i just told earl i'm losing my mind

[thepaulo]

.....and that i probably and not gonna hang on.....
I always have to repeat that i'm not suicidal.....but i feel like i still need to be treated with kid gloves.....but that ain't gonna happen......
i have no idea what's happening or what i can do about it.....
i have lots of nice people who have given me lots of support and lots who crap on me.......in the long run it doesn't matter......
it's strictly up to me to save myself ...from myself......
(not that it's all that dramatic......I'm just in a bad movie at the moment)

[PapaBear]

Please let the bad movie moment pass, and hang on. We want you around a lot longer, Paul.

[ThePointer]

Paul
try to hang in there. nothing is as bad as it seems at the moment. just take things one step at a time. file it and then shred it

[fohat]

The people who care are the ones that matter. The people that don't can go fly a kite. Hang in there Paul!

[thepaulo]

my problem is i tend to keep stuff inside.....and they say that's not good

[Chimee]

That's why you have your own forum. Let it all out Paul.

[Marc with a c]

what did he say?

[reillyluck]

youre a good guy. end of story.

[thepaulo]

i tend to be a pussy on the air.....because i always figured the goofy, nice guy was best on the air.....but every once and a while i'm prodded into yelling.....but i'm usually still fighting all that anger and don't really let it out......but it's starting to come out

[Friday]

post it, Paulo. we can take it. And there are alot of people here who give more than a crap.

And if all else fails... check IN. Because ego aside, sometimes a little bit of R and R under psychiatric supervision is just what the doc ordered. More of a time to regroup than to sink under. Seriously.

Just my $.02. I have no idea what you're going through... whatever it is keep your chin up.

[mikeyboy]

Let it out Paul. It's therapeutic. Post whatever you need to get out in your forum if you want. If you want to yell at an actual person, I'll give you my number. Things really aren't as shitty as they may seem right now.

[JPMNICK]

pull it together big man. you got a lot of people who really care about you in your life. i know with everything that has happened it must be tough, but just know rf.net is here to support you if needed. good luck

[scottinnj]

Dude, you just went through a divorce, then your ex dies. I can't imagine how much stress all that is, on top of the life you two had had before the divorce. You must be a pile of nerves by now. Get help. If you can't afford it, go into the nearest hospital and tell them exactly what you first posted. They are obligated by law to admit you and have you checked out for 72 hours, regardless of your ability to pay.
Get help Paul-there is NOTHING worth ending your life.
Believe me, I almost took out my whole family 13 years ago, and checked into the VA. Up until I totally broke down and my wife kicked me out, I was in denial and tried to deal with everything. Once I went into the VA and got the mental treatment I needed by experts who knew what I was dealing with and who knew how to help me out of my nightmare, I felt like a boulder was removed from my chest and I could breathe again. My physical nature changed for the better, I ate better, I slept better, I was able to work and earn a living, and I will NEVER go back to where I was mentally before that. It does get better Paulo. IT GETS BETTER!

[Don Stugots]

Paul
try to hang in there. nothing is as bad as it seems at the moment. just take things one step at a time. file it and then shred it

what he said.

stay strong Paul.

[thepaulo]

i'm definately in some sort of denial....
i'm just gonna go get some sleep and then get up in the morning.....and have a stiff drink...

[JPMNICK]

i'm definately in some sort of denial....
i'm just gonna go get some sleep and then get up in the morning.....and have a stiff drink...

that's the way to go. put some in a water bottle and bring it work to keep the buzz through the day.

[Don Stugots]

paul, we all go through tough times and bad days. you can get through it.

[MellySmelly]

.....and that i probably and not gonna hang on.....
I always have to repeat that i'm not suicidal.....but i feel like i still need to be treated with kid gloves.....but that ain't gonna happen......
i have no idea what's happening or what i can do about it.....
i have lots of nice people who have given me lots of support and lots who crap on me.......in the long run it doesn't matter......
it's strictly up to me to save myself ...from myself......
(not that it's all that dramatic......I'm just in a bad movie at the moment)

PUSSY

[JPMNICK]

PUSSY

what a gal!

[MellySmelly]

Sorry, but I've been listening to this bullshit for days now. He been a complete and total ass. Shit or get off the pot.

[mr.smokepants]

my problem is i tend to keep stuff inside.....and they say that's not good

You're smart Paulo....you know that what you are saying is right. I'm a WTC Tower 1 survivor, and I can tell ya, keeping shit in can kill you, and make the people around you miserable. You're hilarious on the show...I know that it means little in real life, but I just wanted to say something positive. Hope you feel better.

Smoke in Canada

[MikeB]

PUSSY

face

[ShelleBink]

All I can tell ya Paul is that you're a good person, things get better, but you gotta work at it a bit. You can't expect to do nothing and get everything. Good luck... and you got a helluva woman to help you along your way.

[ProfessorAnt]

i'm definately in some sort of denial....
i'm just gonna go get some sleep and then get up in the morning.....and have a stiff drink...

we all see how that worked out...face

[SinA]

but is the new harry potter any good?

[Doogie]

Wow brother man, you just need to take a few steps back and get some help brother. You gotta a good chick and all but will drive her away if you keep things bottled up and dont release it.

[marky2bucks]

This thread now has context

[KISSjunky]

Hang in there Paul. Hang in there Melly. Best wishes.

[thebarge]

[wrong thread]

[drjoek]

Hang tough Paul O

[thepaulo]

harry potter 5 is not the best....we',ll see if it improes

[IMSlacker]

harry potter 5 is not the best....we',ll see if it improes

Cheer up Paul, The Simpsons will be out soon, and I'm sure things will be looking up.

[Midkiff]

STOP DRINKING

[CofyCrakCocaine]

Booze is the devil. I'd rather you were snorting coke than drinking booze, truth be told. And I don't recommend coke (despite being my namesake) to anyone. Whatever demons you have, booze is like gasoline for 'em.

Keep off da booze, fight the urge, that's the most un-pussy thing you can do right now. God Bless ya, keep up the good fight Paul. I'm rooting for ya, not outta some bullshit pity or sympathy but cuz I like ya and want ya to do better for yaself. I, and alot of folks here, have faith in ya, even if we dont adequately say so most of the time.

[ShapopoJoe]

Hang in there brother...and remember, there IS something after this life...keep searching brother and you will find it...thats God talking to ya big man...I learned it myself...and for future note, he is not going to make you give up your love of movies! Well, maybe the midget pirate porn...thats borderline but everything else is a go!

Stay strong, people love ya!

Shap

[MobCounty]

Paul, is it possible that I hate you and love you at the same time. :wink:
Goddamn riveting radio today, keep up the great work.

But keep safe,
MC

[drjoek]

http://www.wackypackages.org/realproductsscans/2004/jk/advil_small.jpg


http://www.greif.com/images/secondary-products/water-bottles/H2O_Bottle_fivegal_nohandle.jpg

Tomorrow for Paul O

[RMPGP]

This was tough to listen to today. I hope to god he gets the help he needs.

[DolaMight]

It was just a bit. Not only is he a great producer/director(GAP) he's a great actor. Triple threat.

[RMPGP]

i guess that's what they call "viral marketing".

[Midkiff]

It was just a bit. Not only is he a great producer/director(GAP) he's a great actor. Triple threat.

I call BS on that shit. No bit.

[MikeB]

Paul tried to get melly to pretend she talks to the dead.
I think he was drunk but he was playing it up a little bit to make himself better on the radio.

[IamPixie]

Bit.

why should we listen to what you say? you're canadian.

[DolaMight]

why should we listen to what you say? you're canadian.

Because we have world famous Canadian Sensibilities.

And because we can be sarcastic ehh-holes.

[samnyc]

Paul -

Sounds like you had a tough day. I just want to remind you of all of us who are your friends here.

I've never heard you like this. It's ok to have a bad day but then you have to get back up.

It's amazing how resilient people can be. i know you can do it!

[patsopinion]

http://www.wackypackages.org/realproductsscans/2004/jk/advil_small.jpg


http://www.greif.com/images/secondary-products/water-bottles/H2O_Bottle_fivegal_nohandle.jpg

Tomorrow for Paul O

WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT
HOLEY SHIT THAT THING IS HUGE
IS THAT TO SCALE?
I HAVE TO YELL TO GET MY POST NOTICED OVER THE ENORMITY OF YOUR MASSIVE BLUE RECEPTACLE

[led37zep]

I think you need to buy one of these and let your feelings out one verb/noun/adj at a time.

http://i150.photobucket.com/albums/s103/omfgchels/madlibskickbutt.jpg

[DolaMight]

It was just a bit. Not only is he a great producer/director(GAP) he's a great actor. Triple threat.

For the record I never thought it was a bit. My posts are out of context because they came from another merged thread. I don't retract the triple threat though. That still stands.

[drjoek]

WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT
HOLEY SHIT THAT THING IS HUGE
IS THAT TO SCALE?
I HAVE TO YELL TO GET MY POST NOTICED OVER THE ENORMITY OF YOUR MASSIVE BLUE RECEPTACLE

Hes going to need to rehydrate big time may have to use a whole one of those crystal rock bottles pictured.

For the record i thought the site resized these things better.
sorry

[celery]

I remember when rock was young
me and Susie had so much fun
holding hands and skimming stones,
had an old gold Chevy and a place of my own.
But the biggest kick I ever got
was doin' a thing called Crocodile Rock,
while the other kids were rocking round the clock
we were hopping and bopping to the Crocodile Rock.

Well, Crocodile Rockin'
is something shocking
when your feet just can't keep still.
I never knew me a better time
and I guess I never will.

Oh, Lawdy Mama, those Friday nights
when Susie wore her dresses tight
and the Crocodile Rocking was-a out of sight.

La la-la-la-la la,
la-la-la-la la,
la-la-la-la-la la.

[Hottub]

How are you doing today, Paul?

[Gvac]

I hope all is well today in the Paul O/Melly household.

They're two wonderful people who deserve happiness and peace of mind.

And if it's any consolation, I lost my mind years ago. I don't miss it one bit.

[MellySmelly]

Everything is fine, what he did yesterday had nothing to do with me, I just was stuck witnessing it.

[thepaulo]

well....i really don't remember much......but obviously i said fuck you to everyone.....so i guess i got that off my chest.....obviously......I also tended to say i love you in the next breath.....so i apologize to everyone who was mentioned.....especially Lenay D since she is the one most likely to take me seriously

[reillyluck]

well....i really don't remember much......but obviously i said fuck you to everyone.....so i guess i got that off my chest.....obviously......I also tended to say i love you in the next breath.....so i apologize to everyone who was mentioned.....especially Lenay D since she is the one most likely to take me seriously

Lenay is a strong girl, like her dad! but i do pheel bad for Stugots the most. he has been rocking back and forth in a corner all night!! :tongue:

and twitching!!!

[mr.smokepants]

Whatever demons you have, booze is like gasoline for 'em.

Excellent line.....I'm going to use that one. Nice work!

[ShelleBink]

Well at least Sheriff Bennington can enjoy his day off now that things seemed to have calmed down :)

[mr.smokepants]

well....i really don't remember much......but obviously i said fuck you to everyone.....so i guess i got that off my chest.....obviously......I also tended to say i love you in the next breath.....so i apologize to everyone who was mentioned.....especially Lenay D since she is the one most likely to take me seriously

We're all glad you're not hurt Paul-O. Again, we've never met, but you're part of my Friday afternoon, every Friday....I've been downloading some of the old Paul-O bits from R&F.net....great stuff. Looking forward to the new ones too....hope your head isn't too sore this AM . Everyone acts like an silly ass sometimes....you didn't hurt anyone, or yourself, so WELCOME BACK TO EARTH budday! Can't wait till next Friday. I'm no radio guy, but I'm thinking Seagram's might not help the reviews....in fact, Seagram's makes me want to throw rocks at my own house!

Hope you are doing well Melly......

[donnie_darko]

i love ya you big lug.
i think you need a new tattoo to lift those ailing spirits!

xoxo

[thejives]

Hiya Paulo!

I have to agree with the supporters here. Like Mr. Smokepants, I've been downloading your bits from the file library, and you're great! You have great timing, and you're personality really comes through in a positive light.

It sucks that you're going through hard times, but as long as people are out there wishing you well and pulling for you ... you're a sure shot to come out a winner. a gyeh gyeh gyeh.

Seriously. Be well, man.

-thejives

[Fallon]

I'm listening to Fridays show now.

Paul, we love ya!

[thepaulo]

obviously i'm being a big baby.....and have been putting Melly through some shit lately......
my actions are probably rooted in the fact that a number of years ago in florida, I would get drunk just about every friday morning in the studio.....so ron and fez know full well what an ass I am......and as has been stated, I don't drink often.....but when i do, I like to go all the way.....so I figured if I wasn't going to do the show anymore, I might as well go out with a bang.....

[Hottub]

obviously i'm being a big baby.....and have been putting Melly through some shit lately......
my actions are probably rooted in the fact that a number of years ago in florida, I would get drunk just about every friday morning in the studio.....so ron and fez know full well what an ass I am......and as has been stated, I don't drink often.....but when i do, I like to go all the way.....so I figured if I wasn't going to do the show anymore, I might as well go out with a bang.....


C'mon Paul. That's Bullshit. You have been doing the show since Ron and Ron. Do you really think Ronnie would keep having you back, year after year, if he did not think it was great radio?
I tend to trust Mr. B's judgement when it comes to entertaining people.
Anyway, I'm glad you are OK. And whatever you may decide, I will understand and support you and Melly.
Be well.

Tub

[stinkbud]

I dont envy your hangover paulo

[MikeB]

obviously i'm being a big baby.....and have been putting Melly through some shit lately......
my actions are probably rooted in the fact that a number of years ago in florida, I would get drunk just about every friday morning in the studio.....so ron and fez know full well what an ass I am......and as has been stated, I don't drink often.....but when i do, I like to go all the way.....so I figured if I wasn't going to do the show anymore, I might as well go out with a bang.....
fuck it fuck it fuck it fuck it fuck it fuck it fuck it fuck it fuck it fuck it fuck it fuck it

[mr.smokepants]

C'mon Paul. That's Bullshit. You have been doing the show since Ron and Ron. Do you really think Ronnie would keep having you back, year after year, if he did not think it was great radio?
I tend to trust Mr. B's judgement when it comes to entertaining people.
Anyway, I'm glad you are OK. And whatever you may decide, I will understand and support you and Melly.
Be well.

Tub

No truer words have been spoken Tub. Paul, I can say that I will be choked if you decide to stop doing the show.....but will, on the flip side, wish you nothing but good tidings! Can't wait till Friday......GEEEGEEEGEEE. You're hilarious Paul. I remember almost throwing up laughing when you did the Brokeback / Willie Nelson review. Goddamn you were funny.

Be well man....I bet you dimes to doughnuts that you'll shake this and move on. Think of the adversity you've already conquered....a lot more than most man!

[thepaulo]

I'm too depressed to drink.

[disneyspy]

hey buddaaaay,ive been a friend of bill w for 8 years now.
check out some meetins
life gets better
im no longer the drinky boy you knew back in the fla days
my life is better,thanks to a simple program
wish you the best

[Chigworthy]

Hang in there paulo. We like you.


I just can't believe Ron hasn't done more to help you.















kidding.

[GreatAmericanZero]

Paul emO.

[thepaulo]

I'm not really sure what emo is but I'm probably it.

[IMSlacker]

I'm not really sure what emo is but I'm probably it.

http://www.writhingdeath.com/music/Emo.jpg

[thepaulo]

I thought goths and emos were both pussies.

[JPMNICK]

I thought goths and emos were both pussies.

they are

[Don Stugots]

I love this thread, it prompted the phone call with the famous line "Don Stugots is the only one that cares."'

[thepaulo]

he is.

[Tall_James]

That Stugots, he is a stand up guy.:thumbup: