What's Wrong With Me?

[reeshy]

All day today and for the last couple of days, I have been going through a period of depression. I can't seem to shake it. I push myself to get to work, to talk to people, even to post on the board. Recently, I have had a couple of anniversaries of people who I have loved and are no longer with us.
Anyway, it all came to a head a few minutes ago when I was listening to the President make his speech. I started to cry like a baby and started thinking about my kids and the kids of my friends. What may happen to them if the terrorists come back to our country for more mayhem.
I sometimes think I may be going crazy and really don't know what to do about it. I know it;s probably crazy for me to open my heart here on the board but at the moment I have no one around to talk to.
There I got it out-start toolin'!!

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[GaryWyze]

<font color=purple>No tooling at all.

Sometimes it helps to just vent, even more so when it can be done somewhat anonymously. And even though a lot of us know eachother, it can still be easier to type than to talk.

So, hopefully this thread will help to make things better. Both through helpful suggestions and to show you that you're not alone. Because you're not.

We all feel down from time to time. We all have moments like you had, where it all just seems to catch up to us. You have nothing to feel funny about. That's why God gave us tear ducts.

But if days turn into weeks, I think you should consider seeing somebody professionally. Because great strives have been made in treating depression, and nobody should have to live like this.

Maybe think of something you really enjoy doing, and do it tomorrow? Spoil yourself a bit. Take a time out and see if that helps.

Feel better, bud.





This message was edited by GaryWyze on 3-17-03 @ 9:15 PM

[Johnny Fontane]

Reeshy,

Here is my suggestion: print your post, put it in a drawer, and forget about what you're worrying about.

Take it out one week from today. If you're still worried, I suggest you put it back in the drawer and let is sit there for another week.

There may not be a war. Saddam's own people might take him out in the hours that come. And if there is a war, it will probably be over lightning quick. Either way, it won't affect your life or mine.

Don't count on any terrorist attacks. God forbid something should happen, it won't be on the scale of 9/11. If the terrorists could pull off attacks at will, they would have hit us numerous times since 9/11. You are more likely to win the lottery than you are to be affected by a terrorist attack. And you ain't winning the lottery.

As for depression, please remind yourself that 90% (maybe more) of the things in your life are right, and 10% (maybe less) are wrong. The key to misery is dwelling on the things that you perceive to be wrong.

I will expect to see a post from you on this thread on 3/24, 3/31, and 4/7, confirming that things are looking up.

Take care, dude.




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[Jasmines Song]

Wow, JF....you give good advice. I probably would have said the same thing.

Reeshy,

This may sound corny, but I have a "worry stone". It's clear with an angel in the center. You're supposed to tell it your worries everyday. I only do it when I am stressed but I do feel better when I do it. Not by a tremdendous amount...but I still feel better. I know that I will always have worries and concerns. But, I also realize that everyone else does, too. Then sometimes I think "These people are crazy...how can they seem so happy and 'fine' with everything?"

I guess what I am trying to say is that you need to know within yourself what would make you feel better.

If you had an exra hour in a day...what would you do with it?

Start from there...






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This message was edited by Jasmines Song on 3-20-03 @ 2:24 AM

[Death Metal Moe]

I have a lot less life experience to draw from then some older board members Reeshy, so I will try to leave you with some images that help me through times of trouble and worry:

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This message was edited by Death_Metal Moe on 3-20-03 @ 2:35 AM

[fluffernutter]

I hope all goes well for you Reeshy. I will keep it in my prayers.

Moe, great tits!

WHO IS THAT?

More pictures or links? I was already to go to bed but now I may be up for a bit more.

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[Death Metal Moe]

That is the ample bust of our own Texas Wigger Aggie. Bow down before their greatness.



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[fluffernutter]

GOODNESS!

I can't run a batch becasue I know who it is.

Something about running one when you know the person (at least with me) kind of make sme feel funny. I always feel better when it is the porn start who kind of works for the purpose of myself and thousands of others releasing our fluids all over the monitor screen.

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[Death Metal Moe]

Yea, so put that picture of Jeff away too! Sick Bastard!

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[fluffernutter]

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I don't want to take away too much from the seriousness of the post Reeshy. I hope this in a way can make you smile though or give you a little chuckle.

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[ChickenHawk]

For Reeshy's entertainment and everyone else's information, I managed to label a couple of the people in Moe's class picture. I was astonished to find out that I was somehow IN Moe's 1st grade class. I know we are at least 6 years apart in age, but I still managed to be in his class photo. (I swear, that kid looks EXACTLY like I did in 1st grade.)
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[reeshy]

Thank you everyone-I fell better now(Prozac workd wonders)


BTW-Chickenhawk-was that a Special Ed class that you were in with Mojo and Moe? Where is the little yellow schoolbus parked?


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[DJEvelEd]

Suck it up homeboy. You want REAL misery, come live MY pathetic life.

One thing I like to do when I need a lift:

Go to a local public restroom and hang one over the seat and wait for someone to go in there...

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[Aggie]

Moe, great tits!

WHO IS THAT?
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I always feel better when it is the porn star who kind of works for the purpose of myself and thousands of others releasing our fluids all over the monitor screen

Thanks fluff :) and how do you know that's not my purpose too.

I'm glad Moe equates my rack with happy thoughts, I wonder if they're in his dreams like he's in mine.

Reeshy,
There's not much more I can say that hasn't been said, but you know we all love ya. If you need to talk I'm sure there are plenty of people who are more than willing. I hope you are feeling better and just know what your feeling is normal. Keep your head up :)

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[fluffernutter]

Thanks fluff and how do you know that's not my purpose too.

I hope i didn't come across as disrespectful, that was not my intenton at all. If I was, sorry. But I call 'em like I see 'em and I saw them nice!

Even if it was your purpose, I couldn't run one casue I have made a sig for you as well. I'll go hide now.

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[SamoanWoman]

Reeshy, as someone who once suffered from depression and post-traumatic stress syndrome, I know still have to work at it to keep from letting those thoughts and fears get a foothold again. Especially since 9/11. It is important that everyone understand that EVERYONE suffered a psychological shock that day and the conscious signs can take a while to show up. I have noticed on the TV that there have been commercials speaking to the emotional effects of 9/11 lately. This is because the impact of seeing our troops at war can trigger those feelings either again or for the first time if you have kept them covered up. Some companies have set up free counseling for their employees for those instances or you can go to a community health center or a private shrink if you've got insurance. I do suggest that you seek professional help of some kind because if it has gotten to the point that you notice the effect it is having on your life something must be done.
On your own, use this as a time to pick up the phone and call that friend that you are worried about. You will see that they are ok. It will make the two of you feel better. Spend time with your family. Tell those in your life that you love them. Always look for an excuse to do that.

[HordeKing1]

REESHY - Feeling down or "depressed" for a few days is completely normal and everyone has ups and downs in their life. Given that it's only been "today and for the last couple of days" I wouldn't worry about it too much. (One criteria for depression is that the depressed mood (or anhedonia) lasts for at least 2 consecutive weeks.) Additionally there must be at least 5 other symptoms that occur concurrently.

You wrote that you're taking Prozac. Does this mean you're already under psychiatric care? I hope so, as self-medication is always a bad idea and potentially very dangerous. You also wrote that you have no one else to talk to. This seems to imply that you're not seeing a therapist.

You wrote that you push yourself to do things. That's really great and I hope you're able to continue to do so. The anti-depressant might help. Therapy will help as well.

The comment above about (late onset) post-tramautic stress disorder seems like a possibility given that your feelings came to a head when you were especially worried about further terrorist attacks and the way they can effect your kids and others.

If you want to talk in private, send me an e-mail or PM.


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