i hate this forum, but...

[Dougie Brootal]

i gotta tell ya... i really wish i was dead right now. and i hate when people use some fag message board as a cry for help, but since i dont have any real friends, here i am. i feel like the walls are closing in. the only fun i have in life is pulling sad, depressing songs from youtube and waiting to see iff they finally make me feel something. i hope to feel incredibly depressed, cuz at least i will know im still alive. ive felt dead for a long time. ive had this shotgun barrel in my mouth for sooo long.... my mouth hurts.

[PapaBear]

Please tell me the shotgun is a metaphor.

[weekapaugjz]

Please tell me the shotgun is a metaphor.

seriously, things could be bad, but it can never be as bad as this. we're all here for you doug.

[sailor]

a bunch of people on here care for you and wouldn't want you to do anything silly.

[PapaBear]

Call 911, NOW Doug. I fucking mean it!

[drjoek]

Doug you are one of the good guys here and I assume it carries to your life. If you are in such pain PLEASE get whatever help you can. We really care for you and want the best for ya budday.

[torker]

dude

[Dougie Brootal]

dude stop i would never even have the balls. im sorry i even said anything i just cant deal with this.

[Don Stugots]

Doug, you know you have friends and a great looking chick. you can call me if you need to talk.

[PapaBear]

You CAN deal with it, if you get some help. I've gotten help before, and it works.

[drjoek]

If you need someone to talk to were here for you.

[weekapaugjz]

dude stop i would never even have the balls. im sorry i even said anything i just cant deal with this.

you can deal with this. you are going to get through whatever gets in your way.

[Nothing Sound]

You CAN deal with it, if you get some help. I've gotten help before, and it works.

You need to help yourself before you start looking for help from other people.
If you're not willing to help yourself then it's just a waste of time and money.
If you are willing to help yourself then therapy is totally unnecessary.

[Friday]

sweetheart, i hope things get better for you.
believe me when i tell you that a lot of us have been there.... in more real ways than we would ever want to admit.
shit... a good friend had the police check on me one night this year they were so worried about my well being.

but knowing you have people who give a shit about you.... even just on a message board... is a big deal. and a reason to just get through the night.

get some sleep... and hopefully think on these posts tomorrow and find a reason to smile.
there is ALWAYS a reason to smile.

[ahhdurr]

Grasso you're a good guy. Fuck it. Get some sleep and start figuring out a plan for this shit. I've been through all of it - it's no fun so I'm not telling you to blow it off... but you can get to a place in life where you wonder what you were so upset about.

I think mostly, though, the solution involves your coping mechanisms more than wiping out what's bothering you. I've accepted my demons for the most part - I choose different methods of dealing with them today though. None of them involve a shotgun.

Friends and someone to talk to is really important and since the industrial revolution and the rise of the suburbs, human beings - naturally social creatures - have been more and more cut off from their friends and their families. I wouldn't say this is the reason for everything but I like to think about how the bigger picture ties into what I'm going through. You ever see movies like that Mel Gibson one with the savages - how they all gather around every evening and listen to stories about the thunder god giving blessings and things like that? They never had our high shelf unfullfillment problems - then again they didnt' have instant porno on the computer so maybe we take the trade and count ourselves lucky.

You're easily one of the funniest dudes on the board if you need sunshine blown up your ass. Your posts are reminiscent of the sense of humor of an old friend - strangely familiar stuff - he was going through the same type of stuff for a long time - he's married and stable in a job with children and the whole nine and (not that everyone wants that) the point is - it settled out for him. He also had to get sober though - that's a deal breaker for ppl a lot of times but - whatever.

I hope that makes you feel better - I'm going to look for porno!

[Dougie Brootal]

really im sorry im sorry i shouldn't have done this i know you all think im a pussy and attention whore im sorry im sorry

[PapaBear]

really im sorry im sorry i shouldn't have done this i know you all think im a pussy and attention whore im sorry im sorry
I don't think that at all. You needed to turn somewhere, and you did. You have nothing to be sorry for, Doug.

[weekapaugjz]

really im sorry im sorry i shouldn't have done this i know you all think im a pussy and attention whore im sorry im sorry

not at all doug. everyone needs to vent at some point.

[ahhdurr]

really im sorry im sorry i shouldn't have done this i know you all think im a pussy and attention whore im sorry im sorry

haha - maybe you change your mind about reaching out ... then you'll do it more often without fear reprisal ... then you'll start feeling better consistently.

[drjoek]

haha - maybe you change your mind about reaching out ... then you'll do it more often without fear reprisal ... then you'll start feeling better consistently.

reaching out or ...COMING OUT?

Wheee

[Dougie Brootal]

im sorry i just have this thing with my older bro, and its ruining my fucking life.

[Dougie Brootal]

of course jokes are welcome

[torker]

of course jokes are welcome
wrong forum
sorray

[cogsdoc]

Though you are right this is probably not the best forum to reach out for help, I am glad you did that. I don't know you or what you are going through, but it's obvious to me that there are people here that sincerely care about you. If you have found that here you will find it where you are. The potential for better days is always there. If you have been struggling too long to find them on your own without success then it's time to get the help of professionals.

If you can be a little patient with it you will be surprised how much a good professional can help.

[King Hippos Bandaid]

venting here beats drinking the problem away

you seem like a good egg, someone make a MD VA bar night so doug can party with ya

[weekapaugjz]

im sorry i just have this thing with my older bro, and its ruining my fucking life.

dude, i can totally relate. i went through some shit with my older bro earlier this summer. a lot of heated words were exchanged and i was very close to not going to his wedding even though i was his best man. i had to refrain on several occasions from calling his then fiance a cunt, even though i really, really wanted to. i took some advice from my mother to stop contact for a few weeks to really determine how i felt about the situation. it gave me time to reflect on how i wanted to communicate with him. fortunately, we were able to work through the problems.

take some time with no communication, figure out with a clear head exactly what you want to say to him and then do it. if it doesn't work out, at least you tried. its always difficult dealing with family problems.

[PapaBear]

someone make a MD VA bar night so doug can party with ya
We really do suck at getting people to show for those. Don the Hypnotist tried to get one going for Oct 25th, and the response has been terrible. And it's my BIRTHDAY!:wallbash:

[Ritalin]

Listen, I'm not one of the cool kids, so I don't know whether to take this seriously or not, so I'm just going to assume it's serious.

I hate my little brother. I hate him so bad that I can definitely see beating him senseless with my fists. I should only get the chance.

But if he called me saying the things that you're saying I would talk him off the ledge. There's nothing that you're going through that's worth taking yourself out. Nothing. You seem like a decent guy to me, so relax, make yourself safe and comfortable and ride it out. Tomorrow will be better.

I promise.

[Fallon]

Cheer up Doug!

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[jennysmurf]

Awwww...Dougie. The very fact that you reached out to us means that you know it can help. I'd bet most of us have been where you are, and we've all dealt with those things in different ways. Help can come in many forms--this is just one of them. Let me know if I can do anything legal to help. Emphasis on "legal."

[ahhdurr]

reaching out or ...COMING OUT?

Wheee

No - we all know Doug's probably not harboring any truly closeted feelings... I mean who doesn't like preventing themselves from singing the National Anthem now and a again with a bunch of drunk buddies during secret fraternity meetings - but ...

wait.

No that's not about me - I'm just sayin...

[ahhdurr]

Cheer up Doug!

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Fallon should be a therapist - he just did what many could not for me.

[red_red_red]

so were any of you able to call him and make sure everything is ok? srsly, i am freaked out by this.

[Tall_James]

I also had major issues with my older brother but I've since worked them out. Talking with a therapist helped a lot so you may want to explore that avenue if you can. If not, just remember that you're a good person (at least the Doug I know from this board is. I just hope you're not Dahmer or something when you're not on this board :unsure:)

I hope it all works out for you. Life is tough sometimes but well worth the struggle. Anyone who seems happy all the time is most likely insane or retarded.

[~Katja~]

i gotta tell ya... i really wish i was dead right now. and i hate when people use some fag message board as a cry for help, but since i dont have any real friends, here i am. i feel like the walls are closing in. the only fun i have in life is pulling sad, depressing songs from youtube and waiting to see iff they finally make me feel something. i hope to feel incredibly depressed, cuz at least i will know im still alive. ive felt dead for a long time. ive had this shotgun barrel in my mouth for sooo long.... my mouth hurts.

stop looking for depression to know you are alive, feeling alive does not mean you have to hurt!
Look for things that make you smile or laugh out loud ... look for something that keeps you busy, a hobby of you will. Something that consumes you, yet gives you satisfaction.

Fall is a beautiful time... go outside for walks (may sound cheesy but it will clear out your head) warm sun (but not heat) tends to trigger happy feelings, even when you are alone.

And stop looking for sad music, depressing music and try to compare your life to it... I have done that and kept excusing my sadness and failures by comparing it to silly songs and would tell myself that I am not the only one like this cause after all someone wrote a song about it...but they keep you in the hole longer. Actually going back through some music from when I was younger and happier helped.


Sheer up- you have a boatload of friends here ... and they are there to listen and help

[King Hippos Bandaid]

boob therapy sure beats shock therapy

[Sheila]

Though you are right this is probably not the best forum to reach out for help, I am glad you did that. I don't know you or what you are going through, but it's obvious to me that there are people here that sincerely care about you. If you have found that here you will find it where you are. The potential for better days is always there. If you have been struggling too long to find them on your own without success then it's time to get the help of professionals.

If you can be a little patient with it you will be surprised how much a good professional can help.

x2, professionals will get you on the road to better days sooner. in my past, I had some depressing times before and wish I had sought help or my parents would have, so many lost days where I could've been in a better place.. wishing you the best East Side Doug..
-Sheila

[red_red_red]

stop looking for depression to know you are alive, feeling alive does not mean you have to hurt!
Look for things that make you smile or laugh out loud ... look for something that keeps you busy, a hobby of you will. Something that consumes you, yet gives you satisfaction.

Fall is a beautiful time... go outside for walks (may sound cheesy but it will clear out your head) warm sun (but not heat) tends to trigger happy feelings, even when you are alone.

And stop looking for sad music, depressing music and try to compare your life to it... I have done that and kept excusing my sadness and failures by comparing it to silly songs and would tell myself that I am not the only one like this cause after all someone wrote a song about it...but they keep you in the hole longer. Actually going back through some music from when I was younger and happier helped.


Sheer up- you have a boatload of friends here ... and they are there to listen and help
this may be good advice for a very mild case of depression, people with mild cases of depression don't talk about suicide, he needs to be on an anti depressant, this sounds more organic, not just the blues.

[~Katja~]

this may be good advice for a very mild case of depression, people with mild cases of depression don't talk about suicide, he needs to be on an anti depressant, this sounds more organic, not just the blues.

probably true... I just figured this is the guy who also talks about his threesome (or plans of) all the time, so I am not sure how serious to take this...

I find that in the US people look for professional help and happy pills way too quickly. Ultimately it is your physical well being and balance that helps you feeling good about yourself and life.

I saw a doc once after I separated from my son's father and could not deal with being separated from my son, I was having anxiety and panic attacks, was hysterical for weeks. I went to get some Ativan and after just 2 doses told myself it was stupid to mask these emotions with a pill and it was better to ride them out and get better that way.

Doug sounds like he thinks he does not even know how to feel... he feels cold and seems to look for emotions. Pills will not help him find these... they will suppress them completely.

[Dougie Brootal]

ugh. what an idiot. i feel like paulo. or worse...jerrytaker.

























sorry guys. and thanks to everyone.

[red_red_red]

probably true... I just figured this is the guy who also talks about his threesome (or plans of) all the time, so I am not sure how serious to take this...

I find that in the US people look for professional help and happy pills way too quickly. Ultimately it is your physical well being and balance that helps you feeling good about yourself and life.

I saw a doc once after I separated from my son's father and could not deal with being separated from my son, I was having anxiety and panic attacks, was hysterical for weeks. I went to get some Ativan and after just 2 doses told myself it was stupid to mask these emotions with a pill and it was better to ride them out and get better that way.

Doug sounds like he thinks he does not even know how to feel... he feels cold and seems to look for emotions. Pills will not help him find these... they will suppress them completely.
great, so i'm a rube who fell for fake internet cries for help? :(
and i totally understand the pill popping mentality, some people handle stress way better than others, what bothers me is the shotgun reference, that's serious business, and if it's a joke, shame on me for wasting my time.

[Dougie Brootal]

Doug sounds like he thinks he does not even know how to feel... he feels cold and seems to look for emotions.

that sounds about right.

[drjoek]

probably true... I just figured this is the guy who also talks about his threesome (or plans of) all the time, so I am not sure how serious to take this...

I find that in the US people look for professional help and happy pills way too quickly. Ultimately it is your physical well being and balance that helps you feeling good about yourself and life.

I saw a doc once after I separated from my son's father and could not deal with being separated from my son, I was having anxiety and panic attacks, was hysterical for weeks. I went to get some Ativan and after just 2 doses told myself it was stupid to mask these emotions with a pill and it was better to ride them out and get better that way.

Doug sounds like he thinks he does not even know how to feel... he feels cold and seems to look for emotions. Pills will not help him find these... they will suppress them completely.

Doug does have a very self deprecating sense of humor here and often puts him self in the barrel for our amusement. The guy can take a joke about himself but I would take this as "not a bit". He seems to be legitimately hurting and I hope he gets the help he needs. I for one would do anything I could to help the guy eventhough hes just a message board budday.

[red_red_red]

that sounds about right.
you know that's not a good place to be in, right? we all have days, but if this is a prolonged issue, stop beating yourself up and go get some help, if money is an issue, they have sliding scale places. sorry to butt in all of this, but i knew a bunch of ppl who committed suicide, all men, who made veiled threats to do it, so this is bringing up old feelings.

[~Katja~]

great, so i'm a rube who fell for fake internet cries for help? :(
and i totally understand the pill popping mentality, some people handle stress way better than others, what bothers me is the shotgun reference, that's serious business, and if it's a joke, shame on me for wasting my time.


no rube... I was taking the thread with a serious and a not so serious view... cause ya never know.

[drjoek]

great, so i'm a rube who fell for fake internet cries for help? :(
and i totally understand the pill popping mentality, some people handle stress way better than others, what bothers me is the shotgun reference, that's serious business, and if it's a joke, shame on me for wasting my time.


I dont think you were a rube, Doug ( who is lurking in this thread, God I feel like Im talking around my dad when his hearing aids are turned down) was/is upset he wasn't trying to make it into a joke. I thinks hes saying its not as bad as the first post implied but he still struggling.

Doug you don't need to keep apologizing for reaching out

[RhinoinMN]

ugh. what an idiot. i feel like paulo. or worse...jerrytaker.

























sorry guys. and thanks to everyone.

You're not an idiot.

You came to a place to vent with people you trust.

There is nothing idiotic about that.

Hang in there dude. PM me if you want and I can tell you how we cope with things up here.:smoke:

[EliSnow]

really im sorry im sorry i shouldn't have done this i know you all think im a pussy and attention whore im sorry im sorry

To the extent that anyone has ever said anything like that, it was in jest as one friend to another.

You're one of the buddays doug, no two ways about it. I hope you are doing better today, but everyone goes through rough patches. Things will get better even if you don't see it now.

[jauble]

Doug you are one of my favorite fake gay friends that I know and one of the first people on this site to address me as an actual poster. I love you and if you need pictures I understand. Feel better budday.

[Dougie Brootal]

pictures would be nice.












lets all stop posting in here and forget this ever happened! am i right guys? huh?

[Tall_James]

lets all stop posting in here and forget this ever happened! am i right guys? huh?

Sounds good to me. Let's have an upbeat tune to seal the deal.

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Yes, that is Corky from "Life Goes On".

[mikeyboy]

Doug -

You catch a lot of shit here, but I hope you know that it's all in fun and we do like you. Don't feel bad venting to us. Everybody needs it sometimes.

[Tall_James]

Doug -

You catch a lot of shit here, but I hope you know that it's all in fun and we do like you. Don't feel bad venting to us. Everybody needs it sometimes.

QFT

[Dougie Brootal]

thanks guys.



and corky looks like shit.

[mikeyboy]

So...


um...


How's that threesome coming? ;)

[RhinoinMN]

So...


um...


How's that threesome coming? ;)

FACE!

[jauble]

Im now filing my petition to move this into a make fun of doug forum...but only because we love him.














mo

[Dougie Brootal]

So...


um...


How's that threesome coming? ;)

we've got hooks in the water. scot isnt talking to me right now cuz we took his ex's side in the break up. (she's much hotter)