Why does this happen to me?

[pinkyfloyd]

Horde King, I'd like your opinion about something that has been happening to me for as long as I can remember. I know this sounds very strange, but here goes: I was raised totally by my mother. I have never met my father, and I have never had any contact with him. I only know his name and the city he lives in. My mother has never really spoken to me about him very much, but on the rare occasion she does, it is always uncomfortable for the both of us. I'm not sure if I would ever want to contact him, because I wouldn't know what to say. And, also, I don't want to interrupt my own life. Here's the strange thing: whenever I think about my father, I get this sharp pain in my left hand. The pain is always underneath my left thumb, on the palm side. This only happens when I think about my father. Why do you think this happens? I know it sounds crazy, but I swear it's true. Do you think it is some kind of psychological reaction? I get this pain every time I think about him, and I can't understand why. Thanks, I'd appreciate your opinion!

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[HordeKing1]

PINKFLOYD - It's an intruiging question for which a clear explanation does not come to mind.

I'll assume that you have had your hand checked out and that it is OK.

The pain itself may be psychosomatic (real experience of pain, w/o physical cause), but I have difficulty understanding why this pain would develop in relationship to thinking about your dad.

Since you've never met your father, you have had no experiences involving him and your hand that would suggest some association between the thoughts and the pain.

The only thing that comes to mind is very very tennuous. Have you ever experienced this pain while you were talking to your mom about your dad. You described these conversations as uncomfortable.

Psychosomatic pain can result in order to distract yourself from uncomfortable situations. If this is how it developed, it could have eventually carried over to occuring whenever you think of your dad.

If you have any facts to add that you think may be relevant I'd be happy to review them.

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