still human after all

[Johnathan H Christ]

so, after three years of being able to cast away any woman i dated... i finally found one im stuck on. i keep trying to be less interested, and its not working.

i try really hard to be an emotional void...it works out well that way. always projecting the image of "im ok...even when im not ok" and now i am just consumed by some girl.

damn human emotions.

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"his very conception was an act of animosity, why shouldnt his entire life be one as well?"

[JohnnyCash]

Why fight it?

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[Johnathan H Christ]

well.. ill tell you why. because now i leave my self open to feelings like self doubt, jelousy, spending too much time thinking about her... just awful mushy 7th grade crush feelings.

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"his very conception was an act of animosity, why shouldnt his entire life be one as well?"

[grlNIN]

... now i leave my self open to feelings like self doubt, jelousy, spending too much time thinking about her...


Try not to let the negativity paralyze the feelings you have for this girl. Speaking from experience i can only really tell you when you do move on from that perspective it's the best feeling in the world. Presuming it's all reciprocated.

Good luck!

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[guttersnipe]

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This message was edited by guttersnipe on 2-21-04 @ 8:38 PM

[monsterone]

good point grlNIN. if you find a good girl, she can make your life so much better. poon is grand, but tapping dumb chicks gets boring.

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[Johnathan H Christ]

funny you should ask...dru is only pissed when she thinks im not getting the attention/respect i deserve. because this girl in question has made quite a name for herself in the area for her productions and events going out to a club is an exercise in me drinking while my woman is busy talking to other industry people.

im only about a month into this thing, so i dont know if its going anywhere or not...but i am afraid that with so many other people to choose from i might just be a flavor of the moment.

self doubt is a crippeling thing, but i do keep in mind that there must have been a reason she took an interest to begin with, so ... maybe i really am enough to keep this girl happy.

its just a stress im not used to.

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"his very conception was an act of animosity, why shouldnt his entire life be one as well?"

[Dudeman]

Presuming it's all reciprocated.


that's the key. if not, then it becomes a wasteful burden.


-the dude is online-

[Johnathan H Christ]

well... thats what time will tell. and if it was a waste of time then i'll just go back to being johnny polyamorous.

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"his very conception was an act of animosity, why shouldnt his entire life be one as well?"

[East Side Dave]

johnny platypus.


Oh, I love those animals! They remind me of Ed Asner which is why I like to shoot them!


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[keithy_19]

Oh com'on now. Self doubt is fun...::tears pour down face::

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[FUNKMAN]

theres a Grand Funk song for every occassion:


BAD TIME
Grand Funk Railroad
(Mark Farner)

I'm in love with a girl that I'm talking about
I'm in love with a girl I can't live without
I'm in love but I sure picked a bad time
To be in love, to be in love

Well, let her be someone else's queen
I don't want to know about it
There's too many others that know what I mean
And that's why I've got to live without it
I'm in love with a girl I'm talking about
I'm in love with a girl I can't live without
I'm in love but I feel like I'm wearing it out
I'm in love but I must have picked a bad time to be in love
A bad time to be in love, a bad time to be in love
A bad time to be in love



just go with the flow, enjoy life and love...

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[guttersnipe]

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This message was edited by guttersnipe on 2-21-04 @ 8:39 PM

[Mike Teacher]

Hey! Someone in another thread tried this:

Give her a Nice Card with $100 in it. See what happens!

Muhahahahahaha!!!!......

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[Spoil-Sport]

Oh com'on now. Self doubt is fun...::tears pour down face::

Yep...just ask Aquaman

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[Johnathan H Christ]

i quit. i wasnt dealing well. im not at all happy with the way my mind has been functioning. i think there is something in me that just cant take the stress of it all.

back to seeking the company of whomever is warm and friendly.

love?.... almost. ill try again in another 3 years or so.

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[Johnathan H Christ]

sorry i crashed through your window on acid, sorry i made a mess, sorry i bled to death.

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