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[Gwen]

Aside from anger how do you guys feel? I know we've all sort of talked about this, but I think its good for people to get some stuff off their chests.
Im usually a pretty calm person and I dont really flip out over much, but last nite and yesterday I felt like I lost my f'n mind.
When I heard all the news up to the part of the pentagon I was fine, after word of the pentagon I felt shaky and nauseous for the whole day. I usually sleep early but I was up til 3 am this morning. I just couldn't sleep it like took over my brain. Somehow today I feel calmer, but worse. Look how many people we've lost. I know im not a new yorker, but this affects everyone. Many of my friends have parents working in that area. Some who are unaccounted, some I cant get in touch with, some thank god are fine. I have friends at school in DC who are worried sick. I dont know im sorry i just needed to talk. Oh yeah and then someone else told me this crap (which I know is crap, but really: this was well planned)
Missing flight numbers
11, 93, 175, and 77

11 = yesterday's Date
9+3 = 12 = today
1+7+5 = 13 = Thursday
7+7 = 14 = Friday

dude, wtf. im losing my mind

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[Gvac]

I am completely, totally exhausted and spent. I never knew I was capable of such raw emotion, especially over people I do not know. I have wept for almost 24 straight hours, and I can't figure out why. Maybe it's because I love people so much, or because I know how painful it is to lose someone close to you, but for whatever reason I feel like I'm bearing the pain of a personal loss. I know the pain will fade, but I can't imagine ever forgetting it.

The genuine love and support I received from the members of this board is something that will never be forgotten, either. You are all appreciated and loved more than you could ever imagine, and I owe you all a debt of gratitude. Like it or not, this board is a second home to me, and you're all my brothers and sisters.





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[JustJon]

I was numb all day yesterday. In a complete daze. From time to time, I tried to read or play a game or anything to take my mind off things for a little while. The only thing that saved my sanity was eating dinner with my family. Knowing they were all safe really helped. I finally got to sleep some time around 4am last night.

I cried for the first time today. The shock has worn off and it's finally seeping in for the first time. And the loss of life is incredible. Even if I shake this off soon, I know I'll feel it again the first time I see the new york skyline again (I'm in a suburb that doesn't have a clear view of the city)

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[HordeKing1]

Emotionally exhausted. Been crying for 2 days.

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[Thunderlips]

I wish I could cry. I try, but nothing comes out. I'm still in utter shock. I watched it happen from my office windows, and I just went for a walk on the Jersey City waterfront where I simply stared at the site for about 30 minutes. Despite all this, I still cannot fathom that it really happened.

Every time I close my eyes I see the fireball from the second plane, and the massive smoke cloud from the collapses.

I don't know what to do. I just know that I feel ill.

[The Blowhard]

Still numb today. Parts of Brooklyn are still covered with soot, and I could smell the stench of the damage last night as I tried to sleep.

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[IkeaBoy]

I haven't cried but you know walking through new york seeing people with breath masks on, army tanks...it's creepy

"Nothing can kill The Grimace"

[Tazz1376]

This morning, I went to a beach in my home town in Connecticut that had a view of the towers. All you could make out was a cloud of smoke. That is when it stopped being surreal and became very real.

But the amount of patriotism going around now is what is affecting me the most emotionally. I heard a lady on the radio this morning who owns a diner in the area. She said she was opening to provide free food to the rescue workers. That almost made me break down. That is what makes this the greatest country in the world, and we will not be defeated by this. We will rise up, and we will win.

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[Gwen]

Tazz, i think you may live in my town. I did the same thing today at teh beach. Its just so unbelieveable.

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[Tazz1376]

There were two other people at the beach. Just sitting on benchs, staring. If I wasn't at work, I would have stayed there all day. It was the worst, most depressing thing I have ever seen.

[IkeaBoy]

I've been walking through NY currently and all I'm thinking is this is a ghost town. I saw an entire street of abandoned cars facing inthe same direction and that just seems wrong. Walking in the middle of a new york street without fear or being hit by a car. The emptiness of this town. It's just so weird. I've only been here a short while but I can already tell that it's not right. New York is a city that's supposed to be bustling. like 40% of the people I've seen have had surgical masks on. Surgical masks- in new york. People aren't mad with people, people are so calm, people seem so unafraid of their own lives, of their own little concerns. You can tell from people that they have no fear of being robbed or mugged because there is a sense of "You know; no one will do it to me and if they do so what- I lose 20, 30 bucks. That's not a big deal." You can stand on a New York street and see no one. NO ONE!! And for anyone who has any idea of New York- either you've lived here or have a conception of it. No one but you on the street at 9:00 at night, it just doesn't feel right.

"Nothing can kill The Grimace"

[Alice S. Fuzzybutt]

I have been permanantly
hardened. At first I was numb,
then I was angry, then I just
weeped. I feel helpless. I
went through my kitchen
cabinets and closet this
evening to give what I could
to the brave souls who are
doing what they can at ground
zero. I now have little
tolerence. I refuse to be
politically correct! But God
bless those who are doing what
they can at Ground Zero. God
Bless Them!!!

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[Dan]

I tried to put my reaction into words this morning. I have never felt more helpless in my life.

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[EffMeBoobs]

Numb, can't feel my fingers or toes. It's all a nightmare. I feel like I'm going to wake up and all of this is not really happening, right down to this very post. I can't close my eyes because all I envision is what I saw before my very own eyes standing in front of Holy Cross cemetary on the skyline looking out in North Arlington. Horror and destruction in front of my face, the 2nd jet flying into the tower and both towers collapsing. This is so unreal. We're so untouchable, or so I thought. This would never happen on our soil. The stories our grandparents told us of Pearl Harbor, WW2 and Vietnam never hit us because we never lived it. This is livable, engulfing each breath. Nothing we could ever embrace for. The truly unbeleivable now is beleivable. Being with loved ones that you see everyday is not being taken for grantd anymore. Be safe.

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[reeshy]

Hi Everybody,
First let me say that I'm alfully glad that everyone appears to be alright(at least physically-No joke intended)
I spent a good part of the day yesterday down at WTC. I still can't comprehend what I saw and experienced down there. I have seen burnt out buildings, accidents,disasters,etc. before but nothing in the whole world could prepare me for what I saw. I arrived early enough to engage in some of the removal of the bodies and searching adjacent buildings for survivors. I NEVER want to go through that again. I told GVAC that I am seriously considering putting my papers in for retirement. I have lost all ambition to follow this line of work ever.
What got to me the most was the utter lack of wounded or survivors. Everybody I saw was dead! I wasn't in any of the areas where they were recovering buried survivors.
I ran into my brother(he's a transit cop} down there. He found out that he had just lost a fireman friend of his at the site. We just cried together.
My dad is a retired 31 year nyc fireman. He's just devastated by the whole thing.
I'm beginning to ramble and I'm tired.I was sent home because I hurt my back( fell sown a flight of stairs in one of the high-risers nearby).
Again, I thank God that at least our little family is ok.

Love,

Kevin

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[Gvac]

Reeshy, until the events of
the past few days, I only
knew you as a fellow
"old-schooler" with some
funny sig pics. I feel like I
know you a lot better now,
and I'm a better man for it.
It's good to have you
around. I also want you to
know I fully support any
decision you make
concerning your future with
the NYPD. 21 years of
service and a bum back is
more than enough reason
to call it a career, but I know
that's easier said than
done. Good luck in
whichever path you choose.
Now go get some
rest, you're gonna need
every bit of strength in the
days to come.












This message was edited by gvac on 9-13-01 @ 1:01 AM

[Gvac]

SIMPLY KILL
THESE BASTARDS
By STEVE DUNLEAVY
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September 12, 2001 -- THE
response to this
unimaginable 21st century
Pearl Harbor should be as
simple as it is swift - kill the
bastards.

No, I don't mean hunt them,
arrest them, extradite them
and prosecute them in a
court of law.

I mean a far quicker and
neater form of retribution for
this cabal of cowards. A
gunshot between the eyes,
blow them to smithereens,
poison them if you have to.

President George W. Bush
should right now be putting
his name to a fresh
document - one that
rescinds Executive Order
12333, signed by President
Gerald Ford on Feb. 18,
1976.

It reads in part: "No person
employed by or acting on
behalf of the United States
should engage in
assassination or conspire
to engage in
assassination."

Right for that time, wrong for
this time.

Train assassins (we've
done it before), hire
mercenaries, put a couple
of million bucks up for
bounty hunters to get them
dead or alive, preferably
dead.

As for cities or countries
that host these worms,
bomb them into basketball
courts.

No, it won't bring back the
thousands of innocents and
the brave cops and
firefighters lost, but it might
stop the sacrifice of other
innocents.

"This is an act of war of an
enormity that is staggering,"
Sen. John McCain of
Arizona said yesterday.

Former Secretary of State
Gen. Alexander Haig said:
"We should be ready to take
resolute action, which we
have failed to in the past."

The point is that Osama bin
Laden has been at war with
us for a decade - make no
mistake, he's behind the
attacks.

At the beginning of the year,
he issued a video to his
followers urging them "to
penetrate" the United
States.

Only three weeks ago, he
was quoted in an Arabic
newspaper saying he was
preparing a big action
against our country.

He is the sole individual
who has the billions of
dollars, the training camps
and the fanatics to have
perpetrated this
sophisticated bloodbath.

Former Speaker of the
House Newt Gingrich said
yesterday: "This wasn't
planned in a handful of
homes by a handful of
fanatics."

When we put a rocket in the
pocket of Moammar
Khadafy, he went as quiet
as a mouse.

If the CIA can't find this
ameba Osama Bin Laden,
leave it to someone else.

We should give the Taliban,
which protects this
monster, 24 hours to clear
the city of Kabul of innocent
civilians and then start the
process of urban renewal
with high-altitude bombing.

Then we should go into the
interior, hunt down the
desert rat and execute him
and his followers on the
spot.

And if Saddam Hussein
makes so much as a peep,
do him, too.

The time has come.








Taken from the NY Post,
Wednesday, September 12,
2001





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[Sunrisa]

so.. sometimes I am really bad. the memory of what i saw..the smoke, flames the hole, then the collapse.it hits me again. i cry ..the building fell...so many people fell victim.
the videos are too much.
i have relied on gvac,perrynoid, circus boy..
i have gone from shock to panic, to my current emotion of sadness.
i thank all who have checked in with me online. i thank wes who held me as i freaked out as the building collapsed.
and maurice who i sat with as we were rushed out of hoboken.


i pray.
i breathe.
i dont sleep.
i hold my cat.
i can be terribly moody.
i worry.

[TomPoo]

I am a memeber of another message board, this board is mostly international people and I tried to convey what has happened here in and help them truly understand what we are going through. Here is what I wrote:

Everyone, I first would like to say reading the kind sentiments on this board is very comforting to people like me who live in NY.

I live 30 minutes outside the city in Long Beach, Long Island and to say what happened yesterday was a nightmare is putting it mildly.

I literally went 10 minutes down the road to the water to see nothing but a black cloud of dust and smoke cover the city sky line

And today as I looked again, the skyline cleared, but there was a gap in what use to be the single most defining charactoristic of the NY City Sky-line. The terrorist attack last night permantly scarred the US, and for the rest of my life every time drive to NY City, I will see a whole and be reminded of the thousands that died yesterday.

For the international members of this board imagine England without Big Ben, imagine France without the Eifell Tower, or Italy without the Collisium. You can't... it is unthinkable, unimaginable, and is now my (and many others) reality

Many have compared this to Pearl Harbor, but in fact it is much worse. Pearl Harbor was an Attack seperated from the connected 48 states in the middle of the PAcific, it was an Open declaration of war on the U.S. from Japan, and it was targeted to our military... around 3000 lives were lost.

This was an attack in the heart of the U.S., THE WORLD FUCKING TRADE CENTER... 50,000 civilians work there, and on any given day recieves around 80,000 people in daily traffic. Over 10,000 innocent lives of people just like you, me, and your parents, woke up for work to end up dead. 500 passengers on thse airplnes... dead... over 300 NY police and Firemen... dead. This attack was done in cowardess. Our attacker hides, and won't admit to commiting such a crime. THE U.S. is ready to declare WAR, but we don't know against who.

Today I watched thousands give blood, voluteer there services, and comfort those who lost family members. It showed me there act of terrorism failed. Instead of hiding in terror, we are out in numbers recovering others and ready now to fight. So as I watch on TV all the people in the Middle East celebrate; celebrating the loss of inocent lives... I know there celebration will be cut short and is all in vain... for they have awoke United States, they have awoke the people, they have awoke the sleeping dragon... and that may be there gravest mistake.

Please I ask all of you to pray, pray for the thousands of lives lost, pray for the families that were destoyed, and Pray U.S. finds our assailents and brings them to justice.

Everyone, you are witnessing the first days of a WAR that will affect all of your lives profoundly, God bless all of you.


Just to let you all know the response to this post was overwhelming, and the sympathy across the world is so great. Don't think for a minute that the other countries in the world don't support us, they want us to fight back against this attack on freedom as much as you and I.

REEKING of AWESOMENESS
----TomPoo

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[HordeKing1]

I've posted this elsewhere but it bears repeating.

There is no "right" or "wrong" way to feel now. All your feelings are completely valid. They are all normal.

I hope that no one feels bad for not feeling as they think they should. THERE IS NO CORRECT WAY TO FEEL.

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