i'm saying is that i have no quick solution to help you know, but don't consider ending your life. do whatever else you want, but the only thing that will help you out is time. i promise it will get better, and if you need to talk to someone who knows how it feels you can email me @ thereverend85@aol.com. i always feel for people who've been broken up with, because i don't think anyone was ever more heartbroken than myself.

i wish you luck man, it's going to be hard but you can get through it.

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Fatty makes us happy!

[Lulu]

please don't do it! i've thought of killing myself several times, but i would never go through with it because i knew that there are people that really care about me. you obviously have people here who really care about you. so please don't do it.

if you ever need someone to talk to, my email address is Rf5325@aol.com. please feel free to email or im me anytime.



This message was edited by Lulu on 4-13-02 @ 2:16 PM

[CYYYFYYY]

Don't do it bud...... I rather be miseeerable than
dead any day./... If you ever want to chat my
e-mail/im is cyyyfyyy ..............


David the Franchize
Everyone Loves CYYYFYYY
My name is CYYYFYYY and I like Ping Pong

[A.J.]

I understand how you feel. There have been times in my life where I've gone a long time "without". But to kill yourself over that is stupid.

I admit that there have been times where I've thought of killing myself but then I realized that there are more important things in life than just worrying about relationships. Maybe you have goals involving school, your career, travel. If you focus on prioritizing and accomplishing those things, chances are the relationship factor will take care of itself.

For example, when I got myself a new job, I felt a lot more self-confident. It must have shown because soon therefter I hit it off with a co-worker.

So you see, the important thing is not to give up (apologies to Jim Valvano). Just be patient and be yourself -- you WILL find someone!

Good luck man.

[HordeKing1]

JERRY - I'll be on AIM on Saturday night after 12:00. Please contact me there if you can. Otherwise please e-mail me directly.

In the interum, should it come down to this, keep these numers next to your phone.

Suicide Prevention Hotline - Call 800 833-2900 or 800 999-9999

http://members.aol.com/rnfpantera/hking2

[JerryTaker]

geez, I feel like a tool reading this a day later and much more sober....
I hope none of this caomes off as looking for attention, or compliments or anything. I'm just really confused, and for some reason, at 25, I can't seem to handle life yet. All I'm looking for is answers...

...I mean it's been seven months, almost half the time I was with the girl, but I feel like my problems, that caused her to break up with me are still there, and ar keeping me from ever finding love, hell, even a date again....

Anyway, I'm not suicidal, I'm just not opposed to dying. I don't have the balls to kill myself, it's just not in me, but the sadness I've been feeling for most of my life is just weighing so heavily on me, I don't really know how to cope anymore....

Dave, Christy, Lulu, AJ, Fatty, and HK, thanks so much for responding. you're all really great for doing so, and I'll try to calm down...

....sorry for being a pain....


Thanks to Hosp for the Idea:
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"Who do you trust when everyone's a crook?"

This message was edited by JerryTaker on 4-14-02 @ 3:55 AM

[HordeKing1]

JERRY - You're not a pain at all, and the issue is important to you so you need to talk about it. Your feelings are valid. Perhaps they can be steered in a more constructive way.

http://members.aol.com/rnfpantera/hking2

[Lulu]

it was no problem at all, jerry. i'm just glad to hear that your alright. and my offer still stands. if you want to email me or im me, feel free to do so anytime. anything you want to talk about to me you can.

[Jennitalia]

geez, I feel like a tool reading this a day later and much more sober....
I hope none of this caomes off as looking for attention, or compliments or anything. I'm just really confused, and for some reason, at 25, I can't seem to handle life yet. All I'm looking for is answers...




you know what? it does. i totally can feel and understand where you're coming from first of all. ive been there. but everyone here is being supportive and helping you out and giving suggestions, but you refuse to take any action and unfortunately, you arent just going to wake up one day and feel so much better with things. you need to make an attempt. it's great you're seeing a therapist. however he/she alone cant cure you...you need to put in 100% effort in helping yourself. if you are unhappy with things about yourself, then do something about it. a little bit each day helps, buy you need to do something. escaping in alcohol isnt going to help you. it will make things worse in all aspects, and it will only heighten your thoughts about suicide when youre depressed. so unfortunately until you're willing to stop and make an effort to help yourself, youre always going to feel crappy.

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[A.J.]

Jerry -- glad to help and I hope you're feeling better.