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[Godzilla]

Horde,
ecently i've been very emotionally drained. My heard and head hurt like a bitch, and i've started saying and mumbling stupid things, even some very horrible, disgusting things. how can i get a balance back and not freak out everyone with this behavior i've had recently. i feel so bad about things i've said and done, and i feel this is a depression i will not get out of

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[FIG]

this is a very serious problem you have if i had a fully functional brain i would help you out but i guess youll just have to wait for horde

FezIsGay
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This message was edited by FIG on 4-24-01 @ 12:20 AM

[sarah521]

Zilla, please dont be so sad. I know there is little I can do for you, but you always know where to find me online if you need me. . .

Peace and Sunflowers

[HordeKing1]

GODZILLA - You've already done the hard work yourself. You've recognized that your previous behavior was hurtful to some and not indicative of your true character. You're an emotional person yearning for a loving relationship. This makes it difficult to accept that a promising friendship has ended. It's sad when it does, but once it's over you must move on. You will find the special person that's right for you, but love cannot be forced.

[FIG]

horde are you getting this stuff from a book or do you read dear abby too much

FezIsGay
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[HordeKing1]

FIG - All original my friend, although much of my understanding of the human psyche comes from extensive study of psychology and philosophy.

[sunndoggy8]

Godzilla, I know it's hard and I know it's difficult and it's so easy to stay in that type of depression. It's like this hole that you can't climb out of, and it's totally overwhelming.

I'm talking out of personal experience, zilla, and I know what it is like to feel down about life. While I don't know your personal situation, I can relate to feelings of helplessness and unhappiness, which I'm sure you're feelling as well.

There's no perfect advice or way to fix it Zilla. IF there was there would be a hell of a lot more happier people out there. But you have control over your life Zilla, even if you don't think that you do.

I remember posting this to you before, but you have to understand that as an individual, you have more power than you realize...yes there's fate and there's crap that happens that no one can control...but you can fix things for you, and you can get through anything. If I could do it, you can too.

Horde King is right, you can't force love on someone...but you can learn to love yourself more in terms of self esteem. Horde says that you have come a long way, so that makes me think that you've made progress. THAT IS GREAT!

But don't give up. It's so easy to I know. It's so easy to just give in and stay in that funk. But you'll never be happy that way Godzilla. YOu have to fight it and push through.

There are plenty of people out there Zilla, and if this is about a woman, there are plenty of those too. It hurts and it sucks and everything reminds you of what you lost, but believe it or not, you're better off for it. Your stronger and tougher and can get over this.

I totally have faith in you as a human being that you can rise up from the depths of negativity that you've been feeling.

If you ever need someone to talk to or vent to or whatnot, my email is on my profile. Just believe that you can make it through this Zilla, and don't give up on yourself after everything you've put into getting better.

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[nailbiterfromqueens]

zilla i want to tell u that there is nothing wrong with feelling depressed every now and then but sometimes u just need to get out of computer world and try meeting real people.i feel the same way some times, depressed ,sad ,and bitter about the way life is going for me.if u ever feel the need to talk to a fellow depressed ronfez listen email me at morras123@aol.com ok:)

i love fezzy and i also bite my nails!

[BeefJerkyJerry]

Hey Zilla I know what you
mean. I am also a man of you
Stature. Well i am just
shorter 6'2. ANYWAYS!! This is
what to do to get yourself
back to being happy. GO OUT!
Goto Jenks, Tradewinds,
Bamboo, GoGo Bars. ENJOY
LIFE!!! Smoke weed if you do
that. I live in Woodbridge NJ.
Call me sometime and we can
hang and pick up chicks!

JeRrY

[CYYYFYYY]

Why when someone says they are
sad some MO-ron says .... hey
why don;t you smoke some
Pot... That is a real good
answer..... NOT!!!! How about
simply turn your frown upside
down!

The FRANCHIZE HAS SP


David the Franchize

[HordeKing1]

CYYYFYYY - It would be wonderful if depression could be so easily lifted. Many do not understand that depression is a real illness affecting millions of people. It is not something you can just "snap out of." The most effective treatment is to seek the service of a psychologist and/or obtain some psychoactive antidepressants. (From your Dr. of course.)

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[Godzilla]

Cyyy, B.J.J, and Nailbiter, thank you all for your comments and ideas for helping..they have helped alot...i've been doing more...going outside more, and trying to lift this depression, and it's working a lil bit. Also thank you Horde, you've been trying to help me since day one, and i thank you for not getting fustrated and giving up on me

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This message was edited by Godzilla on 5-6-01 @ 9:35 AM

[HordeKing1]

ZILLA - I'm delighted to learn that you've been able to do more things. Spending time outside enjoying this beautiful weather is a very good sign.

Remember though, that progress isn't always measured in leaps and bounds. Keep moving in the right general direction and you'll continue to progress to the place you want to be.

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[CYYYFYYY]

HEEEEEELLO Again.... Yes I
know it is not as easy as
turning your frown upside down
and then you will be happy....
I was more comenting on how
Drugs are not the answer. The
thing most people don;t
realize because in TV everyone
is happy.... even shows that
people are supposed to be
depressed like Rosanne....
heck they are pretty happy.
Most people always say why
can;t I be happy like everyone
else.... Well most people have
faced a major depression in
there life and there is no
easy answer. Just remember
you have your health and that
is so key. Imagine how bad
you life would be if you had
cancer or aids or if you were
in a wheel chair.... 20 years
from now you will say you
should have enjoyed your life
more when you were younger so
try enjoying life... I k


David the Franchize

[HordeKing1]

CYYYFYYY - You make a very big mistake assuming that any person "has his health". Often this is not the case and is in fact a proximate cause of the depression.

Also, sometimes anti-depressants are the best answer to help a person in a chronically depressive state. They should NEVER be summarily ruled out. Furthermore, a person should never feel bad about needing to take drugs of this nature. Depression is as much or an illness as Hypertension or Coronary Arteriosclerosis. Just as a person wouldn't hesistate to take meds for those conditions he shouldn't hesistate to take meds for depression.

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[Godzilla]

ummmm CYYY, i have diabetes....it almost killed me 2 years ago, and even still is causing problems. i havn't had my pills in over 7 months cause i have no coverage or any money, not that money matters cause my pills cost about $100 a pill. but the diabetes dosn't get me depressed too often..sometimes i get pissed cause i see it as god having the opportunity to take me away from here..to kill me and end all this, and he didin't..so it gets me angry sometimes. and cyy, sometimes someone saying stuff like, "turn your frown upside down", makes ya chuckle, and it does make ya feel better.

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[BeefJerkyJerry]

Ok #1 I was not suggesting to
take drugs. I am just saying
to do things that make you
Happy. Try to surround
yourself with most positive
atmosphere than a depresssing
on. but I understand where
GodZilla is comming from. like
Hime I do not have Health
Coverage and have some
Problems myself. So Health is
such a Fragile thing, But I am
not going to get into it. But
if Zilla cannot afford $$ for
a Doctor the best thing he can
do is to go out. Do not stay
home. Cause if you stay home
it just gets you MORE down if
you are sitting home watchin
Tv and on the PC. If you are
in College Join a Fraternity
like Zeta Beta Tau where you
have Many brothers there to
help you out in time of need
like this. Welp Time to go eat
some JeRKy


Also if any of you want to IM
me on aol I am K42ZBT

This message was edited by BeefJerkyJerry on 5-7-01 @ 9:35 AM

[CYYYFYYY]

People just chill.....
Be happy PEOPLZ!!!!


David the Franchize

[HordeKing1]

The best thing for people who cannot afford their meds to do is to contact the drug company that manufactors the pill. Nearly all of them have some kind of program that provides free medication for those in financial need.

All you need is to obtain a form from the drug company, have your doctor write a perscription on it, fill out a very brief questionaire as to why you can't afford medication and you'll be hooked up.

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[vegeta]

Godzilla:

1) you need to lose some serious weight. If you listen to yourself on the ron and fez show, you sound like you're close to 40, not 20.

2) You shouldn't be so down on yourself.

3) when you look in the mirror, tell yourself that I love me and that's all that matters

4) Get a chick and bang the hell out of her. That will put you at ease, if not make you happy.

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[Godzilla]

Vegeta: i am 400+ lbs. i don't knmow for sure cause there isin't a scale that can weigh me. My doc told me a wile back that for my body size a healthy weight would be 270-300lbs. so thats my goal, and i'm working on it. Looking in the mirror is not one of my favorite things to do...i just see me as..me, a fat dude who can't get chicks and when he does finally get one chick that's slightly intersesd in him, all he can do is get a feel or 2. and as for getting chicks, i doubt that will ever happen

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[CYYYFYYY]

Mr. Zilla

You did not mention
anything about that very good
post about getting your pills
for free. That is the most
important thing!!

So are you going to take
those steps to get those
pil


David the Franchize

[girl germs]

<font size="4"><b>girls who care more about your physical appearance rather than your stunning personality are shallow (i'm not saying there is anything wrong with being shallow though, shallow can be good for some people i guess). they most likely are birdbrained and don't deserve to be around cool dudes like you godzilla.<p>
so godzilla, exercise, keep your head up, and turn that frown upside down mr!<p>
and please don't think i'm lying because i'm not...i think not having you on this earth would be a loss to humanity!<p>
word up, dude.<b></font>

[girl germs]

isn't this cute?<br><img src="http://www.attrition.org/gallery/nature/hotdog_1.jpg" width="190" height="180"><p>
it's a hot dog! (i am not advocating cruelty towards animals...i personally don't like to eat hot dogs or any kind of meat...i'm just saying that it's a cute picture.)

[BeefJerkyJerry]

Well Godzilla let me tell you from Expirience.

I know what you mean. All my life I have been doing things that would make people like me. Like in High School I played football even though I had no interest in the begining (later on I learned to love it and miss it now ANYWAYS), or I would take my friends out for dinner and strip clubs all on me.
My situatiopn with girls were NIl. I was affraid to talk to em cause i used to think they would laugh at me cause of my Size and as a matter of Fact I had no girlfriend and a virgin til the age of 20.. Then something CLICKED for me. I learned WHO CARES what people think. YOu spend to much time worry about them and no time for you to have fun. So now it is like her if she says no FUCK HER! There are many more girls out there to try out for.Am I makng any sense here? Or am I rambling on? Welp I do not want to bore you all... Talk to yas later.

[vegeta]

Holy Crap!

You are seriously down on yourself, Godzilla. I think you need to quit bashing yourself and think on the positive more than the negative.

I think that you also need to hang out with other people so your own thoughts don't get the best of you.

My theory is that for every person on this planet, there is a person that is a perfect match for him or her. If you haven't found htis person, then you're just not looking hard enough.

Pick yourself up out of your depression and begin your life as a totally independant person. You need to create a new persona, preferably one who likes to have fun and doesn't have such a pessimistic view of the world.

I'm no shrink, but that's my view.

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[Pootertoot]

Ana Ng and I are getting old and we still haven't walked in the glow of each other's majestic presence.

Godzilla, in due time, the pieces will all fall into place and you'll be the happiest giant on the block.

Chicks dig the tall guys, and you don't get much bigger than Godzilla.


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[girl germs]

pootertwat, are you a they might be giants fan? i've seen them perform live like zillions of times (well, actually only four). ana ng is one of my favorite songs by them.<p>
anyway...one more suggestion godzilla...you should try listening to <b>they might be giants</b>. they're an awesome band. their music might just get you to start prancing around your room...and i guess that could also be considered exercising.<p>
just a suggestion.<p>
ps-sorry about the hot dog picture. after looking at it for about one hour it started to make me a bit sad.



This message was edited by girl germs on 5-9-01 @ 7:25 PM

[Pootertoot]

Huge Giants fan. Have everything they've ever done and then some.

'Zilla, if you're going to take Ms. Germs' advice, start with the album "Lincoln", which has the previously afforementioned "Ana Ng" on it. It's a fairly depressing love song about a guy whose "one true soulmate" lives on the other side of the world, where he will never meet her. It's a bit more complicated but I'll let you find out for yourself, and goddamnit does that song fucking rock.

As for the hot dog pic, I understand that was today's special at my local korean restaurant. ::rimshot::

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[sunndoggy8]

That is a cute hot dog girl germs! I always wanted a dog, but never had one as a kid b/c my sis and dad were allergic...I'm thinking of getting one though...any suggestions on one that won't cause people in my family to sneeze about?

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[girl germs]

sorry sunndoggy, i can't help you out.

maybe you can just buy a poodle and shave its hair or something. i don't know.

[LtBoogaloo]

Ok, so you, almighty Godzilla are depressed. Join the crowd. ..
You want personal experience as a reference? Outside of work, I didn't leave the house for ANYTHING until last week. If I wanted things, people delivered. If I wasn't working, I was in one of three rooms in my house. (Bedroom, Bathroom or Living Room if you're curious).

If you want to get medical with this, try social anxiety disorder and mild agoraphobia. I didn't go out. I wasn't happy outside. I felt worse and worse as I stood in public, like the whole world was criticizing me and they were at any minute going to laugh and mock me.

I did all the great "anti-depression" fads. I exercised, I dieted, I popped "natural, herbal" supplements. I tried illegal/legal drugs, I tried therapy. Nothing seemed to cut it. I figured that whatever part of me regulated happiness, I broke mine.

So how did I fix it? Well, I guess I just got tired of being so shitty. I got tired of looking out my window at people and seeing that they were enjoying themselves. So one morning, really really early, I went outside and stood in my driveway. Just for a few minutes. Yes of course I cried, cause well I am an unstable mess, but it felt good. Then the next day, I walked to the end of my block. Then I walked around my block. And feeling very cocky, I went out in public last weekend. It was difficult and scary as hell, but worthwhile. And oddly enough, no one laughed at me...most people agreed I was fun, pleasant, and cute even.

So what's my point? Depression sucks. But you still have to keep trying to do things, even little things, and work up in steps. Granted you may want to skip ahead or modify steps as you feel more comfortable, but I found the best way to not let depression kill me (aside from not slicing my arms and legs) was to do very little gradual things. You build confidence quickly.

I have no idea if it'll work for you, and if you need a hand, let me know.




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[Godzilla]

outside is good

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[Pootertoot]

Look Godzilla! Kitty!

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That should do the trick for ya.

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[girl germs]

pootertwat, please stop copying me. thank you.

godzilla, i honestly hope you're feeling a bit better. an update wouldn't be so bad, i think people on this board really care about you.

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[Pootertoot]

I wasn't copying, Ms. Stern...you posted a terrible display of animal cruelty and expected us to enjoy it, while I tried to share a happy little kitty picture.

Why did the monkey fall out of the tree?

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[girl germs]

<i>"Why did the monkey fall out of the tree?"</i>

the monkey fell off the tree because you pushed it to its terrible death. you are the one that is cruel towards animals. you should be ashamed.


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[Pootertoot]

I did kill an animal once.

I was at the Bronx Zoo my freshman year of high school. I was doing a project for my biology class, and at one point stopped by the Red Panda enclosure. Back then, you had to go up a bunch of steps to reach it, as the Red Pandas tend to lounge in trees. It was basically just a balcony about 20 or so feet off the ground which let you look at the Red Pandas with nothing seperating you.

I was standing there watching them sleep, when a young girl came up next to me and screamed at the top of her lungs in a grating high-pitched voice, "DADDY! LOOK! RACCOON!".

At this point one of the Red Pandas lept to its feet, frightened by the girl, and lunged at me, screaming the Red Panda howl, which basically sounds like "SCREEEEEEEEEEEEEE!" It flew through the air at me...

...and didn't quite reach. In what seemed like slow motion, it just missed the balcony, hit the wall beneath it headfirst, then fell to the ground, landing on its head. It twitched a few times, then stopped moving.

To this day I get angry phone calls from its mother.

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[HordeKing1]

The most frequently occuring theme I have seen in discussions of this nature can be distilled into the problems associated with lack of self-confidence.

Try thinking of yourelf in these terms. The galaxy is an almost inconceivably huge place. The observable universe contains billions of galaxies. We can only detect the most minute part of the universe. In all this, there is only one you.

Just existing makes you sepcial. How much more wonderful you are with all the truly nice qualities you possess. Whenever you get very down try to think along these lines.

It won't cure depression. For that I recomend that you visit your friendly neighborhood shrink. Thinking about yourself in positive terms is an excellent first step.

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[vegeta]

Here is the best advice for you, Godzilla:

Don't take any advice from any of us. We're all a bunch of scumbags, losers, dreamers, nostalgics and people who are off their medication.

What you need is a ny-exotic.com.

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[HordeKing1]

VEGETA - That's a double negative. If you instruct someone not to take advice from anyone and that person takes your advice, he's already broken your rule.

Zilla, as you well know I'm a BIG fan of frank open communication. There are people who want to talk; who want to help. Let them!

Ultimately however, you must recognize that you are the final arbiter of your life. Make it a good one!

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[Pootertoot]

Someone in General Discussion said Godzilla stopped reading the board.

To bad he didn't get to see my kitty (far superior to girl germs' hot dog atrocity)

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[erinmoran]

maybe he has stopped liking "kitties"....and is switching to "hot dogs"...hmmmmmm....ah ha.....

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[Godzilla]

No erinmoran..i'm no faggotito. Hey everyone,i'm still alive and doing well. BTW, love the lil kitty picture...i love cute, cuddly things (ok, maybe i am gay) :)

Anyways, you guys caring about me is really cool...i never though thisa many people cared about me, that alone has boosted mt self esteem a lil bit. as forthe self esteem and depression...i'm working on it...i have a feeling depression is gonna be a life-long friend...but you never know. Hey, how bout them Devils!!! i know not alot of people watch hockey, so what?

well, i'll talk to yall soon again i hope, buh-bye!

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[vegeta]

Hey, Joanie love chachi, and we love you, Zilla. Well, I don't love you in <b>that</b> way. I ain't no Fez.

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