Homesick at home.

[Bob Impact]

Here's the back story:

For the past month or so i've been really sick, vomiting on average four times a day at least 4 days a week. I've been undergoing various "treatments" and have dealt with a half-dozen doctors appointments lately. I am positive that this has something to do with my current mood. My job has been rough lately, and despite the fact that I love what I do I'm bored beyond belief. I hate going to work. Sometimes it seems like being with Sarah is the only thing that really makes me happy. I know I'm in some weird funk, but I can't really shake it.

By far the biggest problem I have right now is the absolute strageness of my current sensitivity. I've become oddly sentimental. Things about weddings, funerals, it all chokes me up. I don't cry about it, but I feel that weird homesick feelings you used to get as a kid when you were away for a long time. It's not sad, it's not happy, its homesick. What the fuck is wrong with me?

[JPMNICK]

Here's the back story:

For the past month or so i've been really sick, vomiting on average four times a day at least 4 days a week. I've been undergoing various "treatments" and have dealt with a half-dozen doctors appointments lately. I am positive that this has something to do with my current mood. My job has been rough lately, and despite the fact that I love what I do I'm bored beyond belief. I hate going to work. Sometimes it seems like being with Sarah is the only thing that really makes me happy. I know I'm in some weird funk, but I can't really shake it.

By far the biggest problem I have right now is the absolute strageness of my current sensitivity. I've become oddly sentimental. Things about weddings, funerals, it all chokes me up. I don't cry about it, but I feel that weird homesick feelings you used to get as a kid when you were away for a long time. It's not sad, it's not happy, its homesick. What the fuck is wrong with me?

i think it is your age. I have had the EXACT same things going on. same shit with work. I think that working full time takes a mental toll on you because most jobs it is the same shit over and over again. also maybe some of the meds you are taking is altering your chemical balance.

[Bob Impact]

i think it is your age. I have had the EXACT same things going on. same shit with work. I think that working full time takes a mental toll on you because most jobs it is the same shit over and over again. also maybe some of the meds you are taking is altering your chemical balance.

I would go with that, but when I was in college I was doing the same thing as I am now, except I had a part time job and full time classes as well.

[JPMNICK]

I would go with that, but when I was in college I was doing the same thing as I am now, except I had a part time job and full time classes as well.

maybe you should go seek some professional help. do you have good health insurance?

I know you have been really sick, but maybe you just need a change of pace. maybe a 3 day weekend away somewhere. doesn't need to be far, but like AC or mohegan sun. or something a little different like baseball hall of fame or hershey park.

[Don Stugots]

get some mental help or try to go on "walk about". i am not kidding. do some soul searching. also, reach out to some of us privately even if it is just to talk.

[patsopinion]

are you pregnant?

[Bob Impact]

are you pregnant?

I may be, let's just say I'm gonna see Stugots on Maury in a couple of weeks.

[suggums]

This sounds similar to Zoloft withdrawal, speaking from experience. I didn't get the vomiting though.

[Don Stugots]

I may be, let's just say I'm gonna see Stugots on Maury in a couple of weeks.

oh i am busy that day, my computer is broken, my cat died and some emergency just came up.

[Bob Impact]

This sounds similar to Zoloft withdrawal, speaking from experience. I didn't get the vomiting though.

To be clear, I am not currently on any drugs, I haven't even had a drink in a long time because of the nasuea. They originally thought it was something with my liver, now they think it's my guts. To be clear, I'm not depressed, I know how that feels. Am I the only one who gets this homesick feeling?

[JPMNICK]

To be clear, I am not currently on any drugs, I haven't even had a drink in a long time because of the nasuea. They originally thought it was something with my liver, now they think it's my guts. To be clear, I'm not depressed, I know how that feels. Am I the only one who gets this homesick feeling?

no i def get it too, and I also know it is not depression. i think it happens when a bright mind is not stimulated. you have not been around enough people who put you into good conversations, work sounds like it is the same old shit. you just have to much time for introspection and not enough stuff to keep your mind from wondering. and i am sure being sick and worrying about that is taking its toll on you as well.

[SouthSideJohnny]

I think I know the feeling, and you're not the only one that gets it. The homesick feeling hit me a week or two ago when Dave and Pitzi were talking about wanting to go back to their childhood. I love my wife and would never want to do anything where I would exist without her. But, at the same time, I really miss my old self and my old existence.

I have my own law firm, and I'm busy as hell with intellectually challenging work. The problem is that I am involved in a huge case, where I'm lucky if I get paid once a year. Even then, I have to bust my ass to recover money which is then used to pay my fees. It's a long story, but this shit has been going on for five years. At any time, I am owed more than what alot of people make in an entire year. This makes it very difficult to keep my business going, not to mention paying personal bills and having a life. Everything else is going well, but this constant stress is all encompassing and never ends. Even when I'm away from the office or trying to do something fun, I'm thinking about it.

When Dave and Pitzi started talking about going back to their youths, it really affected me. Shit, that was the first time in years that I actually took the time to think back and reflect on the old days. (How sad is that?) Once I started thinking about it, it started the same feelings you're describing. I also don't think I'm depressed, but certain things will really get to me. Much more so than when I was younger.

I describe it as just wanting to go back to a time when things were different. Being sick could definitely cause that feeling in anyone.

I hope you start feeling better soon.

[OneEyeJack]

buy a motorcycle and have some fun.

[Marc with a c]

sounds like a yeast infection

[lleeder]

To be clear, I am not currently on any drugs, I haven't even had a drink in a long time because of the nasuea. They originally thought it was something with my liver, now they think it's my guts. To be clear, I'm not depressed, I know how that feels. Am I the only one who gets this homesick feeling?

I've had this or something similiar to it at points in my life. I at one point would almost have to "talk myself up" to do normal things. Its just nerves and a minor depression mix. I even went to doctors and had MRI's done for it. You just need to work though it and you'll be ok. It happened to me when work was getting shitty and I felt like I was stuck where I was at. Hope this helps somehow.

[sr71blackbird]

Talk to your Dr, I had been having almost exactly the same thing, except it was out the other end, if you know what I mean. I have a mild depression going on, and I am on medication and seeing a therapist and it is helping. You DO have control of your destiny, just not the whole route, follow me? There are positive things you can do to make your own "safety net", update your resume, search for jobs on Monster etc. The therapist is showing me that I can change a "What if?" to a "So what if..?", emphasis on the "so". This way you can provide yourself with some alternate outcomes and it is not so scary and make you literally sick over situation's that you really have no control over.
You know what stage fright is? When you get sick at the idea of being in front of people? Your mind can make your body sick in an attempt to "get you out of it". Realize what is going on and you will see that you DO have some control.

[Bob Impact]

Talk to your Dr, I had been having almost exactly the same thing, except it was out the other end, if you know what I mean. I have a mild depression going on, and I am on medication and seeing a therapist and it is helping. You DO have control of your destiny, just not the whole route, follow me? There are positive things you can do to make your own "safety net", update your resume, search for jobs on Monster etc. The therapist is showing me that I can change a "What if?" to a "So what if..?", emphasis on the "so". This way you can provide yourself with some alternate outcomes and it is not so scary and make you literally sick over situation's that you really have no control over.
You know what stage fright is? When you get sick at the idea of being in front of people? Your mind can make your body sick in an attempt to "get you out of it". Realize what is going on and you will see that you DO have some control.

I don't think that's entirely out of the realm of possibility. The weird thing is, and I'm sure Sarah and maybe some other folks on the board who know me well can attest to, i'm not exactly the anxiety disorder type. :drunk:

[drjoek]

Bob Just a quick question

Do you think the two threads youve got running have anything to d with each other? I'm not a psychologist but job stress can put a ton of strain on a person. Hope both things go well for ya Budday

[Bob Impact]

Bob Just a quick question

Do you think the two threads youve got running have anything to d with each other? I'm not a psychologist but job stress can put a ton of strain on a person. Hope both things go well for ya Budday

Yeah I thought of that too when Stugs bumped it.

[reillyluck]

i dont have any advice, but i hope you are doing ok. :sad:

[Fez4PrezN2008]

i think it is your age. I have had the EXACT same things going on. same shit with work. I think that working full time takes a mental toll on you because most jobs it is the same shit over and over again. also maybe some of the meds you are taking is altering your chemical balance.
It could be age... Gvac has been in a funk as of late too you might have noticed... But on the other hand Reeshy has been pretty chipper...
I got nutin'


Feel better soon budday !

(do you think a nice cat pic would make you feel better? Nothing brightens a day and cures nausea more than a nice cat pic)

[Justice4all]

i dont have any advice, but i hope you are doing ok. :sad:

Yes...what reilly said.

[ppanda]

Dude,
There is nothing wrong with you- Ive been going through similar things- I hate my job too as I told you and I find myself drinking an enormous amount more than usual and more frequently. I also have been uping my nicotine intake triple fold- no good. And plus I have not been able to sleep since like January- Ive ben taking pills on top of all the alcohol and it still doesnt work ( I have not informed my doctor of this)

But at any rate I am in the same boat but I am more homesick for a period of time in my life- I get nostalgic for my life in the early to late 90's when times were simpler for me and all I did was party and have a great time - which of coarse I realise now cost me my ticket to a happier present. I am now trying to retrace my steps and take the path I knew I should have taken.

[Don Stugots]

Yeah I thought of that too when Stugs bumped it.

i only bumped it because i had good news to share. now i am sad.

[Bob Impact]

i only bumped it because i had good news to share. now i am sad.

Don't be sad, you bring me smiles.

And to be clear with everyone, I don't think the illness is psychosomatic, but we'll (hopefully) find out tomorrow. Also, outside of this weird homesickness i've been in a good mood.

[SatCam]

i think it happens when a bright mind is not stimulated. you have not been around enough people who put you into good conversations, work sounds like it is the same old shit.

ouch -> :flush: