im about to crack

[MHasegawa]

im going stir crazy, im stuck in a rut every damn day, this is my weekend right now and i spend them the same way all the time- staying home.  i have no car, barely any friends, no one to really talk to, and no ones really interested anyway.  i constantly feel like a loser and a bum, if i didnt have a job i would have snapped already.  im really scared if i keep this up, im gonna hurt myself or someone else and if shit doesnt change soon, its gonna get really ugly.

[Rockvillejoe]

<font size="2">go down to the local senior home and spend some time helping the less fortunate. forget about the whore. the fact is, between now and early april, you are going to feel these feelings the most. it's the lack of light, cold temps for us in the cold states, and the legitmate feeling of isolation. how do you counteract such feelings? depends on your financial status and family status. if you can afford it and don't have 6 mouths to feed and support, jump on a soutwest airline to vegas or fla. and watch a show, get a massage, and basically take in the sights, take a tennis lesson. there are numerous support groups available online that meet and greet. unconditional acceptance. if&nbsp;i were you, i'd join a health club,&nbsp;sign up for a beginner workout class. there will be other newbies like yourself, and you all can bond and suffer at the same time. the world is your oyster, my friend, enjoy it before they are throwing dirt on you. it goes way too fucking quick.&nbsp; at any rate, with the warm weather 3-6 weeks away, things should take care of themselves. get the circulation going, it will help.</font>

<span class=post_edited>This message was edited by Rockvillejoe on 2-20-07 @ 6:32 PM</span>

[NortonRules]

<p>MHasegawa just described my life.&nbsp; I don't mind it too much, though.&nbsp; </p>

[Don Stugots]

<strong>MHasegawa</strong> wrote:<br />im going stir crazy, im stuck in a rut every damn day, this is my weekend right now and i spend them the same way all the time- staying home. i have no car, barely any friends, no one to really talk to, and no ones really interested anyway. i constantly feel like a loser and a bum, if i didnt have a job i would have snapped already. im really scared if i keep this up, im gonna hurt myself or someone else and if shit doesnt change soon, its gonna get really ugly.<p>&nbsp;i am right there with you.&nbsp; need someone to talk with, i can listen. </p>

[patsopinion]

<p>watch office space.</p><p>That always seems to get me out of funk&nbsp;</p>

[narc]

You just need something to take your mind offa things that also won't eventually kill you. . Video games work for me.

[MONICA5579]

<strong>MHasegawa</strong> wrote:<br />im going stir crazy, im stuck in a rut every damn day, this is my weekend right now and i spend them the same way all the time- staying home.&nbsp; i have no car, barely any friends, no one to really talk to, and no ones really interested anyway.&nbsp; i constantly feel like a loser and a bum, if i didnt have a job i would have snapped already.&nbsp; im really scared if i keep this up, im gonna hurt myself or someone else and if shit doesnt change soon, its gonna get really ugly. <p>I've felt that way many times.&nbsp; Everyone on here is so nice and welcoming that you should never feel like you don't have anyone to talk to.</p><p>Why do you think no one wants to be friends with you?&nbsp; Are you picky about friends or are the people in your town just a bunch of cock smokers that don't appreciate you?</p>

[MONICA5579]

<strong>narc</strong> wrote:<br />You just need something to take your mind offa things that also won't eventually kill you. . Video games work for me. <p>Also, PORN.&nbsp; Porn has helped this young lady get through some rough times when I felt alone or wanted to be left alone!!</p>

[J.Clints]

There are a lot of people here. We cant cut you off before your done so vent. Talk and let us know whats up.

[Death Metal Moe]

<p>I always liked you Manny. You, me, Grim and Todd used to have a fucking ball together.&nbsp; </p><p>I haven't seen Todd in awhile but if you want to, hit me up and you, me and Grim can chill man.&nbsp; I don't know what happened but we never really heard from you again.&nbsp; </p><p>But there's no problem over here.&nbsp; The offer's open.</p><p>&nbsp;</p><p>Wow, had to edit out a fucking run on sentence from hell.</p>

<span class=post_edited>This message was edited by Death Metal Moe on 2-20-07 @ 6:25 PM</span>

[lleeder]

<font size="3">Its the winter blues. Everyone goes through it. Just make it to April and you'll be good.</font>

[Furtherman]

<p>Go on a killing spree.</p>

[cupcakelove]

Sorry to hear it.&nbsp; Pick up a hobby, join a club, take a class, volunteer somewhere.&nbsp; There are a lot of things you can get involved in.&nbsp; I hope you find something that helps you get out of your rut, good luck.

[MHasegawa]

<strong>MONICA5579</strong> wrote:<br /><strong>MHasegawa</strong> wrote:<br />im going stir crazy, im stuck in a rut every damn day, this is my weekend right now and i spend them the same way all the time- staying home. i have no car, barely any friends, no one to really talk to, and no ones really interested anyway. i constantly feel like a loser and a bum, if i didnt have a job i would have snapped already. im really scared if i keep this up, im gonna hurt myself or someone else and if shit doesnt change soon, its gonna get really ugly. <p>I've felt that way many times. Everyone on here is so nice and welcoming that you should never feel like you don't have anyone to talk to.</p><p>Why do you think no one wants to be friends with you? Are you picky about friends or are the people in your town just a bunch of cock smokers that don't appreciate you?</p><p>&nbsp;well i feel that im not a very good person, i seem to have violent mood swings against the wrong people; im always on the defensive.&nbsp; i also feel that if i really open up to someone, they will think im crazy and get weirded and creeped out by my problems; so its really hard to for me to trust someone who wont air my dirty laundry.</p><p>&nbsp;</p><p>sorry to all here if i sound like an asshole or anything, ive been an emotional mess as of recent.&nbsp;</p>

[cupcakelove]

<strong>MHasegawa</strong> wrote:<br /><strong>MONICA5579</strong> wrote:<br /><strong>MHasegawa</strong> wrote:<br />im going stir crazy, im stuck in a rut every damn day, this is my weekend right now and i spend them the same way all the time- staying home. i have no car, barely any friends, no one to really talk to, and no ones really interested anyway. i constantly feel like a loser and a bum, if i didnt have a job i would have snapped already. im really scared if i keep this up, im gonna hurt myself or someone else and if shit doesnt change soon, its gonna get really ugly. <p>I've felt that way many times. Everyone on here is so nice and welcoming that you should never feel like you don't have anyone to talk to.</p><p>Why do you think no one wants to be friends with you? Are you picky about friends or are the people in your town just a bunch of cock smokers that don't appreciate you?</p><p> well i feel that im not a very good person, i seem to have violent mood swings against the wrong people; im always on the defensive. i also feel that if i really open up to someone, they will think im crazy and get weirded and creeped out by my problems; so its really hard to for me to trust someone who wont air my dirty laundry.</p><p>&nbsp;</p><p>sorry to all here if i sound like an asshole or anything, ive been an emotional mess as of recent. </p><p>Have you considered a therapist?&nbsp; You don't have to go every week for the rest of your life, but a few sessions can do a lot if all you need to do is scream how you're feeling at someone without them judging you.&nbsp; Your insurance might cover it. </p>

[MHasegawa]

i dont have insurance nor do i make enough money to afford therapy, it really bites since i feel theyre the ones that can truly help.&nbsp;

[narc]

<strong>Furtherman</strong> wrote:<br /><p>Go on a killing spree.</p><p>Forum! ^</p>

[Don Stugots]

<strong>lleeder</strong> wrote:<br /><font size="3">Its the winter blues. Everyone goes through it. Just make it to April and you'll be good.</font><p>&nbsp;man do i get those so phunking bad.&nbsp; MANNY, you were dancing with three different hot chicks the other night.&nbsp; Go bang one of them.</p>

[Jujubees2]

<p><font size="2">You're not alone.&nbsp; Many guys have the same problem.&nbsp; It'll do you good to talk to someone about it.</font></p><p><a href="http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/17190411/site/newsweek/"><font size="2">http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/17190411/site/newsweek/</font></a></p>

[mdr55]

Are you doing drugs or drinking alot??/<br />

[flavopop]

Winter Blows bro, keep your chin up and turn that frown upside down, the warm weather and longer days are right around the corner.&nbsp; I get in ruts sometimes too, I love hanging with my wife but we sit in way more than we should,.&nbsp; Drives me batty sometimes.&nbsp;&nbsp; Talk to the good people on this board my friend, even though I dont know many, they seem to be a helpful bunch when the chips are down.&nbsp;&nbsp; Good Luck pal..Seee yaaaa

[flavopop]

<p>keep your chin up and turn that frown upside down</p><p>Could I use a few more jackass cliches...geeesh!</p>

[Gvac]

<p>I know it's the last thing anyone wants to hear, especially younger people, but alcohol is enemy #1 when it comes to any kind of mental problems.&nbsp; Even if you're a happy drunk, alcohol is a depressant and it stays in your system.&nbsp; The next day you'll feel awful about yourself and your life.&nbsp; You've gotta resist the temptation to get drunk again to forget your problems or else you get caught up in a never ending cycle of self-medicating your depression away.&nbsp; You'll become an alcoholic in the process.</p><p>The only real cure for any type of depression is intense (and brutally honest) self analysis.&nbsp; Some people need a therapist to help them be so open about themselves, others can do it by themselves.&nbsp; Before you can begin searching for the cause of your despair, though, you've got to have a clear head. &nbsp;</p><p>No booze, no drugs.&nbsp; Dig deep and try and find what's causing you so much disappointment and pain in your life. &nbsp;</p><p>And don't be afraid to ask for help, Manny.&nbsp; You're a great guy and I've been where you are.&nbsp; I'm all ears, bro.&nbsp;</p>

[mdr55]

If it's a chemical imbalance in you brain, then meds might help you but then again you said you didn't have insurance. The big bookstores have a section called &quot;Self Help&quot;, usually near the psychology section when you can read some literature or books that may benefit you. Or you can search the internet. <br />

[MHasegawa]

ok, i guess i should stop drining according to you guys, but booze is one thing that controls my anger (i know thats a bad sign).&nbsp; i have a REALLY quick temper and never clicks when im drinking but the switch is constantly on when im sober, so what im asking is what is a good vice to control it?

[Doctor Z]

<strong>patsopinion</strong> wrote:<br /><p>watch office space.</p><p>That always seems to get me out of funk </p><p>&nbsp;That might be the greatest advice I've ever heard.</p>

[Doctor Z]

<p>It was 50 degrees and sunny today and I instantly felt a little bit better about life... Sometimes this Winter Blues thing can get you and you don't even know it.</p><p>Manny, I don't know you personally, so I can't possibly try to put myself in your position and it would be pretty much impossible for me to get inside your head right now. But I agree with the &quot;get involved in something&quot; sentiment. Depression is something that feeds itself with the behavior it induces... break the cycle and do something outside of your normal work routine. Even if your depression is telling you &quot;Don't bother, it's a waste&quot;... Push past that voice and go do some out-of-the-ordinary shit. Take a cooking class, volunteer somewhere, start a workout routine, etc. Good luck.</p> <span class="post_edited"></span>

<span class=post_edited>This message was edited by Doctor_Z on 2-21-07 @ 7:54 PM</span>

[mdr55]

<strong>MHasegawa</strong> wrote:<br />ok, i guess i should stop drining according to you guys, but booze is one thing that controls my anger (i know thats a bad sign). i have a REALLY quick temper and never clicks when im drinking but the switch is constantly on when im sober, so what im asking is what is a good vice to control it?<p>&nbsp;</p><p>Talking about it. Like exploring what makes you angry. Why your so hard on yourself. How to cope with your feelings, etc. etc. &nbsp; &nbsp;</p>

[Drunky McBetidont]

<p>my wife through a very dark period when we were still living in buffalo and in college.&nbsp; totally broke and buried in snow for months she became morbid.&nbsp; we couldn't afford treatment which got her even more depressed.&nbsp; i found out that catholic charities has a sliding scale program.&nbsp; she saw someone for $5 a session and recieved some zoloft for free.&nbsp; it was enough to get her through.&nbsp; btw, she is not catholic and it did not matter.</p><p>good times ahead budday!&nbsp; just don't leave before the miracle happens.&nbsp; <img src="http://www.ronfez.net/messageboard/images/smile.gif" border="0" width="15" height="15" /> </p>

<span class=post_edited>This message was edited by betidont on 2-21-07 @ 10:07 PM</span>

[TheVHD]

<p>Hey bro... I was reading this thread and have been there too... like a few people have said the #1 thing to do is break the cycle and just do something.&nbsp; When I was in my &quot;funk&quot; my brother gave me this book and it changed my life... if you read it with an open mind... it can help.&nbsp; I still get into a &quot;funk&quot; now and again but I would strongly suggest reading this and doing the exercises in the book.&nbsp; I NEVER believed in self-help books... but I figured I had nothing to loose and it really helped.</p><p><img src="http://images.amazon.com/images/P/1563527251.01._AA240_SCLZZZZZZZ_.jpg" border="0" width="240" height="240" /></p><p>&nbsp;I have the book in .pdf format if your want me to send you a copy just hit me with a PM... and know that things will get better... even as low and bad as they seem sometimes... believe it.</p>

[bigtim666]

<p>I am in the same boat, minus the job.&nbsp; I have no money but i still manage to get pot everyday i am forever in a bad mood.&nbsp; i graduated 7 years ago but i am still in college basicly life sux </p>