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ShelleBink

08-18-2006, 06:25 AM

I can't really think straight since I got some shitty news yesterday that might result in me having cancer.  I went though the same process about 5 years ago and luckily was in the clear.  I just don't feel I might have the same luck this time around.  I guess I just needed to put that out there, because walking around the house crying isn't doing much good.

Dougie Brootal

08-18-2006, 06:27 AM

damn that sucks! i hope everything turns out ok for you.

HeyGuy

08-18-2006, 06:31 AM

Good luck hope everything comes back clear again for you. Think positive!

Jennitalia

08-18-2006, 06:33 AM

Shelle, I went through a similar thing when I was your age.  It scared the fuck out of me.  I had to get a couple of procedures done, which was probably one of the worst experiences of my life.  And both my sisters had similar problems (runs in the family, nice).  It's 10 years later, and I'm fine.   Hang in there.  PM me if you want to talk

ShelleBink

08-18-2006, 06:36 AM

I might take you up on the offer when I get back from my weekend getaway, which is now going to suck knowing my mom had to tell everyone within a 150 mile radius about my issue.  Nothing like being stared at with pity and uncomfortable silences... but I guess that's true for any family reunion.. hehe.

Keotok

08-18-2006, 06:40 AM

Hang in there Shelle.  There's plenty of people here to talk to, or just vent if you need to. 
I truely  hope all comes out clear.  I've been there myself a few times.  The waiting can be tortuous.Good luck, and keep us updated....

ShelleBink

08-18-2006, 06:42 AM

I just made the initial appointment for September 8th... seems so f'g far away ((and I'll be back in college that week)).  Ugh.

terry1979

08-18-2006, 06:53 AM

Hang in there Shelle.  ANd try not to expect the worst.  Sept 8th is three weeks away from today and is going to come whether you mind-fuck your situation until then or not.  Tackle it that day, not today.  Enjoy your weekend, there are only 2 or 3 left in the summer and from reading previous previous posts you have had a great summer on the beach and you deserve to finish it out as great, not dreadful.

JustJon

08-18-2006, 07:01 AM

Shelle, I know you'll be ok.  Just keep your head up.

angelinad128

08-18-2006, 07:40 AM

Think positive, it will be fine.

phixion

08-18-2006, 08:40 AM

wow im sorry shellebut ur not alone, my dad has/had prostate cancer, during the family meeting the dr said he would bet his practice that i will get it as well. west indians are more prone to prostate cancer than anyother people on the planet. yay me.

narc

08-18-2006, 08:42 AM

It's hard to do, but try not to worry about it until you find out for sure. Worrying only makes things worse, and I'm sure all of us will be sending good thoughts your way.

FUNKMAN

08-18-2006, 08:59 AM

Best Wishes!

nate1000

08-18-2006, 09:17 AM

Is it insensitive to suggest that you post those requested pics quickly?              I am only kidding. Best of luck. Chances are, even if it is the big casino, sounds like you've caught it early.

ChimneyFish

08-18-2006, 09:19 AM

My heart goes out to you, shelle.As everyone else said, try not to ruin your weekend thinking about it. If there's one thing I learned, it's that you can't truly live, thinking of what tomorrow may bring.

DJEvelEd

08-18-2006, 09:41 AM

There are MANY online support groups that can really help alot. I belong to a couple of spine message boards/support groups and the info I get there is priceless. If I didn't have these groups I would be going to a surgeon with no experience...WITH an artificial disc that is not as good as the one that I waited for to be released this week (Prodisc™) It was a long wait but it will be worth it in the long run. I refused to accept what my insurance company thought was best for me.I knew the FDA approved the Prodisc™ before my nurse did. Educate yourself on your condition and be your own mentor. PM me if you want some websites on what I suspect is your issue.

scorpion

08-18-2006, 10:21 AM

Good luck will say a prayer for you.

ChrisTheCop

08-18-2006, 10:35 AM

Well, in case you didnt know before, it's obvious now that theres alotta people here to lean on and/or to pray for you. That should bring a little bit of a smile to your face.No one likes the word, perhaps the scariest in the english language. But please dont ruin your weekend or your month for that matter worrying until you know your results. Many times symptoms, or even an actual cyst (sp) are not cancerous. So lets all pray for that.I've recently become pretty well versed in regards to HPV. If your situation has anything to do with that, feel free to IM me at will. Either way, your in my thoughts, and I wish you nothing but good health!

fohat

08-18-2006, 04:34 PM

Hope it all goes ok for you!

Lumber

08-18-2006, 04:41 PM

Hang in their Bud, you`ll be fine. We`re all here for you Shelle.

Don Stugots

08-18-2006, 04:52 PM

shelle,enjoy the weekend and dont worry about it.  if you need me to check you for lumps, i would be more than happy to help.seriously, i hope it works out.  your in my prayers tongiht.

ShelleBink

08-20-2006, 04:04 PM

I have to say, the well wishes have been tremendous, and after this weekend, it was nice to come home to.  The mini weekend vacation up to the farmhouse was great ((once I blocked it out of my mind)) and I got to have a lot of fun ((even got headbutted by a wolf/husky mix... I have a bruise forming...)).  You guys are right to tell me not to worry about it, and knowing the amount of genuine support from you guys helps in ways I could never accurately put into words.  I plan to keep you posted as best I can, although my appointment was changed from September 8th to September 18th ((scheduling conflicts on my part)).  After reading up a bit more on the specific procedure, I'm a bit more relaxed that whatever it is can be taken care of rather quickly.  It would just suck if it were cancer, considering my mom already had breast cancer this year, and my oldest brother had cancer when he was a bit younger than my age.  I guess my family is well versed in the unlucky lottery. I consider many of you an extension of family since I really have "grown up" ((in some ways at least)) on this board.  I do hold many of you in my heart and thank you for being there when I need it.  And if I can ever return the favor, I'm not hard to find.

SinA

08-20-2006, 04:27 PM

my girlfriend went through that about a year and a half ago.  when a doctor uses a word like "pre-cancerous cells" it scares the shit out of you.  they should be more sensitive about it, since every cell in your body could be considered "pre-cancerous". don't let the doctors poor bedside manner scare you, they obviously don't teach that in med. school.  just trust their medical training to properly diagnose and treat it and you'll be alright.  just in case, now would be a good time to stop sinning.

ShelleBink

08-20-2006, 04:37 PM

SinA wrote: just in case, now would be a good time to stop sinning.  Yeh, considering I have no one to "sin" with and haven't for a while... thats definately not a problem or an issue at the present time

FUNKMAN

08-20-2006, 04:39 PM

ShelleBink wrote:  SinA wrote: just in case, now would be a good time to stop sinning.  Yeh, considering I have no one to "sin" with and haven't for a while... thats definately not a problem or an issue at the present time i always thought sin was a good man's brother?

Don Stugots

08-20-2006, 04:48 PM

Funk, sin is a good man's troubled friend that at times tries to lead his good friend astray.

LordJezo

08-21-2006, 06:35 AM

<a href="http://www.saratogian.com/site/news.cfm?newsid=17021897&BRD=1169&PAG=461&dept_id=17776&rfi=6" target="_self">Gardasil</a> Supposed to do wonders for many people, my doc told my sister that even people who have already been exposed should get it.  They should make it mandatory for everyone. <a href="http://www.gardasil.com/" target="_self"></a>

Thebazile78

08-22-2006, 01:28 PM

LordJezo wrote: <a target="_self" href="http://www.saratogian.com/site/news.cfm?newsid=17021897&BRD=1169&PAG=461&dept_id=17776&rfi=6">Gardasil</a> Supposed to do wonders for many people, my doc told my sister that even people who have already been exposed should get it. They should make it mandatory for everyone. <a target="_self" href="http://www.gardasil.com/"></a>  According to one of the articles I read when the FDA approved it, if you've already been exposed, the Gardasil could even make it worse.  From the patient information leaflet: This vaccine will not protect you against HPV types to which you may have already been exposed.  And this information has been in every single press release associated with the vaccine. That being said, this additional info may help someone anyway, so please tell your friends and family about it.

El Mudo

08-22-2006, 01:32 PM

You'll be in my thoughts

Stay upbeat and positive

Bulldogcakes

08-22-2006, 02:44 PM

ChrisTheCop wrote: Many times symptoms, or even an actual cyst (sp) are not cancerous. So lets all pray for that. Exactly. It seems you already know this, but if you are dealing with something like that, just be sure to get annual check ups and/or keep an eye on it. Usually they're nothing, but as you get older they can sometimes cause problems.  And dont stress out about the test, taking that test is the best thing you can do no matter what. Be confident that you're doing the right thing. Plus, at your age serious problems are pretty rare.  If you need me to, I'll start posting pictures of puppies and kittens to cheer you up. Nobody can resist that.   <blockquote />

Alice S. Fuzzybutt

08-22-2006, 02:51 PM

Shelle, I am so sorry to hear this hun.Around April of 2005 I started getting my period non stop after a very normal period. I had a sonagram and the dreaded endometrial biopsy. (I don't have cancer) I was so so scared. I know how tense and awful the time between appts can be. I cried a lot. You're among friends. Feel free to vent here anytime. We're all family here.

ShelleBink

09-25-2006, 06:12 PM

I just wanted to let everyone know that I got my biopsy results back and its ALLLLLLLLL CLEARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR RRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR  I'm so, so, so relived, and want to thank everyone for being there for me.  Without you guys, I can't imagine where I'd be mentally and I love you all.  Thanks again everyone.  I don't know what else to say, but it feels like I won the lottery :o)

mikeyboy

09-25-2006, 06:14 PM

Great news!

FUNKMAN

09-25-2006, 06:18 PM

CONGRATS Shelle!

Fezticle98

09-25-2006, 06:39 PM

Exactly! I mean...excellent!http://img46.imageshack.us/img46/826/gallerymrburnstb1.jpg

TooCute

09-25-2006, 06:49 PM

Hey that is great news.

To be honest, I am currently in the same boat.

I went through this all a year ago, had the cryosurgery, came back with 3
normal paps in a row and got an abnormal one again a few months ago. I
need to go back, but in the meantime my insurance has run out. I'm in the
process of applying for Healthy NY health insurance (I'm poor! My cobra
from grad school ran out! I qualify!) and planning to go after I get it -
hopefully within the month.

I'll tell you what though, last year at the doctor's was the first time I felt
OLD! He told me that 90% of the time this stuff clears up on its own and
that if I was "yonger" he'd suggest nothing - but seeing as how I was
"older", he thought I should go ahead and have surgery to remove it all.

Lovely, eh?

Well, at least this time around I'm not all pissed off like I was last time. It's
so dumb. You can do everything right and still end up with it.

Girls, make sure you get those HPV tests!

TooCute

09-25-2006, 06:51 PM

BTW feeling like you won the lotto isn't really an in-apt analogy.

You just never ever ever know - and there's NO way to ever know - until
you pick it up somewhere sometime from someone... and even then you
can't be sure who or when!

FUNKMAN

09-25-2006, 06:52 PM

TooCute wrote:  . I need to go back,  Hope all works out for the best!

TooCute

09-25-2006, 07:49 PM

Thanks Funk. Me too. I don't see why it wouldn't. I'll just get that sucker
cut out again (not pleasant, but not as unpleasant as you would imagine -
not a big deal, really), and if it comes back a third time, well I'll just do it
again. The probability of HPV leading to cervical cancer is absurdedly small,
despite what all those Tell Someone ads would lead you to believe.

I'm totally over the feeling gross like I have an STD thing. One of my best
friends just got an abnormal pap and then tested positive for HPV and was
freaking out a couple of months ago, so I felt good when I was able to calm
her down and explain how it's really not the same as say, turning up with
the clap. The majority of people (well, women. There's no way to tell in men
unless it causes warts (EW)...) eventually seem to get it sooner or later, and
there's no way to avoid it and still be sexually active unless you luck out and
become monogamous with someone and they happen to not have it. She
talked to a bunch of her friends about it and was surprised by how many of
them had it. I guess I don't have too many female friends so I had to reply
on reading about it on the internet to understand how common it was!

I'm just irritated that I have to deal with this bullshit again (do you know
what a pain it is to have to go for paps every 3 months?) and that this
country's healthcare is so retarded that I can't get insurance and deal with it
more quickly.

But at least, I think, more and more people (men included) are becoming
aware of HPV, so they aren't totally grossed out when I tell them about it.

narc

09-25-2006, 09:01 PM

Glad to hear it Shelle, and sorry to hear it Too Cute. It sounds like you totally have your head screwed on right about it though. I hope you get your health care situation straightened out too. 
Does anyone know when they're coming out with the vaccine for this?

Alice S. Fuzzybutt

09-25-2006, 09:05 PM

Good for you!! I am happy for you Shelle!

PapaBear

09-25-2006, 09:05 PM

I'm surprised I didn't see this thread until now. Good to hear it's going to be OK, Shelle. I hope the news ends up better for you, Too Cute.PS... Be careful with the rock climbing, TC. My little town just lost a very popular 24 year old woman to a climbing accident in WV this weekend.

This message was edited by PapaBear on 9-26-06 @ 1:10 AM

TooCute

09-25-2006, 09:40 PM

PapaBear wrote: I'm surprised I didn't
see this thread until now. Good to hear it's going to be OK, Shelle. I hope
the news ends up better for you, Too Cute.PS... Be careful with
the rock climbing, TC. My little town just lost a very popular 24 year old
woman to a climbing accident in WV this weekend.

This message was edited by PapaBear on 9-26-06
@ 1:10 AM

She wasn't rock climbing. She was on a via ferrata and broke the cardinal
rule - she unclipped both of her safety lines. 100% operator error. The area
she was in is not even open for actual rock climbing. It kind of bothers me
that accidents like this, as well as things like dumb hikers scrambling and
getting themselves hurt, get lumped in with rock climbing because rock
climbing is relatively safe. Hardly the "extreme" sport people make it out to
be. Ice climbing, on the other hand...

TooCute

09-25-2006, 09:59 PM

Sorry, to clarify I didn't mean that to sound callous; it is still a horrible
tragedy. I just wanted to make sure to point out that most of the "climbing"
accidents you hear about aren't climbing accidents involving experienced
rock climbers. This girl (Amanda I think was her name) had apparently
never even had a harness on before and was with her boyfriend on a steep
hike involving iron rungs driven into a rock face. You have two tethers, and
keep one clipped to the guide wires at all times. You have two so that you
can unclip from one thing and clip into another whilst staying clipped in to
the first thing. It was a horrible accident, but not a climbing accident.

Don Stugots

09-26-2006, 01:31 AM

good news Shelle, happpy to hear it. too cute, i am sure you will be fine.

Jennitalia

09-26-2006, 02:18 AM

i wouldnt wish cyrosurgery or laproscopy on anybody.  i had to have them both within a month of each other, because they didnt get all the goodness out of the first one.   awful. good news, shelle.

Doogie

09-26-2006, 02:29 AM

Glad to hear that everything is ok Shelle. Now you just need to keep a track of your fingernails.

Lumber

09-26-2006, 02:55 AM

Great news Bud!

reeshy

09-26-2006, 04:13 AM

YEA to everybody....stay well and keep getting those checkups!!!!!

ShelleBink

09-26-2006, 05:13 AM

Doogie76 wrote: Glad to hear that everything is ok Shelle. Now you just need to keep a track of your fingernails.  <img border="0" src="http://www.ronfez.net/messageboard/tiny_mce/plugins/emotions/images/lol.gif" />

Dougie Brootal

09-26-2006, 05:42 AM

ShelleBink wrote: I just wanted to let everyone know that I got my biopsy results back and its ALLLLLLLLL CLEARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR RRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR  I'm so, so, so relived, and want to thank everyone for being there for me.  Without you guys, I can't imagine where I'd be mentally and I love you all.  Thanks again everyone.  I don't know what else to say, but it feels like I won the lottery :o) whew! so happy to hear it! now you can go back to titilating me in all my ronfez.net fantasies!