What was your lowest point...

[fiestygal]

... and how did you turn your life around?


some people hit a low point and discover they need a change or a good kick in the ass to motivate them to change....any experiences with this?

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[JPMNICK]

whats yours?

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[fiestygal]

NO QUESTIONS WITH QUESTIONS! :p


see this is the thing...i am miserable with my life right now and i know i need to change something but i dont know how or even know what it is i need to change

i know thats very confusing and perhaps vague


that is why i asked that question

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[JPMNICK]

I was dating a girl who was away at school. I found out (not in a nice way), that she was cheating on me. I think I was 19 at the time. I was miserable. i started to do bad in school, argued with everyone around me. Drank all the time.

I realized i could not let her do this to me. I started by giving myself 3 weeks off from drinking. I then concentrated on school and started to do ALL my work. By the time the semester was done, it was my best one of college. I joined a gym and worked out to get the anger out. By the end of the summer, I was smarter, skinnier and in better shape!

I turned a negative into a positive. You can do the same. Do you think living in NYC is depressing you? or is the going back and forth bothering you? Is it money? Can you pinpoint anything?

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[Patches]

I hear you EXACTLY. I think I bottomed out.

Without getting into detail (you can find a small smidgeon of it in posts in this forum) everything pretty much went to shit since the beginning of the year- my personal life was fucked, everything was affecting my job, I was nearly fired, and I was in a very self destructive free fall (read between the 'lines'). I feel I am just now turning the corner.

I think you just need to give things time, talk things through with friends, calm down, and evaluate your priorities.

I don't know if any of that applies specifically to you, but as a great man once said:

Life's a hole. Dig it.

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[Jack_Doff]

Sleep in your car for a couple nights during the winter. Realizing that you can spend the rest of your life doing that kind of puts some perspective on things.

[Raven]

depression == smacking myself out of it after seeing others around have it worse

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[Yerdaddy]

Low point: Sucking dick for crack.

How I changed: Kept reminding myself "I don't even smoke crack. I don't even smoke crack."

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[reeshy]

When my wife died...don't know if I've turned my life around yet!!!!

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[monsterone]

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[Lumber]

I think you just need to give things time, talk things through with friends, calm down, and evaluate your priorities.



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This message was edited by njlumberdude on 8-7-04 @ 1:34 AM

[Contra]

I wouldn't get into too much detail with mine. I was pretty young, and...well...lets just say I am still alive so things worked out.

It put EVERYTHING in perspective for me. Now nothing really bothers me, or puts me in a "horrible" mood. I'm just chill. As long as you have the will to live, you can do anything, and that is the truth.

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[sr71blackbird]

I was at a point when I was literally lying in bed with tears running down my cheeks and wishing I would die. I felt my chest aching so deeply. I layed there like that and I imagined what would really happen if I did, I imagined it to a very detailed and morbid level and realised I didnt want to put my family through that. Then, I began to realise that they wouldnt want anything bad to happen to me, and I realised I was loved and that I loved. I decided that people who kill themselves either must be totally devoid of feelings for others who have to go one living, or they are at such a state that their minds rationalize death as being the answer and that they will be "at peace" afterward. I didnt want that to be me; I didnt want to imagine such an abyss. I lifted myself from that dispair with the power of love. That was 20 years ago. Once in a while I feel that things are at a low that approaches what I felt back then, but I just remember my conclusions and I get myself over it.
The worst pain you can put yourself though is unreciprocated love.

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[reeshy]

The worst pain you can put yourself though is unreciprocated love.


That may be true...a close second is probably loving someone very much and having them taken away from you and there's not a damn thing that you can about!!!!

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[Mike Teacher]

The day I got 5 hate e-mails from the same person; oh wait that was yesterday. :)

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[Yerdaddy]

hate e-mails? what's that?

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[reeshy]

Anybody who sends hate mail or E-mail is pathetic..That;s a shame

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[Lumber]

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This message was edited by njlumberdude on 8-9-04 @ 7:47 AM

[fiestygal]

The day I got 5 hate e-mails from the same person; oh wait that was yesterday.

cant you like notify aol or something so they back off or block them


maybe your the wrong person they are emailing

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[MHasegawa]

Yo, I'm with Contra on this one, no bullshit.

Who is Karim Garcia?? I no respect heem.
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[fluffernutter]

The lowest point I have been at is on the London Undergroundon at the Waterloo station on the Northern Line where the escalators seemed to have kept going down and down and down and I found out at the London Transit Museum that the tracks are 70 feet below sea level. The thing that i thought is just amazing about the Underground is how the tunnels were used as fallout shelters during the War. I know some were and there were some new ones built. But yeah, that was my lowest point.

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[DreamWeaver]

I'm at my lowest point right now. I've been single for a few months and trying to enjoy it. I've been dating a few guys here and there but I somehow keep fucking it up. I drink about 3 times a week sometimes 4 or 5. I'm fucking up in school. Ive been eating pills like crazy. Driving to work is becoming near impossible. I fall asleep on the road all the time. I also found myself thinking about driving into the median just so I don't have to go. I'd rather spend a month in the hospital then go to work. I haven't eaten a meal in probably 3 weeks. Every time I pee I shit water out of my ass. I lost 15 pounds in 2 weeks. I don't sleep ever. When I lay down my body twitches and I'm not sure if they're miny seizures. Oh and I was out with a guy last saturday all day and night and forgot about my dogs. I assumed my rommate was taking care of them but she wasn't. They shit all over the house and were shaking when we found them. I'm becoming the biggest fuckup in the world and I don't know how to turn it around. I'm losing all control over everything.

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[Jennitalia]

I think I'm finally out of my lowest point. My mid-late 20's were just really shitty. I sunk into a depression and just couldnt get out of it. I'd also drink regularly/heavily and popping pills . The lowest part was probably ruining my relationship with my ex who I lived with. I just wasnt ready to talk about it, deal with it, or was emotionally ready to work on things. There was nothing I, or anybody else could do or say to make me feel happy. i just didnt care about anything. i stayed in another relationship that wasnt supportive or emotionally there for me. I finally got the courage to start seeing a psychologist for a year. And it worked a little; I started seeing things in a different way, and it helped me prepare to make the changes in my life that I needed to make. I made a list of things I wanted to achieve, and things I needed to change about my life. It sounds corny, but it really does work. Four years later, and I can honestly say this is the happiest I've ever been in years.. I moved into a nicer apartment, I'm exercising more consistantly (by the way, I noticed that exercising really seems to keep my spirits and confidence up); I found a new job (altough it's not my ideal dream job, I like it much better than what I was doing), I have a great family, and I have the most fabulous boyfriend. It seems to be the most healthiest relationship I've ever been in. Yeah, I still drink and/or do some other things, but I'm not letting it control me. I know I'll always be mental, but I'm just relieved to be out of that god-awful funk.


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[keithy_19]

May of 8th grade year. Right around my birthday I had an attack(the second)which made the right side of my body useless. Couldn't walk without falling down, I was blind in my right eye. I felt like shit. I go to the doctor and they fix me up, some what, and tell me I have multiple sclerosis. Inform me I will have to inject myself every night. Possibly, one of only a few times that I contemplated suicide. I decided that no disease is gunna fuck with my will to live. I say that, but every night I wonder if I'll be able to walk in the morning. That's going to be for awhile I guess.

I also had a friend and the girl who I was in love with get to be a little to close. I lost my two best friends because they obviously didn't care about my feelings. I guess it took losing someone(2 people in this case)important to make me revaluate my life.

Since then, I've decided that I can only surround myself with people who care about me and the way I'm feeling. Amazingly enough, I found a girl. She's great. I second guessed my decision to go out with her so much it drove me crazy. I eventually decided that I can't second guess myself anymore.

This is probably not useful at all, but I'll keep you in my prayers.

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[A.J.]

hate e-mails? what's that?

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[ChickenHawk]

What was your lowest point...
RIGHT NOW.

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[Mike Teacher]

cant you like notify aol or something so they back off or block them


Nah, its a non-AOL name; so...

It doesn't bother me in the least, I just put it here after looking at my 'recently deleted mail' folder and seeing the same addy five times in a row.

I get the first mail; read half a sentence, yep, it's them, with an agenda so old it boggles the mind. My first response was simply "Im Deleting These" in the subject line, and a 'please stop emailing me' in the letter, and that triggered the others.

Let me tell ya it IS very tempting to open a mail, and a discipline to delete it and then permanently delete it, but whatever was in them? It's not for me. Hate takes up so much energy in our lives. So much wasted energy. Our default channels of associational thinking can draw us in, but it takes two to tango, so, I say sorry, I'll sit this dance out! :)

[Edit: oh, and it's no one on the board so...]

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This message was edited by Mike Teacher on 8-10-04 @ 10:51 AM

[saveopieanthony.net]

I was (and still am) in love with this girl (i still) work with. We were inseparatable and spent all the time we could together. If wasn't a matter IF we were going to hang out...it was what we were going to do. It was obvious I was into her, so it must have been to her and everyone we knew. I was getting tickets through work for the concerts she wanted....gifts on her birthday the whole nine yards. I was literally completely in love and she did like me....she just didn't want me. It lasted over a year so, it wasn't a crush or anything.

I realized we were spending less time together and I thought she had feelings for another guy we work with. I asked her about it and she was like "no way" at first...but eventually the answers softened. I was hanging out at a party with everyone we work with and I overheard two drunk girls talking about how the girl was banging the guy the night before and how he was in bed. I was crushed.

Also, a side note, about 3 months after I meet her and I was into her and everything, she ended up hooking up with my boss at the company christmas party. everyone knew I liked her...i left early....honestly for 2 seconds I thought I saw him walk away from her when he saw i was next to her...but didn't think anything of it. i found out (as usual) overhearing it from a girl we work with from someone who thought I had already knew.

Honestly, I feel like some of you girls have said before. I'm in my 20s and honestly feel like I have nothing more to give. I have nothing to look forward to. I still work ten feet away from this girl. I hate myself. I took out the mirrors from my place because I can't stand to look at myself. Honestly I feel like a piece of me inside died after I realized she was banging and living with this other guy. The only things that even make me sad enough to cry are 9/11 and her.

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[JPMNICK]

damn man, that is some shit! I feel really bad. do you think it may be worth it to quit the job so you can start to move on?

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[saveopieanthony.net]

can't quit....it's a good office job where i'm not carrying cases of beer up stairs and waiting tables like I did through college. Also, I could do almost anything wrong and not get fired. I've been here 5 years (this month actually) and she's been here 3. honestly it wouldn't even make a difference... I would still think about her getting banged by this guy and think of all the times that happened while I was still thinking she was the greatest girl in the world.

then again, I should've known better because her pictures from college and high school has her wearing short skirts and she looked like a slut. that should've been a warning sign.

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[Furtherman]

has her wearing short skirts and she looked like a slut.


That don't make you a bad person!

You need some new tail.... ASAP.

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[JPMNICK]

I agree with furtherman. You need a chick in your life BAD!!Have you dated anyone else in the last 2 or 3 years or have you been waiting for her?

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[ChickenHawk]

The last thing he needs now is a chick.

Take a break from the bitches my man. Hang out with your guy friends, do guy things, watch SportCenter, go to a Yankee game, drink beer, eat a hamburger, and reclaim your balls. Take back your manhood, and forget about ho's for a while.

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[saveopieanthony.net]

I can't believe I'm writing this stuff down, but I can't afford a shrink, so it's kinda helping me out to explain it...because I can't talk about it with anyone. It's a long story and I don't care if anyone reads it, but it helps me go through everything in my head i guess.

Here's a dose of irony for you...check this story out.

(In order to better tell this part of the story of my dreams will be Dreamgirl and the guy who is currently going out with her is Yankeefan..i couldn't do it without naming them something). For the record i'm not a "stalker" or obsessed guy..I really really fell hard for this girl...I told her I wanted her to happy...i just wish I wanted the same for myself.

Now it's last spring, so the lovely couple Dreamgirl and Yankeefan are together...living together at that point ..."as friends" but they were going out...whatever. Dreamgirl sends out a mass email and throws a get together for the people we work with for a party at a nearby bar..made reservations for a large table, the whole nine.

As a side note, there was this other girl we worked with i'll call "Cutie" that was cute and I thought WAY out of my league when I first met her. I noticed her and Yankeefan were working close together....even though he was going out with Dreamgirl at the time. Apparently on a "break", Dreamgirl went home and Yankeefan invited Cutie to their place to "hang out". Now I've never pushed on what exactly happened...but I know that they at least hooked up. I don't know how far it went and honestly at the time I didn't ask or even later. Eventually Dreamgirl and Yankeefan got back together like the next week, and Yankeefan told everyone we work with, (all the office gossip sluts...including Dreamgirl) that Cutie was crazy....made stuff up....and wanted him.

Cutie had problems, mainly an eatin disorder, but she ended up being shunned from the people we work with. I mean she didn't talk to people because she knew what they were saying...it really bothered her to be called crazy. And all the girls ganged up because she was labeled a crazy boyfriend stealer/slut. I swear it was a really shitty thing to do by Yankeefan...and I wasn't liking him before that happened.

Anyway, I noticed that me and Cutie had something in common....we didn't want to see the lovely couple together. Anyway I asked her out the night of the get together because I knew she didn't want to go and everyone we work with would be there....and she was really cool and said she would love to.

We went out for three months, hooked up, kept it secret because of the circumstances. Honestly no one would've believed I was going out with her because we kept it on the down low. Only my best friend who worked with us knew. I finally get confidence, and feel her liking me...we hung out all the time, she introduced me to her friends from home at her birthday party....I really felt comfortable around her.

I know it was only like four months total...but one day we're on a double date with my best friend and his girl hanging out...and she tells me we can't go out anymore. She says she's leaving in three weeks and doesn't want to get even more attached to me because she's going back home....which is 1,000 miles away. She really did feel bad for me because of what happened...because of how she said it and how she left.

I later found out that Yankeefan (who was working above her on the same piece of business) was the majority of the reason she left.
Yankeefan ended up taking one girl I really cared about away for himself and pushed another girl I really cared about 1,000 miles away. To top it off, Dreamgirl is none the wiser, and doesn't think anything happened between them. Finally, to top it off....Yankeefan ended up leaving our office like 2 1/2 months later after Cutie left for home. Fucking figures right....if she would've stayed a little longer....I know we would still be going out.

I haven't told anyone but my best friend what happened. I drink every day. I hate myself. I couldn't get it out of m

[grlNIN]

Girls are notorious for being evil, that's no shocker, with that aside here's all i really have to say on the subject at the moment....

She's with someone else, that someone else appears to be a Professor of Dickology, she doesn't know he cheated on her and yet she still doesn't care about you or your feelings, that's very apparent to see. They sound like a match made in heaven if you ask me and you're better off without her.

As far as the other chick, well that was unfortunate but that's life, shit happens so try to move on and not dwell on the "whys" and "what could have beens". Go out with your friends, like Hawk suggested, you're young i don't see why you're wanting to jump into one relationship after the other.

This is always why you should steer cleer of office relationships, they always end up awkward and a huge fucking mess. If you don't have to talk to the girl, or the guy for that matter then don't. Have other people mediate as much as you can and only talk to them when you have to really.

Having no confidence and pretty much hating who you are because someone you were never dating to begin with started seeing someone else? This may be a stretch but i think you might have deeper issues to deal with and should maybe talk to someone, a professional about 'em.

No one is worth hating yourself over.

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[saveopieanthony.net]

Much appreciated Grlnin..thanks for even reading and especially for your feedback.

One thing, I don't talk to her or him at all and kinda cut myself out of that "circle of friends" entirely..and everyone has an idea why.

I know she doesn't care about me. I'm already passed that point of acceptance....but only after I thought I'd have several times and hadn't. I know myself and about a year ago I really came to accept it, so I'm past that point.

On the relationship thing, you're kinda right. I wasn't able to get into a relationship with a girl for a year before Cutie last year and although it was only three months I really fell for her.... I crashed with her living and felt like I was reliving the initial crash with Dreamgirl because I held Yankeefan responible for (in order of preference)

a) hurting Cutie
b) making Cutie leave
c) banging Dreamgirl

Honestly and truthfully, I became more enraged when I found out the details of how he hurt Cutie than originally because he took Dreamgirl away. Honestly I found that interesting because that's how I truly felt and feel.

I'm not in a hurry...I don't even try to get into another relationship. I'm just been down on myself for a long time now.

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[Furtherman]

I don't want to meet anyone else because I know that they will leave me or not even bother with me. I have no confidence and ooze with a negative vibe all the time. I don't care about my job or girls anymore.


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[saveopieanthony.net]

One of my fav movie lines from one of my fav 80s movies :


Joe:
I know what you need...you need to find a girl that looks just like her and dump her man.

Lloyd:
I got a question...if you guys know so much about women, how come you're here at like the Gas 'n' Sip on a Saturday Night completely along drinking beers with no women anywhere

Joe:
By Choice, Man

Steve
Yeah, a Conscious Choice.

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