I am living a nightmare

[Patches]

<p>Over the weekend, one of my best friends died from heroin, and another is brain dead.&nbsp; There are at least 2 others that are dead, and though I knew them, they weren't friends.</p><p>I had ZERO clue about this.&nbsp; I knew about coke&nbsp;but I didn't know people were&nbsp; doing this too.&nbsp; It is getting&nbsp; worse and worse by the hour- my phone is ringing constantly and I am finding out about someone else.&nbsp; This is terrifying, anger inducing, but mostly incredibly sad.&nbsp; As of yesterday I only knew about my one friend, and I was devastated.&nbsp; I keep hearing more and more, and I am now just numb and emotionally drained.</p><p>Thanks.&nbsp; I just needed to get this out anonymously I guess.</p>

[Don Stugots]

patches i am sorry for what you have been going through.&nbsp; at times in my life i feel like i am living a nightmare too.&nbsp; you are not alone.

[Jennitalia]

<p>I'm really sorry, Patches.&nbsp; That is really unbelievable.</p><p>I'd make you some chicken francaise, if it'd make you feel better.</p>

[angelinad128]

Yes, we all things in are life that make us feel like our lives are nightmares, but you can also look at this as a blessing...It hasn't happened to you.&nbsp; Try to keep positive about that.

[Patches]

<p>thanks.. but it hasn't happened to me b/c i don't do that...&nbsp; I guess&nbsp;I was naive or something.. i am in a total state of shock..&nbsp; Apparently it was a 'bad batch'.&nbsp; Is there such thing a 'good batch'?&nbsp; </p><p>Jesus... </p>

[Justice4all]

<p>Patches I am sorry. Something like this would come as a shock to me also. I wish I could say more.</p><p>&nbsp;</p><p>Good luck!</p>

[MadMatt]

<p>I'm sorry for your loss; it's never easy to loose someone close to you, much less several friends and in such a stupid, tragic way.&nbsp; </p><p>I'm sure everyone on the board offers their support and prayers for you, your friends, and the families involved.</p>

[terry1979]

<strong>Patches</strong> wrote:<br /><p>Over the weekend, one of my best friends died from heroin, and another is brain dead.&nbsp; There are at least 2 others that are dead, and though I knew them, they weren't friends.</p><p>I had ZERO clue about this.&nbsp; I knew about coke&nbsp;but I didn't know people were&nbsp; doing this too.&nbsp; It is getting&nbsp; worse and worse by the hour- my phone is ringing constantly and I am finding out about someone else.&nbsp; This is terrifying, anger inducing, but mostly incredibly sad.&nbsp; As of yesterday I only knew about my one friend, and I was devastated.&nbsp; I keep hearing more and more, and I am now just numb and emotionally drained.</p><p>Thanks.&nbsp; I just needed to get this out anonymously I guess.</p><p>Wait a Second?&nbsp; All four of these happened this weekend?&nbsp; They were using together?&nbsp; That is awful man, I am sorry to hear that.&nbsp; Has this been in the news?</p>

[scorpion]

<p>Patches</p><p>I am sorry to hear this.&nbsp;&nbsp;I wish I had words that would make everything better.&nbsp; Take care and talk to someone you trust if you feel like doing so.</p>

[reeshy]

WOW...sorry patches....you and they are in my prayers!!!!<br />

[Lumber]

Sorry your going thru this Bud. It`s true...Fuckin` heroin is no joke. Trust me

<span class=post_edited>This message was edited by Lumber on 9-11-06 @ 6:35 PM</span>

[nevnut]

<p>Sorry to hear about your loss, Patches. Although I'm from small town, USA and haven't dealt with heroin, I've lost 2 friends to meth and fighting it myself. Also 2 nephews who are way deep and tryin' to pull out along with numerous friends who are in the battle. </p><p>Thankfully the wife and I are almost a year clean (does pot count????) and never plan on touching any sort of chemical again.&nbsp; Believe me, some times it is a real&nbsp;battle.&nbsp; </p>

[FUNKMAN]

<p>My Condolences...</p><p>keep your chin up</p>

[Bossanova]

Wow, I hate to hear shit like this.&nbsp; I too have a friend who died on some bad heroine.&nbsp; I am sorry you are going through a huge loss like this, it sucks more than anything.&nbsp; I know how it feels, especially being as I tapped out right before he started the new batch.&nbsp; I'm soryy I can't be more help right now, as I just started thinking of my friend.&nbsp; Im here though.

[Bossanova]

And POT counts as being clean

[Patches]

<p>This may or may not be on the news... There have been reporters in my town.. A tiny relief I guess is my one friend it turns out is going to be ok.. he was in the hospital and it wasn't looking good, but the rumors of him being braindead turned out to not be true.&nbsp; The guy who sold it (who at one point was rumored to be dead) has supposedly been arrested, but I am not sure what I believe anymore.&nbsp; As of now 2 people are dead including one of my best friends and miraculously not a 3rd.&nbsp; This is just so crazy- and the timing couldn't suck more- everytime i turn on the television or the computer- its not exactly a nice distraction today..&nbsp; Everyone is just a mess... anyway.. thank you all for your well wishes..</p>

<span class=post_edited>This message was edited by Patches on 9-11-06 @ 11:20 PM</span>

[terry1979]

<a href="http://www.nypost.com/news/regionalnews/laced_heroin_eyed_in_2_deaths_regionalnews_perry_c hiaramonte.htm">http://www.nypost.com/news/regionalnews/laced_heroin_eyed_in_2_deaths_regionalnews_perry_c hiaramonte.htm</a>

[kellermcgee21]

sorry to hear what your going through budday....losing a friend is tough.....&nbsp;just let this be all the motivation you need to stay away from all the bullshit drugs you don't need....and do all you can to keep your buddays clean...i would also recommend getting together with your friends and talking about all the good times you had with your friends who have passed on....stay strong man

<span class=post_edited>This message was edited by kellermcgee21 on 9-12-06 @ 9:28 AM</span>

[Patches]

<strong>terry1979</strong> wrote:<br /><a href="http://www.nypost.com/news/regionalnews/laced_heroin_eyed_in_2_deaths_regionalnews_perry_c hiaramonte.htm">http://www.nypost.com/news/regionalnews/laced_heroin_eyed_in_2_deaths_regionalnews_perry_c hiaramonte.htm</a> <p>Other than the location and probable cause, everything in this is incorrect.&nbsp; Nice research, assholes.</p><p>EDIT- I realized that often police give reporters false information right after something happens.</p>

<span class=post_edited>This message was edited by Patches on 9-12-06 @ 3:21 PM</span>

[ChimneyFish]

<p><strong><em><font face="georgia,times new roman,times,serif" size="2">I feel for you.</font></em></strong></p><p><strong><em><font face="Georgia" size="2">Out of high school, I played the game for quite a while. I was very lucky(or blessed) to get out alive. I watched a number of people not make it through. Luckily, I didn't lose anyone that was close to me.</font></em></strong></p><p><strong><em><font face="Georgia" size="2">Horrible news. My heart goes out to you.</font></em></strong></p><p><strong><em><font face="Georgia" size="2">And don't blame yourself for not seeing. None of my friends or family realized until I was in deep.</font></em></strong></p>

[Patches]

<p>Well, I just came in from being&nbsp;out for a few with&nbsp;a few BuddAys.. The wake is tomorrow- and we all said we are going to be as strong as we can for the family... but I know in my heart that that is impossible.&nbsp; One visit to the casket, and I know personally, I will not hold anythihg together... A 24 year old kid- with everything in front of him.</p><p>I am not prepared- and I don't think anyone is.&nbsp; This is going to be terrible.</p>

[Bulldogcakes]

<p>&nbsp;</p><strong>Jennitalia</strong> wrote:<br /><p>I'm really sorry, Patches. That is really unbelievable.</p><p>I'd make you some chicken francaise, if it'd make you feel better.</p><p>&nbsp;</p><p>I'll take some if he's not hungry.<br /> </p><p>&nbsp;</p><p>. . . .ooops. Sorry to derail. Feel better Patches&nbsp;</p><blockquote /><p>&nbsp;</p>

[bobrobot]

<strong><font color="#000099">I am sorry for your pain &amp; loss! Addiction is an insidious disease w/ a poor survival rate!!!</font></strong>

<span class=post_edited>This message was edited by bobogolem on 9-13-06 @ 8:07 PM</span>

[keithy_19]

I just read this now. I really hope you're holding up ok. I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers through out the grieving process.

[riverofpiss]

<table height="100%" cellspacing="0" cellpadding="0" width="100%" border="0"><tr height="100%" width="100%"><td valign="top" width="100%" height="250">Sorry for your loss Patches.&nbsp; Losing a friend is a terrible part of life but eventually everything makes sense again.&nbsp; My best friend died of a heart attack caused by a couple years of cocaine addiction and it was beyond tough.&nbsp; It opened a lot of eyes in our circle and thankfully a lot of buddays have smartened up since so that we don't have to go through that shit again.</td></tr><tr><td height="1"><div /></td></tr></table>

[Patches]

<p>Thanks again to everyone.&nbsp; Alot.&nbsp; i really mean this.</p><p>I am just at the stage now where you talk to someone, and next thing you know, they are saying to you over and over 'hey- you ok?'&nbsp; Without even realizing it, you are dazing out thinking...</p><p>Its tough.&nbsp; I'm sure alot of us have been through it and there is nothing anyone can say or do to make anything any easier.. .but thanks.</p>