i cant fucking take it anymore

[GwEnYpOo]

im crying all the time , nothing is going the way i want it to in my life , i babysit my sister constantly , my mom is never home , i never get to go out . im failing school . i can't wake up in the morning because i wake up about 50 times a night , my dog id fucking dying , he's like practicaly incontinent and he can barely stand up and my mom will not put him to sleep even tho he's suffering and i gotta take care of him every day , i feel like i might be losing "that feeling" for my boyfriend , but i know if he broke  up with me i would just fall to pieces . im so tired . i just want to rest and go to sleep . i want to be pretty and good enough and i just cant be . i cant be everything all at once and i dont know what to do  . i feel so lost and tired and fucking disoriented , and my medication is not helping me in the least . to make it worse every one thinks i have this great life and i have everything going for me andi dont , and whwen poeple say that its like they're rubbing it in my face . i need help , i need someone to just take me away from everything but thats never gonna happen and i dont know what to do  . i dont evenknow why im posting this , im just asking for shit but i dont care i just need to get my feelings out.this all just hit me at once and i feel like im about to break.

[LongIslandRob]

wow.  i really feel for you.  everybody goes through a rough patch where everything goes against them.  I wish there was something I could do for you....

[blakjeezis]

<a href="http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=-699919829266401680&pl=true" target="_blank">Maybe this will help</a>. It cheered me up a little.

[LongIslandRob]

hey, i'm from staten island, where are you from?

[Don Stugots]

Gwen, I sent you a PM.

If you were bumbed out about being from staten island I can understand. But to think that you are not pretty? what mirror are you looking in? you look like avril.

Also, need a chuckle, then go download the clip of Dice finds Christ. too too funny. it always makes me feel better.

[Hottub]

<strong>blakjeezis</strong> wrote:<br /><a href="http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=-699919829266401680&pl=true" target="_blank">Maybe this will help</a>. It cheered me up a little. <p>BJ that was CLASSIC! I'm still laughing. Nice find.</p>

[Hottub]

<p>Gwen, it does seem like a lot is going on all at once, but things do get better.</p><p>Then they can get worse again.</p><p>The wife is pissed off at me. The kid is getting into trouble at school, I'm gonna be late with the mortgage payment, my car is dying and I can't afford a new one right now.</p><p>Not to belittle anything that is going on in your life. That is certainly not my intention. Life just has a way of throwing us a few curves. Sometimes simultaneously. It's hard, but you can always manage to work your way out. And by doing that you become a stronger and wiser person.</p><p>You are a bright, funny, intelligent young woman, and I know you will make it through this.</p><p>PM me anytime you want!</p>

[GwEnYpOo]

<p>wow the babies helped alot : ) thanx</p><p>thanx to everyone who pmed me to </p><p>oh and im from tottenville</p>

[DarkHippie]

Maybe you need new medicine.&nbsp; I tend to build a tolerance to mine every couple of years.&nbsp; And therapy.&nbsp; therapy helps more than anything.&nbsp;

[Justice4all]

<p>Gwen, it seems that you are going thru alot of things all condensed into one moment. That is alot of pressure for ANYONE to be in. I feel for you, as most people would. Only because most of us have had those days, and still do. We all have those weeks (the hell with days) where it seems all the shit falls on you and there is nothing that can happen to make it all better.</p><p>But eventually it does get better. That is a promise. Just give it time. You seem pretty tough...I know you can make it thru. There are plenty of people who will listen if you need to talk. That does help.</p><p>Also maybe someone professionaly might be able to help you (ie; counselor). They might point you in a direction you did not know was there. </p><p>In the meantime keep you chin up and know there are people rooting for you!</p>

[narc]

Call me crazy and self-destructive, but I've burnt down a lot in my life when it starts to go south and then built over and started again more times than I care to admit. It works for me.

[landarch]

<p>Sorry if anyone read that post.&nbsp; I re-read gwen's initial post and realized that beer and the internet sometimes do not mix.&nbsp; I gave a long and watered down reply that was somewhere between irrelevant and inappropriate to your situation, to which I am completely ignorant.&nbsp; </p><p>In short, I just hope you feel better soon.</p>

<span class=post_edited>This message was edited by luvafroshows on 4-29-06 @ 3:25 AM</span>

[pennington]

<strong>Justice4all</strong> wrote:<br /><p>But eventually it does get better. That is a promise. Just give it time. </p><p>&nbsp;</p><p>This is true.&nbsp; Then when bad things happen again, you know&nbsp;it&nbsp;could&nbsp;be a lot worse.</p><p>Then of course, if you're a guy, you look at naked women on the internet and you feel better.&nbsp; I'm not sure what women do.</p>

[Kewlkat]

<p>Then of course, if you're a guy, you look at naked women on the internet and you feel better.&nbsp; I'm not sure what women do. </p><blockquote /><p>&nbsp;</p><p>The ones that are bi or les do the same thing.&nbsp; <img src="http://www.ronfez.net/messageboard/tiny_mce/plugins/emotions/images/dry.gif" border="0" />&nbsp; Not sure what the straight ones do.&nbsp; <img src="http://www.ronfez.net/messageboard/tiny_mce/plugins/emotions/images/wacko.gif" border="0" /></p>

<span class=post_edited>This message was edited by Kewlkat on 4-30-06 @ 6:52 PM</span>

[TheRealEddie]

<p>heh, I'm originally from the north shore around the silver lake area. </p><p> </p><p><br /> </p>

<span class=post_edited>This message was edited by TheRealEddie on 5-2-06 @ 2:14 AM</span>

[Don Stugots]

you know I was thinking about this thread today since I found that there is a 99% chance I will be losing my job in a few months, and seeign my ex-wife with her new born baby (not mine, we divorced 6 years ago, and have still never spoken a word to each other). Life is a cycle. You have good times, and bad times. My life has gone through so many phases that at times I feel like it was another life altogether. If anyone is down, chin up and smile (it confuses people), things do get better. I am proof of that.