No clue where I'm going

[keithy_19]

Last semester at a county college, I realized college isn't for me. I was sitting in various classes and just felt lost and confused about what I was doing with my life. The plan was to be an English major, though in the back of my head I never knew what to do once I got that degree. Feeling compeltely dejected, I dropped out.

I spent the rest of that semester working part time at my shitty paying job which couldn't find a spot for me full time. I looked for full time work, but had trouble finding it.

Since I was still considered a full time student, I was under my dad's insurance plan and got health coverage which I desperately need due to my condition and the cost of the medicine I need. I was able to slide through the fall semester fully planning on attending an acting school in NYC to follow a dream I always had.

This was all well and good until I found out that I won't be considered a full time student with the insurance company. I dropped that idea.

I looked at various hospitals since my medical history made me vaugely interested in the field, but most hospitals don't offer entry level positions without experience.

I want to be a writer and have been told by many people that I have the talent to be the next Woody Allen. I just want to be doing something I love and it seems the things I love aren't able to come to fruition because of my disease and to some degree, my lack of interest in school.

Just needed to vent.

[StupidGirlllll]

You can if all else fails go on charity care, since you are considered an adult & are no longer covered under you fathers plan. My friend who has MS was not diagnosed until she was 21 & she also has no insurance but is now on charity care & acyually has great drs.

[spoon]

Plus, if you really want something it isn't about to get easier for you to go after it as you get older. If you are lucky enough to know what you want, you find a way to do it. If not, you'll regret it forever. Now I don't know enough about your health issues to assess the situation fully, so I can't go deeper then this.

Good luck.

Oh and if you're totally uncertain, I'd reccomend you get that English degree. Your options as a writer with one will be much more available with one versus having none. Sure this may mean taking a job in the field that isn't your ultimate goal, yet it may be the means needed to get there. For example, it may set u up with health insurance (as college seems to do) and finances to live and build toward your ultimate goal. It's never easy to attain what you want, but it's always worth it if the goal is noble.

[patsopinion]

dont take the broad courses
take something thats going to challenge you


and watch more baseball

[angrymissy]

Go back to school and get training in something that will afford you to make a living. Plug away at whatever job you get that can support you while you then dabble in things that interest you.

The dream of getting a job in your chosen field, doing something interesting and meaningful, that will also pay the bills, can happen, but usually only after a lot of hard work and crappy jobs.

[PhishHead]

I have a stomach disease it is not as bad as your condition but it does halt me from doing many things I love to do.

The one thing my doctor tells me over and over again is, "Do not let your disease control your life, yes do what you have to, to keep yourself well, but do not let it stop you from doing what you want to in life."

Don't let your disease hold you back from your ambitions and goals in life, if you do you will never achieve anything because you will feel you can always use it as somewhat of an excuse to never achieve something or try.

[Furtherman]

Go back to school and stick with it.

And don't ever believe someone who says you "have the talent to be the next Woody Allen." And don't ever repeat it either. No one is going to be the next Woody Allen, because there is only one. You can only be the first Keithy. Walking around with that false ego boost in your head will only set you up for disappointment.

[keithy_19]

And don't ever believe someone who says you "have the talent to be the next Woody Allen." And don't ever repeat it either. No one is going to be the next Woody Allen, because there is only one. You can only be the first Keithy. Walking around with that false ego boost in your head will only set you up for disappointment.

I don't want to be the next Woody Allen. I was never a big fan of him and thus never read or watched much he did. I suppose the humor style is similar, but I'm not one for copying someones style.

[Gvac]

I've always felt that asking a teenager to decide what they want to do with the rest of their life is the height of absurdity. I'm more than twice your age Keithy and I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up!

Seriously though...I went to college right out of high school and dropped out. Then I went back a year later and dropped out again. I went back a year later and dropped out one more time. Why? I couldn't commit to any one major. I took a variety of courses but none of them jumped out and grabbed me. I wound up working meaningless jobs and drank like a fish until I was about 27.

It's not the best path and I'm not encouraging anyone to follow it, and I certainly don't have my "dream job" today but I do enjoy my work and am able to make a pretty decent living at it.

Take some time to live and experience things before you try to pigeonhole yourself into a specific field.

Good luck.

[Ritalin]

Alright, I don't want to make this about me, but I'm about to cross a line that I may not be able to come back from. I might get older here right before you eyes.

Keithy, stay in school. Finish up school and then you can go out and figure out what you want to do.

[donnie_darko]

"This was all well and good until I found out that I won't be considered a full time student with the insurance company. I dropped that idea."

so you let your disease dictate your life?

i have no idea what your condition is, but if its something that puts your life into peril it would seem you more than anyone would want to make the most of the time you have, and wouldn't let it stop you from following your dream.

so why not get a full time job and go to school part time? seems pretty simple to me. I'm assuming since you're on your parents insurance you still live at home?

[keithy_19]

so you let your disease dictate your life?

i have no idea what your condition is, but if its something that puts your life into peril it would seem you more than anyone would want to make the most of the time you have

I don't let my disease stop me from doing anything. The cost of my disease does dictate a lot though.

Multiple Sclerosis is my condition. I won't die from it, but it an really suck. A lot.

[envirogator]

Keith....

there are so many options that you have that you most likely don't even know about. So many industries covet good writers as well as strong thinkers...if you would like pm me and I will share some thoughts with you...

[CofyCrakCocaine]

Really sorry to hear about the MS Keithy. You can still do so much nevertheless. I think one of the tricks is to do something, and stop giving a shit about it at the same time. Attitude does have some impact on how you do, so try not to let the demons and bastards get ya down for too long. The best stuff I ever wrote was stuff I wrote when I didn't give a shit anymore what I was writing or what people would think. Try waking up real early and writing something then- worked for me.

There's other shit that you'll need to take care of on your own obviously- but you're a thoughtful intelligent person with an interesting world perspective- those are good ingredients.

[Thrice]

Get a job with the Post Office. It worked for Bukowski.

[keithy_19]

Get a job with the Post Office. It worked for Bukowski.

I'm trying to get employment in the mailroom of a hospital.

[ralphbxny]

I've always felt that asking a teenager to decide what they want to do with the rest of their life is the height of absurdity. I'm more than twice your age Keithy and I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up!

Seriously though...I went to college right out of high school and dropped out. Then I went back a year later and dropped out again. I went back a year later and dropped out one more time. Why? I couldn't commit to any one major. I took a variety of courses but none of them jumped out and grabbed me. I wound up working meaningless jobs and drank like a fish until I was about 27.

It's not the best path and I'm not encouraging anyone to follow it, and I certainly don't have my "dream job" today but I do enjoy my work and am able to make a pretty decent living at it.

Take some time to live and experience things before you try to pigeonhole yourself into a specific field.

Good luck.

Bro reading that...we are so similar its scary!!

Dude stick with it or go to school for something that will help you make loot. There really is no real place for people without a degree from a college or some sort of school in the real money world anymore.

That being said I took the GVAC route to success and was lucky to fall into a group of people that got me into Insurance school and a direction (When I was 27). Just keep yourself out of trouble and makin headway. Eventually you will get your shit going. Dont freak out!

Good Luck Bro!! You'll be fine...just dont become obbsessed with a radio show and message board or something!