Forever destained to be single?

[ToddEVF]

After a terrible night tonight, i have come to the conclusion that i am forever meant to be single. i'm not seeking sympathy here. It seems that ever female I show interest in totally effs me over. all my exs and all girls i like. This is the reason why i started the date auction threads and the personal ad and vent thread. It seems no one cares for me enough to be with me. I've been told once that someone loved me then they totally screwed me over. maybe its a safe bet for me to forever relinquish emotions and thoughts of relationships. Sure i'm young, but i'm more mature then most guys older then me. I care way to f'n much and i have too many emotions. I wish i could just shut them off and get hooked up into a Neuro-net computer system to prevent any thoughts of anything. They say everyone has someone meant for them, but i'm not like everyone. I am the oddball who will never meet that special someone, never to realize what it is to be happy and loved. Thats why I seem to be so miserable. And well I am more miserable than Raven.

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[FollowThisLogic]

I must say, that really STINKS. I know it stinks because many times (including recently), I feel like I'm in the same boat.

We are apparently few and far between, a HUGE minority in today's society, GUYS who are actually looking for a bit of frickin STABILITY.

I could give you a pep talk, but having been on the receiving end so many times, I know they don't work. You can only hear the same cliches over and over again so many times before you start to think it's a big line of crap.

One cliche that does often hold true, though, is that you'll find exactly what you're looking for, right when you least expect it. The only problem with that is, there's usually just one thing wrong with it (example: distance) that could throw a monkeywrench into it all.

I guess the best advice is to just ride it out. Yeah, it'll feel like utter crap and you feel like a completely worthless nothing, but life is funky. Right as you approach rock bottom, something happens. Or, something happens to get you off the bottom.

Main thing is, try not to dwell on it, don't think about it if you can avoid it.

Like I said, I'm in the same boat, so I know how DUMB that all sounds, and I certainly know that even I have trouble following my own advice, but seriously... what else is there to do?

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<marquee direction=up height=14 scrollamount=1><center>just put your hands around my heart<br><br><br>and squeeze me till i'm dry<br><br><br>i never thought you'd ever start<br><br><br>to ever ask me why...<br><br><br>i never saw you again...<br><br><br><br><br><br></center></marquee><br>I have to return some videotapes.</center>

[ToddEVF]

Atleast someone know what i have been going through for about 4 years now.

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[FollowThisLogic]

Absolutely. I kind of have my lapses in and out of it, with the occasional lucky break of getting a girlfriend now and then,but when that awful, useless feeling comes along, as it has (again) for me lately, it always feels just about the same.

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<marquee direction=up height=14 scrollamount=1><center>just put your hands around my heart<br><br><br>and squeeze me till i'm dry<br><br><br>i never thought you'd ever start<br><br><br>to ever ask me why...<br><br><br>i never saw you again...<br><br><br><br><br><br></center></marquee><br>I have to return some videotapes.</center>

[ToddEVF]

maybe a cure could be a singles party? just an idea. It could help cure some peole with the same problem.

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[FollowThisLogic]

maybe a cure could be a singles party?
Or a party where we just play singles by The Cure, y'know, cause we're all depressed and stuff.

Or maybe we need some emo up in this bitch... LOL.

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<marquee direction=up height=14 scrollamount=1><center>just put your hands around my heart<br><br><br>and squeeze me till i'm dry<br><br><br>i never thought you'd ever start<br><br><br>to ever ask me why...<br><br><br>i never saw you again...<br><br><br><br><br><br></center></marquee><br>I have to return some videotapes.</center>

[ToddEVF]

Or a party where we just play singles by The Cure, y'know, cause we're all depressed and stuff.

Or maybe we need some emo up in this bitch... LOL.


A party with the singles by the Cure would be cool, but emo is just wrong.

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[Sheeplovr]

blame it on the jews like the blacks do then blame the blacks to

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[FollowThisLogic]

A party with the singles by the Cure would be cool, but emo is just wrong.
A Cure fan?

You're sure you're not actually me, right? Or I'm not you?

So rare that anyone knows, much less enjoys them anymore...

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<marquee direction=up height=14 scrollamount=1><center>just put your hands around my heart<br><br><br>and squeeze me till i'm dry<br><br><br>i never thought you'd ever start<br><br><br>to ever ask me why...<br><br><br>i never saw you again...<br><br><br><br><br><br></center></marquee><br>I have to return some videotapes.</center>

[ToddEVF]

we are not one and the same. we are totally different people with the same problems, including listening and enjoying the Cure.

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[sexy bastard]

I am desitned to be forever single, because i cant be there for the woman when i should...thanks to my work both hotel and writing


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[FMJeff]

They say everyone has someone meant for them, but i'm not like everyone. I am the oddball who will never meet that special someone, never to realize what it is to be happy and loved. Thats why I seem to be so miserable.



Get over yourself. You're not the only oddball who can't find a girl. Get your life together and you'll be respected and become more attractive to the opposite sex. Whining about how odd you are doesn't accomplish anything. Andy Dick is an odd mother fucker and gets more pussy than most people.

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Stupid is as stupid does.

[Jennitalia]

Get over yourself. You're not the only oddball who can't find a girl. Get your life together and you'll be respected and become more attractive to the opposite sex. Whining about how odd you are doesn't accomplish anything. Andy Dick is an odd mother fucker and gets more pussy than most people.



see, and if i said that, i'd be called an insensitive bitch. ;) Jeff is right on, though

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i long to be a rock star retard. until then, i'm just an insensitive fuckfaced twat

[JustinR]

Todd you should channel your engergies to something else. Kinda like a anti drug if you know what i mean.

Me for example, i could say how woeful I am for being single until i'm blue in the face. Doing that wont really do anything.

I'm just going to let love find me instead of looking for it myself. I know i'm a great guy( not a "nice" guy, i will stand up for myself whenever possible) and the girl who ends up with me will find that out.

You are young, live it up!

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[JerryTaker]

Todd, You should read some of my posts prior to May of this year. I was absolutely miserable, but I got my life together a bit, (not completely, mind you) toughened my skin a bit, I ended up meeting a really sweet and loving girl, and I've become comfortable enough to realize I can move on and find other things to do in my life, even if she goes the way of the others before her, whining and complaining will just make people lose respect for you, and Jennitalia will make fun of you...:-)

..You're young, you have lots of other things to worry about, and trust me, sometimes women can be more trouble than they're worth... :-)
so just calm down and have fun.

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[FollowThisLogic]

Andy Dick is an odd mother fucker and gets more pussy than most people.
Yeah, so did Notorious BIG, but I highly doubt it had anything to do with sex appeal or being odd in either case. They've got money, loads of it.

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<marquee direction=up height=14 scrollamount=1><center>just put your hands around my heart<br><br><br>and squeeze me till i'm dry<br><br><br>i never thought you'd ever start<br><br><br>to ever ask me why...<br><br><br>i never saw you again...<br><br><br><br><br><br></center></marquee><br>I have to return some videotapes.</center>

This message was edited by FollowThisLogic on 8-15-02 @ 1:40 PM

[Arienette]

i think we all could go on and on at some point about being alone and feeling helpless. but as everyone else pointed out, it helps nothing. if it makes you feel any better, it's been my experience that most people who wish to be coupled eventually couple. it just takes time for things to work themsevles out. you're very very young. chill

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i want a lover i don't have to love
i want a boy who's so drunk he doesn't talk

[Jennitalia]

LMMFAO, Jerry!! Jerry, I may have busted your balls in the past, but you are one cool cat :)
and i really dont need to have hippie, the self appointed sensitivity police, on my case again....:)

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i long to be a rock star retard. until then, i'm just an insensitive fuckfaced twat

[ToddEVF]

Last night when I poted it, i was totally friggin' depressed and pissed off. right now i feel better about myself (yet i still lack confidence to find someone to date) but i've had that problem for years now. Everything seems easier when you have a good amount of Hard Liquor in yourself. And liquor is something i lack, just like confidence. Where the hell did i put the everclear, avalance, and aftershock?

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[Cybersoldier]

know what you mean cheer up man it could be worst

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thanks earth2ron

[ToddEVF]

I know full well it could be worse, but I am a very miserablely paranoid person. And i think everything is the end of the world. . . or a government conspiricy. In the last week i've been robbed and stood up. hey, you know, my tarot told me my life was going to go down a downward spiral. looks like the robery was just the beginning.

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[erole]

Last night when I poted it, i was totally friggin' depressed and pissed off.
Lay off that shit then. Ya gotta pass on the grass.
Just let it go man. Go out and live it up. Relax and scream a little now and then. Jeff is right, just make yourself into THE shit rather than keeping yourself in the shit.
Part of life isn't life itself.
Life as a whole is who we are. Do you want your only definition of life to be "a girl" or even "the girl?" No way man. You want someone in YOUR life. You don't want your life to primarily be someone elses. Go make a life for yourself first, then you share it. Some people are lucky and grow together while building their lives, but not everyone is like that.
It'll all come together. Stop stressin and forcing. Take it from a single guy who is a little lonely, but kinda happy he is. I want to work on me for a little while, and if someone special comes along - so be it. Otherwise, I'm just going to teach, and try my best to become an artist.

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[Hawiian shirt craig]

blame it on the jews like the blacks do then
blame the blacks to


first of all *ANI DIFRANCO!*

second of all todd, i'm so with jenitalia (man take
that one out of context) and jeff on this. i've told
you this b4, here it is in caps YOU CANNOT BE OK
WITH SOMEONE ELSE UNTIL YOU ARE OK ALONE.
man is an island, and must be selfsufficent as one.
you cannot, repeat, CANNOT find the one who will
"save" you. she doesn't exist. you CAN find the
one who you can be happy with. its about being
FREAL (wow, old throw back sports fan) and upfront
with your self. if you hate your life how can you
expect someone else to join it!?? think about it.
you meet tara reid at a party and shes is in love..
but has a major heroine habit, is freaked b/c her
parents molested her and she smells like soup...
makes her pretty unattractive.

this is not to say you have these problems, just an
extreem example. so quit your bitching, straighten
up and fly right.

PS the whole anti-hero thing is fun when ur 16, but
think about success in life and what image u need
to project. even todd mcfarlain wears a suit
sometimes!! people judge you, be comfy (hawiian
shirts) but dont be something society (which belive
it or not almost no one can change) thinks down on.

youth is wasted on the young, but power is wasted
on the mature...................


-Hawiian Shirt Craig
THIS IS WHY WE CAN'T HAVE NICE THINGS!!

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[ToddEVF]

PS the whole anti-hero thing is fun when ur 16, but
think about success in life and what image u need
to project. even todd mcfarlain wears a suit
sometimes!! people judge you, be comfy (hawiian
shirts) but dont be something society (which belive
it or not almost no one can change) thinks down on.


Umm, dude. I stopped using the whole anti-heroism thing like a week ago. you'll rag me on it. I haven't had many opertunities to make sigs as of late. And Lobo kicks ass. but conformity is the downfall of society. I bitch and moan all the time, just so you people can say "Hey jerk-off! get a fuckin life." and if i'm something society doesn't think down on, i'd be a liar. I am what i am, because its my lifestyle. If i had to wear a suit (or hawiian shirt) everyday to please the people, i rather put a bullet in my head. Pleasing the people gets you no where. I've tried it. I tried it for 7 long years. then i became this, a rage a emotions looking for an outlet to vent. This will probably be my second and last strike, thus then causing me to be on "extended vacation" but everyones who they are because they are slightly different. I, on the other hand, and extremely different. just because i rub my own nose in the shit that is my life and have people watch is my own problem. There are a lot of problems i have, one of which is that. sorry if i offended everyone or anyone, but i just had to let that one out.

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[Hawiian shirt craig]

next issue is comformity is the FABRIC of society.
hawiian shirts are not conformist. they are my way
of being unique and still fitting into society. you
missed the ENTIRE point of my post, sir. you ARE
NOT GOING TO FIND SOME ONE IN THIS MIND SET!!!

and on the conformity thing, conformity is the way
people GET to a place to change things. not to use
scum bag terrorist pig fuckers as an example but
the 20 low lifes who attacked us on 9/11 didn't get
the chance by fire AK 47s in time square and
screaming about Ala... they did it by conforming,
breaking their own belifes for a greater (what they
saw as) good. obviously this is another extreem
example.

basically parading at the base of a corporations
offices does far less good than getting an
education, being hired, spending their money,
becomeing CEO and CHANGING what they do...
change ur appearance to get there oh friggin well.

listen tod, i've met you, i like you. just chill out and
quit setting urself up. ur a smart kid. look in the
mirror..........


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THIS IS WHY WE CAN'T HAVE NICE THINGS!!

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[erole]

Wasn't that in Hannibal?
"All you need for that...is a mirror."

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[Sheeplovr]

first of all *ANI DIFRANCO!*



Take it back



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POWER AND CHAOS

[ToddEVF]

At this point i don't care if someone stumbles over to me and asks me out. I am tired of looking. 1st priorty is to get my life in order without changing my beliefs and conforming. I fear conforming, its just because of some wackados that everyone has to be alike. Assimilated into the machine called society. my mind set is clear, as of 1 AM on 8/16/02. Why should i torment myself and make it a spectical. why should i torment myself at all. Flaws in this corperate cookie cutter society causes people to rethink how they live. The first way i am going to get my life in order is to get a job, 2ndly getting my licence, 3rdly getting my band together. By the time stage 3 is in effect i should be clear headed again. I'll give in to society, but i will not change who i am. HS Craig, you seemed like a really cool person when i met you, and I take your words as advise. along with all the others that gave me advise. Sheepy for calling me a wackado, jeff and the numberous others for saying that i should't lay my sob story on the board. I see it now. Today is the 1st day in the rest of my life. And Craig, i actually do own a few Hawiian shirts myself, only because i had to give in to get free flights. I think there is a picture somewhere of me in one. But seriously, I was told I am Show-offy. And I am, I show off all the shit I can in my life. Most of which has been the bad. So as I sit here and type this I wonder, is there anyway for one to help him or her self without aid from others and/or self help books? there always has to be someone there to give that person a slap in the right direction. And after this, I know why Ronfez.net is considered a family by many.

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[fiestygal]

PICK YOU CHIN UP sir!!!! and DUST YOURSELF OFF :)

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I am a goofball & swell to boot

[Sheeplovr]

Sheepy for calling me a wackado


your past Wackadoo and gone into Granda Nut

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POWER AND CHAOS

This message was edited by Sheeplovr on 8-16-02 @ 1:00 PM

[ToddEVF]

Ok, so now I'm a Granda Nut, or something like that. Eventually I will be an Asylum Vertern, but have to go through Padded Cell Regular. Hoping to avoid those, i am offically changing my ways. Changing myself, internally. But some will be like good for you, others will want to see me self destruct again. And i assure you I will try not to self destruct again.

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[Jennitalia]

Thank you for the timely updates.

and if you still get that desperate for some lovin', I know of this horse in Mississippi that likes to put out ;)



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i long to be a rock star retard. until then, i'm just an insensitive fuckfaced twat

This message was edited by Jennitalia on 8-16-02 @ 2:38 PM

[ToddEVF]

Thank you for the timely updates.


I will attempt to go through the stages to make a new me, keeping everyone (whether they like it or not) updated on my status. Plus, it helps to post when totally depressed and shitfaced. It makes everything longer, drawn out, agressive, and more boring, yet informational.

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[Sheeplovr]

see me self destruct again.


you self destucted a first time and i missed it damm


number 333 its the way to be
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POWER AND CHAOS

[ToddEVF]

you self destucted a first time and i missed it damm


i have self destructed like 5 times. don't be surprised if there is a 6th.

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[Jennitalia]

oh, good. looking forward to it. just do us a favor and give us some notice so i can bring the popcorn.

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i long to be a rock star retard. until then, i'm just an insensitive fuckfaced twat

[ToddEVF]

oh, good. looking forward to it. just do us a favor and give us some notice so i can bring the popcorn


I'll make sure that its at the next big offical ronfez.net get together

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[Hawiian shirt craig]

jenn, you're the best. if you bring the popcorn i'll
bring the beer....


-Hawiian Shirt Craig
THIS IS WHY WE CAN'T HAVE NICE THINGS!!

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[Jobberific]

and if you still get that desperate for some lovin', I know of this horse in Mississippi that likes to put out


God damn, you are one funny chick. Kudos

"DANCE MONKEYS!!!! DANCE FOR OUR PLEASURE!!!"

[gone]

omg.. STOP IT!!!!! **SCREAMS** this is SOOO rediculous!

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[TooCute]

I don't know how old you are but
at some point you'll figure it out.
It's not about having a chick. It's
not about conforming. It's about
self-esteem and being happy
with yourself - fundamentally -
not superficial things like your
job, your income whatever - and
some poeple figure that out
when they're 20, while some
figure it out when they're 40. But
you'll figure it out. I hope.
Because I'm going to go crazy
soon hearing all this self pity.
We've ALL been there - don't
flatter yourself and think you're
the only one - and we all get it.
As soon as you get over your
whining - and listen babe, I'm
sorry, but it's WHINING - pick
yourself up, get out there and
have some fun. And if it doesn't
work, find a psychiatrist, and
don't be afraid of
anti-depressants. I know plenty
of people they have worked for.

I have a good friend who is 39
years old. All he ever wanted
was to be married, have kids, the
whole deal. He payed thousands
of dollars to join a dating service.
He went out, bought a whole
new wardrobe, got a new
haircut, bleached his teeth - he is
still the same fabulous guy. But
now he's got game. He has
self-confidence. And you know
what? The first night he went out
to test out his 'new look' in a bar,
he met chicks. He has more dates
than he knows what to do with.
He picked up a cashier in Linens
n things before my eyes just as
'practice' - it was a confidence
booster. He has CONFIDENCE
and he has women falling at his
feet. It wasn't the highlighted
spiky hair, or the black lycra
shirts (which I thought were a
little faggy to be honest). He just
exudes confidence. AND he
happens to be a great guy to
boot.

You sound like a great guy. Stop
whining and get some
confidence.


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[Hawiian shirt craig]

maybe you like penis, try penis. there must be some where in NJ to get penis.........

-Hawiian Shirt Craig
THIS IS WHY WE CAN'T HAVE NICE THINGS!!

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[ToddEVF]

Too Cute, your very intelligent and i will take your words of advise, along with everyone elses. Except of course, Hawwian Shirt Craig. who posted this.
maybe you like penis, try penis. there must be some where in NJ to get penis.........


Sorry to burst your bubble, but i am not gay. And i would never try the cock. I'm not a homophobic person, but it is something i would never do.

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[Cybersoldier]

In the end sooner or later everyone finds someone to love or end up in some kind of relationship. No one end up totally single forever

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thanks earth2ron

This message was edited by Cybersoldier on 8-17-02 @ 3:08 PM

[GrimSanity]

i've been reading the post on here and keeping quiet. but i agree with you all about the advice you give todd (you are one of many who tell him this on a reguler basis) and that being said inkk you shouldn't even be posting under this. i'm sorry but you did add to his rejection and make him like this. i don't want to bring up the past and i'm not but you remember. and todd i'm going to beat you with a spade shovel if you don't stop this depression stuff. <P>
Your Local Serial Killer Grim Sanity <P>

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[gone]

and that being said inkk you shouldn't even be posting under this. i'm sorry but you did add to his rejection and make him like this.


ok DONT bring me into this, and with THAT being said.. i will go about my buisness

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[Gvac]

Wait until you guys get to be MY age, and then you can seriously ask this question!



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Muchas Gracias, PanterA!

[ToddEVF]

ok DONT bring me into this, and with THAT being said.. i will go about my buisness


Umm. . . Ok. But i do blame you for putting me through this. Grim is the only one that knows be well enough and knows what you have put me through. so by you saying don't get me involved, is totally f'd up. Your the cause of it so YOU ARE INVOLVED!!!!

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[Jennitalia]

call me crazy, but i have a feeling your lack of confidence, insecurities and self pity came way before inky. don't blame her for your patheticness

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i long to be a rock star retard. until then, i'm just an insensitive fuckfaced twat

[ToddEVF]

call me crazy, but i have a feeling your lack of confidence, insecurities and self pity came way before inky. don't blame her for your patheticness


Some was there, but she has put me through a lot since the softball game, and now here is the backlash of it. And as I have said, GrimSanity knows the whole story. He's known me for years and noticed after certain things happening, I went lower and lower. I tried not to mention any names here but I was just recovering from two major losses and then. . . shit happened.

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Why do i think, by speaking the truth i am making lots of enemies?

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This message was edited by toddevf on 8-18-02 @ 6:00 AM

[DarkHippie]

"some people claim there's a woman to blame, but i know it's my own damn fault" --Jimmy Buffet.

When me and my ex broke up in april, I blamed her for everything. She was the one who wasn't willing to give. She was the hurtful bitch. But as time went on, i realized that I was just as guilty as her.

It's alot easier to blame another for a problem, but ironically, it's alot easier to solve a problem if you take responcibility for it. in the end, the only person you can change is yourself, so the more of the problem you take responcibility for, the more you can actually fix instead of passing it along

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[swiss miss]

hey, being single isnt THAT bad lovey, you have the freedom to be with whomever whenever...if you see someone who catches your eye, you can persue them without any hesitation. It does get a lil lonely at times, but thats what your friends are there for, life is not ALL about finding that ONE person, it can be there to enhance things, but dont get so hung up on it!! When YOU stop looking, thats when someone may find YOU....and this whole oddball thing doesnt help your game....everyones a freak. Everyone is odd, dont use this as an excuse as to WHY your not with someone, it should be part of your charm....... <P>

[DarkHippie]

You remind me alot of a young me, so you got that going for you. If you work it right, you can turn yourself into the studpuppy that IS DarkHippie

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[ToddEVF]

Well before i deleted all my logs and the program that logs, i sent them as files to a safe plac. All i have to do is ask for them and i have proof that the problem wasn't me. And I think now I am officially Mini Dark Hippie.

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[Hawiian shirt craig]

call me crazy, but i have a feeling your lack
of confidence, insecurities and self pity came way
before inky. don't blame her for your patheticness


you're crazy jen!

LOL listen todd, theres a saying in my town "if shes
a bitch dont talk to her" (profound, no?) i love inky
to death, but if shes being a bitch to you,
disassociate. its pretty simple, u live in NJ... she
lives in LI... dont IM her, and she wont IM you. that
is if theres still an issue. the reality is thats a good
rule of thumb. everyone gets treated liek shit, but if
u keep comign back for it, you diserve it and should
cry, until your tear ducts bleeed!~!!


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[ToddEVF]

Her and I haven't talked in about 2 days now. And i have been feeling 20 times better about myself. Maybe my reconstruction is almost complete.

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HOLY SHIT ARE YOU SERIOUS!!!!! the word puppy dog comes to mind todd.. i would like this thread locked or deleted or burned or something.. this is total utter BULL SHIT




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[PanterA]

Inkgrrl, we are all here to help each other. Even if he's bullshitting us, there are people that have this problem and if reading this post can help someone get threw hard times then it's worth it.

If you dont like it, dont post in the thread. I would suggest you followed that rule.

thank you.


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This message was edited by PanterA on 8-19-02 @ 12:57 AM

[ToddEVF]

If you dont like it, dont post in the thread. I would suggest you followed that rule.

thank you


Thank You Pantera. For keeping this thread from the staff room, as i was emailed. I appreciate it. And i assure you i don't bullshit. This is the reason why I didn't want to use names. I know someone would want this thread to go away.

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[ToddEVF]

I created a monster and it shouldn't have gone this far. Don't issue any warnings or bans due to this. It was all my fault. I take the fall for it. And i have probably made more enemies now.

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This message was edited by toddevf on 8-19-02 @ 2:01 AM

[ToddEVF]

rather then edit every thought i have. I'm really sorry for the trouble i have caused, and didn't bs at all. I'll leave it at that.

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[Tall_James]

Don't think that way. I was single, in and out of bad relationships until I was 36 years old. I had reached the point where you are now. Then I went on a blind date set up by mutual friends. I figured that since they knew me and wouldn't try to set me up with a nutcase, I'd give it a shot. (I'm sure that she thought the same thing). We hit it off, dated 3 weeks, then I broke up with her to go back to a psycho ex-girlfriend (worst mistake ever). Well, as they say, "if it sucked the first time". Well, 3 months later I called the blind date back to ask her out and she said no. I respected her for that, but I was persistant and 2 years later, we have a beautiful 6 month old daughter.

I guess what I want to say to you is don't give up so easily. Keep your eyes (and your heart) open. Talk to friends (and friends of friends) about being open to meeting new people. And don't trip out about it. I did. And I laugh about it now.

Good luck to you. I wish you nothing but the best.

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