ever feel like this?

[Don Stugots]

If there is a thread for this already, I am sorry. I looked and didnt see one.

I feel like I am nothing. I feel like that at 32 years old I have done nothing in my life that I wanted. Sure I have a good job, and i am at a slightly high level of success. But still I have not done much. I have never traveled outside of the country.

I can not stand people that insist on lying. As if I am that f*kcing dumb that I can not see through what you are saying. Stupid. If you think that the lie is going to spare my feelings, think again, knowing that you are lying hurts my feelings 1000 times more that the truth. The truth I will deal with, the truth I will get over. Know why stupid? Because it was the truth. I cant stand anyone that talks to me for more than 10 mins. I am sick to my stomach to hear about my friends kids and how great they are. The people on the train are the worst when they are on the phone and talk so loud. Do you really think that you life is that fascinating? Do you think you are that interesting? I would just like to grab some of these people and beat them to a bloddy plup and then piss on their faces. Then as they lay there thriving in pain with broken bones, torn cartilege bleeding internally I want to laugh the loudest laugh I have ever had. Just to see the look on there flattened faces.

[Don Stugots]

p.s. thank you, I feel alittle but better.

[Marc with a c]

are you single?<br />

[Death Metal Moe]

<p>Of course I've felt like that.&nbsp; Everyone does, just for different lengths of time.</p><p>What you have to do is find something you do well or at least enjoy doing.&nbsp; You cannot depend on others for your happiness.&nbsp; Others can help but you have to be satisfied with yourself and what you're doing 1st.&nbsp; It's also good to gain some inner strength because people will let you down, all the time.&nbsp; They might not even mean it but they will.</p><p>Other than that I have little to say really.&nbsp; If you find it's getting really bad in your own head, I'd suggest looking for someone to talk to and possibly some help.&nbsp; </p>

[sr71blackbird]

<img height="219" src="http://forbiddentruth.8k.com/images/dahmer1.jpg" width="216" border="0" />

[Furtherman]

<p>Ever since I started huffing gasoline, I've never felt like that again.</p><p>*ding ding*</p>

[suggums]

<p>you need</p><p><img border="0" src="http://img133.imageshack.us/img133/8814/monakedhoes2xg.gif" />&nbsp;</p>

[Jennitalia]

<p>just a little head's up:&nbsp; you can say FUCK here.&nbsp; No need to censor yourself.</p><p>Chin up!!</p>

[Don Stugots]

<p>&nbsp;i know that i am not the only one that feels like this.&nbsp;No, I am not single.&nbsp;</p><p>the only thing that I can equate it to is having a mdilife crisis.&nbsp; But I am only 32!&nbsp; I shouldnt feel like this yet.</p><p>I work hard at my job, and it is not eay, and I used to love it.&nbsp; now i go through the motions and could care less if the place burnt to the ground.&nbsp; </p><p>Oh well it will pass, i guess.&nbsp; thanks for listening and not judging.&nbsp; </p>

[Jennitalia]

i do know how you feel.&nbsp; try to figure out what would really make you happy in life&nbsp; - careerwise and with your personal life, and then go for it.&nbsp; yeah, it's very overwhelming, but take it one step at a time.&nbsp; you dont have to conquer it all at once.&nbsp; but with each thing you figure out and accomplish, it just motivates you to go further.&nbsp; good luck, bro.

[Gvac]

<p>&nbsp;</p><p>&nbsp;</p><hr width="100%" size="2" /><span class="postbody">
I feel like I am nothing. I feel like that at 32 years old I have done
nothing in my life that I wanted. Sure I have a good job, and i am at a
slightly high level of success. But still I have not<br />done much. I have
never traveled outside of the country.</span><p>&nbsp;</p><hr width="100%" size="2" /><p>&nbsp;</p><p>&nbsp;</p><p>You've literally done <em>nothing </em>that you wanted?</p><p>I find that hard to believe.</p><p>And be honest; whose expectations are you trying to live up to?&nbsp;</p><p>&nbsp;</p>

[SinA]

<p>dave would say</p><p><img height="312" src="http://www.i80s.net/images/david_lee_roth4.jpg" width="264" border="0" /></p><p><font size="4"><strong>Might as well JUMP!</strong></font></p>

[KC2OSO]

<img border="0" src="http://www.njmikec.com/images/moes.gif" />

[JerryTaker]

<p>Sure I have a good job, and i am at a slightly high level of success.</p><p>Just with this you're doing better than a lot of people. With the financial strain that society puts on us these days. Imagine the opposite, having lots of things you enjoy doing, but you need to spend every waking hour finding the money to exist rather than doing anything that you <em>do </em>enjoy.</p>

[JerryTaker]

<p>Know why stupid? Because it was the truth. I cant stand anyone that talks to me for more than 10 mins. I am sick to my stomach to hear about my friends kids and how great they are. The people on the train are the worst when they are on the phone and talk so loud. Do you really think that you life is that fascinating? Do you think you are that interesting? I would just like to grab some of these people and beat them to a bloddy plup and then piss on their faces. Then as they lay there thriving in pain with broken bones, torn cartilege bleeding internally I want to laugh the loudest laugh I have ever had. Just to see the look on there flattened faces. </p><p>&nbsp;</p><p>Now that I think of it, I'm kind of disgusted that you have such a low opinion of people, yet you're still a successful person. Maybe you're not happy because you look on people with such disdain that you're simply an incurable malcontent.</p><p>I'll admit to being an incurable malcontent myself, but at least I will lend myself to helping people, rather than wanting to piss on them after speaking to them for 10 minutes...</p>

[BoondockSaint]

What happenend to this being the forum that you could post in and not have to worry about being tooled on?

[JerryTaker]

<p>What happenend to this being the forum that you could post in and not have to worry about being tooled on?</p><p>Nobody asked that in my old threads in here, but, y'know, I never deserved defense.</p>

[Tenbatsuzen]

<strong>JerryTaker</strong> wrote:<br /><p>&nbsp;</p>What happenend to this being the forum that you could post in and not have to worry about being tooled on? <p>&nbsp;</p><p>Nobody asked that in my old threads in here, but, y'know, I never deserved defense.</p><p>&nbsp;</p><p>That's because you pretty much shat on any advice that people gave you, which pretty much voided the no-tooling rule.</p>

[Death Metal Moe]

<strong>KC2OSO</strong> wrote:<br /><img src="http://www.njmikec.com/images/moes.gif" border="0" /> <p>HA!&nbsp; Thanks, that was good.</p>

[Death Metal Moe]

<strong>Tenbatsuzen</strong> wrote:<br /><strong>JerryTaker</strong> wrote: What happenend to this being the forum that you could post in and not have to worry about being tooled on? <p>Nobody asked that in my old threads in here, but, y'know, I never deserved defense.</p><p>That's because you pretty much shat on any advice that people gave you, which pretty much voided the no-tooling rule.</p><p>I'm not yelling at you Tenbats but....</p><p>JESUS CHRIST I can't do another fucking Jerry thread tonight.&nbsp; Please.</p>

[JerryTaker]

<p>That's because you pretty much shat on any advice that people gave you, which pretty much voided the no-tooling rule.</p><p>Not making this a jerry thread (geez, I've been away for months now) but I have to defend myself, because I never shat on anyone's advice, I had just tried it all before, and people think that I have some kind of limitless source of income or friends with contacts that I could draw from, and pushing someone like me to join the millitary is not helpful, so give it a rest, mr tall and perfect diction, and &quot;I command so much respect because I'm an Alpha Male and I'm&nbsp;better than you&quot; BS, because it doesn't work on people like me, ok?</p><p>so back to the topic, of which I've already said what I think...</p>

[newport king]

Sounds like somebody's got a case of the mondays.

[Death Metal Moe]

<p>You know Jerry I was thinking about this last night and you're right.&nbsp; You did drop a few threads in here weeks ago and you did get tooled on.&nbsp; I was one of those people</p><p>For that I apologize.&nbsp; It was wrong of me to do that.</p><p>The &quot;That's Life&quot; forum should be a place you can just go and vent sometimes and we did forget that for awhile.</p><p>I find it aggrevating dealing with you from time to time because your posts remind me of the parts of myself I fight to keep at bay everyday, but I shouldn't have taken it out on you.</p>

[Dirtybird12]

<p>buy a convertible, start fucking 20 yr olds, smoke weed laced with RAID, write bad songs, and just pretend you are special. fake it my friend...fake it. </p>

[Gvac]

<p>A wise man once said &quot;compete with no one, and no one can compete with you.&quot;</p><p>Either use that as inspiration, or follow Perry's advice.</p><p>I'd leave out the Raid, though.&nbsp;</p>

[Don Stugots]

Jerry, I think you come pretty close to how I feel.

My distain for other's come from a few things.
I have put my goals, wants, etc aside to help my friends and family.

I have worked really hard to life to get where i am, and I have tried to help others only to be let down when I needed help. Or to see them sit in judgement of me for where I am.

When I see people that cant make or cant figure shit out (like family constantly needing advise or how to get their voicemail or their cell phone) i get frustrated. Like "WHY CANT YOU FIGURE THIS OUT, IT IS SO SIMPLE!"

would any of this make me a cramudgin? (SP?) or cantercerous?

Circus, I think I do a great job at faking it already everytime I look at someone and fake my interest in what they are saying.

I am sure all of this is larger in my head then it really is. I also think that once the weather gets warmer, I will feel better. I hate the cold and winter.

[Death Metal Moe]

<p>I have worked really hard to life to get where i am, and I have tried to help others only to be let down when I needed help. Or to see them sit in judgement of me for where I am.</p><p>&nbsp;</p><p>That's why you can't help someone, expecting anything back later.&nbsp; You help people because you want to or don't bother.</p>

[Don Stugots]

<hr color="cococo" align="left"></font><strong>Death Metal Moe</strong> wrote:<br><p><hr color="cococo" align="left"></font>I have worked really hard to life to get where i am, and I have tried to help others only to be let down when I needed help. Or to see them sit in judgement of me for where I am.<hr color="cococo" align="left"></p><p> </p><p>That's why you can't help someone, expecting anything back later. You help people because you want to or don't bother.</p><hr color="cococo" align="left"><p></p>

Moe,
I think you misunderstand, I dont help people thinking that they will do for me in return, but when I do need help I dont think it is right to be told "oh, sorry, I am too busy". Or something along those lines.

[Billy Staples]

<p>Those were the days my friend</p><p>we thought they'd never end</p><p>&nbsp;</p><p>&nbsp;</p><p>&nbsp;</p><p>this sounds like a case for..the real life Xanax man, woman whatever</p><p><img height="350" src="http://u1.netgate.net/~mette/fandom/costumes/super/Super.jpg" width="225" border="0" /></p>

[Don Stugots]

<hr color="cococo" align="left"></font><strong>Billy Staples</strong> wrote:<br><p>Those were the days my friend</p><p>we thought they'd never end</p><p> </p><p> </p><p> </p><p>this sounds like a case for..the real life Xanax man, woman whatever</p><p><img height="350" src="http://u1.netgate.net/~mette/fandom/costumes/super/Super.jpg" width="225" border="0" /></p><hr color="cococo" align="left"><p></p>

Billy, your posts make me laugh more and more as I read them. thanks. where can you be seen doing stand up?

I have never, nor would i take pills. my bouts with depression over the years have been won and/or lost by will power, diet and excerise.

Right now this diet I am on, which is working great, is making my loopy.

[Billy Staples]

<p><strong><em>Billy staples...where can you be seen doing stand up?</em></strong> </p><p>oh boy...woo hoo, now my sides are hurtin, who is the funny one now....geez....me doing stand up...fuckin hysterical, you kill me hew...ok better, that got me man, thanks I needed the laugh </p><p>&nbsp;</p><p>Unless you got one of those way back machines, you are going to have to wait for the second coming......now you know how the Jews feel, They are re still waiting for my first time (in essence, as a joke only)</p><p>&nbsp;</p><p>you say&quot;&nbsp; ( I love this)</p><p><strong><em>I have never, nor would i take pills. my bouts with depression over the years have been won and/or lost by will power, diet and excerise. </em></strong></p><p><strong><em>Right now this diet I am on, which is working great, is making my loopy.</em></strong> </p><p><strong /></p><p>&nbsp;</p><p><strong>Hey, if its workin out so well for ya, why consider anything else <img src="http://www.ronfez.net/messageboard/tiny_mce/plugins/emotions/images/help.gif" border="0" />&nbsp; that is pretty funny bro.</strong></p><p><strong /></p><p>what is this diet causing depression?&nbsp;&nbsp; I could try the opposite.</p><p>&nbsp;</p><p>if you are so holistic...god I hate this and saying......exercise....some real life chemical in your body can help ya......just sounds like so much work when you can get a script or a phone call, but to each his own.</p><p>&nbsp;</p><p>go listen and post the words and music the Mary Hopkins, &quot;Those were the days my friend&quot;.&nbsp; Put them up here, listen to some more real depressing music and if you make it through the night you're all set.</p><p>&nbsp;</p><p>here is my depressing set of music</p><p>&nbsp;</p><p>ticking- Elton John, funeral for a friend</p><p>Mike and the Mechanics - The living years</p><p>Roger Miller -King of the Road</p><p>ICP - Oddities</p><p>Simple plan - How could this happen to me (video necessary)</p><p>What a wonderful world - Louis Armstrong</p><p>Halllujah - Jeff Buckley</p><p>since Ive been loving you - Led Zeppelin Gethsemane - I only want to say from Jesus Christ superstar</p><p>These Xmas shoes ( only for emergencies)</p><p>I dont like Mondays - boomtown Rats</p><p>Boomtown - David and David </p><p>toy soldiers - Martika</p><p>Fiona Apple - I'm Not an addict, criminal, if we kissed</p><p>Evanescense - my immortal</p><p>gunners dream (Te Final cur) -Pink Floyd</p><p>(the last thoughts of a guy shot out of the back of a B-52 as he floats down to the ground to instant death)</p><p>REM- Everybody hurts</p><p>When the tigers broke free _ the Wall _Pink Floyd( Not on the album)</p><p>the little boy that Christmas forgot - Vera Lynn ( Only when the razor blades are out bro)<br /></p><p>Hurt - Johnny cash and Fiona apple</p><p>Johnny Cash&nbsp;- Sunday Morning coming down, green green grass of home</p><p>Neil diamond - I am I said, Hello Again</p><p>Conquistador - Procul Harum</p><p>Bridge over troubled Waters Simon&nbsp;&amp; Garfunkle or Johnny Cash &amp; Fiona apple</p><p>Creep - radiohead</p><p>Talk Shows o Mute - Incubus ( when life was good)</p><p>Daddy's Little Girl - Faith Hill, butterfly Kisses</p><p>Harry Chapin - Taxi (very personal reasons)</p><p>Gordon Lightfoot If you could read my mind </p><p>red Roses for a blue lady - Dean Martin and assorted</p><p>Vanilla Fudge - Keep me hangin on</p><p>and finally....but very true</p><p>&nbsp;</p><p>Garth Brooks - the Dance</p><p>&nbsp;</p><p>Ok, thats enough for tonight...ticking and those were the days, a great starter set</p><p>&nbsp;</p><p>&nbsp;</p><p>&nbsp;</p><p>Yeah, I guess I have more depressed down time than I though, shit, I didnt even list em all....too bad didnt have this before, woulda been a helluva show.&nbsp; bro spring is here....Seasonal depression</p><p>&nbsp;</p><p>&nbsp;</p><p>thats waht they call it for you lighweights, hang in there, listen to the tunes, groove out, think of tyhe movie alive and soccer players eating each other....things could be worse</p>

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[Don Stugots]

Billy the diet is the fat smash diet. It is working too, in 2 weeks I am down 12 pounds. The first 9 days is "detox", where you only can eat fruits, veggies and salads. No bread, no meat, no chicken even, no BEER, no white rice, nothing fried. The next stage has you slowly introducing real food back into your diet slowly and in small amounts.

I think it was making me loopy because of food withdrawel. Yes, I am a food addict. I never had a real drinking problem, or a drug problem, but when it comes to food I need an intervention.

I cant explain why I would never take a pill to feel better. But I will try if anyone is interested. To me it is like giving contol of my emotions over to someone or something else. That pill, and that doctor will dictate how I will feel. Maybe I am worng. Like you said, to each his own, as long as it works for you.

Billy if stand up is out for you, try writing a book. Just of your thoughts, experiences, etc. Write in the third person, it might change how you feel about some things. It also makes for a interesting method of therapy. Also, if you ever need to talk to someone, feel free to drop me a line. Same goes for anyone here that is reading this.