Empty

[keithy_19]

I feel empty. It's like someone took my will away from me. I get out of bed, and I go through the motions, and I go to sleep and don't really sleep, I wake up and go through it all again.

I just feel like there has to be something more to this thenthe day to day nothing that I feel.

The beauty in it is that I'm young. And I know that with time I'm sure things will start to have a point. But right now all I do is get up, shower, eat, drink, and then watch my day go through in a drunken stuper. And I just don't want to do it anymore. But it's the only way I know how.

I'm not going to try to kill myself or anything, so don't worry about that. But I just seem to be taking the scenic route to it. It's hard when you know that you're just going to end up unable to do all the little things you took for granted at a much younger age then someone else.

You can all ignore this if you like.

[britneypablo]

you need a dog....get yourself a nice boxer or pitbull or bulldog

[FezsAssistant]

I've felt that way ever since the Daylight Savings switch.
I'm constantly tired and weak and unmotivated. I can't get a good night's sleep, either.
I can't even fall asleep when I try to take a nap.

[donnie_darko]

i feel your pain
gotta find some meaning to this pointless life.
don't go reading the myth of sisyphus or anything.

[~Katja~]

how about a job or a hobby?
What are the things you can no longer do that you used to do?

[King Hippos Bandaid]

food fills my void sometimes

until 22 it was booze and pot, then I found someone

give it time u are very young, just have fun

[Dougie Brootal]

dude i just broke up with my chick of four years dont tell me about feeling empty. somewhere theres a dude who just divorced his wife of 18 years who will say the same thing to me. it could always be worse.

[Gvac]

Do you want to know what the meaning of life is for us humans? Pretty much the same that it is for every other living thing on the planet; to ensure the survival and perpetuation of our species.

For simpler life forms this merely means eating, defending themselves and their young, and procreating.

For us it's a little more complicated, but not much. We not only want our kind to survive, but to evolve. How? By passing down wisdom, ideals, and philosophies which will lead to a better way of life for us all.

Acquire as much of these as you can and influence those around you.

That's your human purpose.

Of course, that's only half the story.

Our spiritual side is equally as important, if not more so. Do not neglect that undeniable half of yourself.

Peace.

[Foster]

you need a dog....get yourself a nice boxer or pitbull or bulldog

she's right get a pet, something that is going to depend on you

it will give you purpose, and it will love you in return

[red_red_red]

dude i just broke up with my chick of four years dont tell me about feeling empty. somewhere theres a dude who just divorced his wife of 18 years who will say the same thing to me. it could always be worse.
this is old news...stop crapping on about the break up.










:bye:

[red_red_red]

she's right get a pet, something that is going to depend on you

it will give you purpose, and it will love you in return
what if that person is unlovable? now there's a thought

[britneypablo]

what if that person is unlovable? now there's a thought

my dog loves me and i have been known to be unlovable.....

im just sayin my pooch has saved my life SO MANY TIMES....get one

[red_red_red]

my dog loves me and i have been known to be unlovable.....

im just sayin my pooch has saved my life SO MANY TIMES....get one
ya don't say? i'm shocked

[~Katja~]

what if that person is unlovable? now there's a thought

someone is catty today.
need a hug? :aaw:

[red_red_red]

someone is catty today.
need a hug? :aaw:
only if your boobs are out

[Gvac]

Not trying to play moderator or anything, but this post is in the "That's Life" forum. It's the one place on the board that's supposed to be free from busting balls, tooling on someone, or hijacking a thread.

[red_red_red]

Not trying to play moderator or anything, but this post is in the "That's Life" forum. It's the one place on the board that's supposed to be free from busting balls, tooling on someone, or hijacking a thread.
say no more...point taken :smile:

[led37zep]

If you don't like your life...change it.

If you think its routine then do something different bro.

Nobody is stopping you from taking a left when you've always been taking a right except you.

[keithy_19]

I had a job tha6t I liked that I got fired from. So my income went to shit. I'm seeing a girl that is so pretty that I can't understand why she would want to be with me. We're not a coulple which I guess makes me feel like I do with the opposite sex wanting me.

I'm going back to school as of January 09, so that's a good thing.

I do have a dog. His name is max ajnd he's a cockapoo and him and my niece are the two ,ost sweetest things I know.

I'm alspo four car bombs in right now. Just letting evryone kniow. I'm sorry if my ypingis a little off. I'll try not to drink anymore tonight.

[RoseBlood]

I'm seeing a girl that is so pretty that I can't understand why she would want to be with me.

Sorry if I sound like a bitch but having this mentality is almost a sure fire way to loose her.

[Dougie Brootal]

Sorry if I sound like a bitch but having this mentality is almost a sure fire way to loose her.

afuckingmen!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[~Katja~]

I had a job tha6t I liked that I got fired from. So my income went to shit. I'm seeing a girl that is so pretty that I can't understand why she would want to be with me. We're not a coulple which I guess makes me feel like I do with the opposite sex wanting me.

I'm going back to school as of January 09, so that's a good thing.

I do have a dog. His name is max ajnd he's a cockapoo and him and my niece are the two ,ost sweetest things I know.

I'm alspo four car bombs in right now. Just letting evryone kniow. I'm sorry if my ypingis a little off. I'll try not to drink anymore tonight.

am I mistaken or were you the guy who posted about his chick going away to college?

[RoseBlood]

am I mistaken or were you the guy who posted about his chick going away to college?

I believe that was Duke or Dukester or something.

[disneyspy]

I believe that was Duke or Dukester or something.

i thought it was the commish or somethin

[Bossanova]

Not trying to play moderator or anything, but this post is in the "That's Life" forum. It's the one place on the board that's supposed to be free from busting balls, tooling on someone, or hijacking a thread.

Get off yor high horse faggot!

[~Katja~]

I believe that was Duke or Dukester or something.

I get the young kids confused. I have noticed a trend with all of them being unhappy with life or themselves ... they are pretty sensitive to life and all it's ups and downs.

All I can say is that it is up to you guys to make the best out of any situation you are given. Instead of looking for what has you down, seek what makes yo happy and work hard for it.

[keithy_19]

All I can say is that it is up to you guys to make the best out of any situation you are given. Instead of looking for what has you down, seek what makes yo happy and work hard for it.

I hate to use it. Cause it's not me, yet it its. I was diagnosee with multiple sclerosis when I was 14. Had my first symptoms when I was 13. I grew up then, a little bit at least. And I've been in pain for the better part of year. I don't sleep much at night because of it. Which si why i drink. Cause I can still the pain for a little bit and get a night of sleep under my belt.

I've taken medicine for the pain, andit doesn't do much. Neurotin, lyrica, and it does nothing with me. It just makesalcohol the only availabile thing for me to that helpes me sleep. Or jsut function.

[Foster]

I had a job tha6t I liked that I got fired from. So my income went to shit. I'm seeing a girl that is so pretty that I can't understand why she would want to be with me. We're not a coulple which I guess makes me feel like I do with the opposite sex wanting me.

I'm going back to school as of January 09, so that's a good thing.

I do have a dog. His name is max ajnd he's a cockapoo and him and my niece are the two ,ost sweetest things I know.

I'm alspo four car bombs in right now. Just letting evryone kniow. I'm sorry if my ypingis a little off. I'll try not to drink anymore tonight.

Keithy,

I don't want to come across like an asshole, but this is not the first thread you have started about how depressed you are with your life. Now it sounds like you're developing a drinking problem, or at least thats what you want us to believe. Either way I think it is time to turn elsewhere for the answers to your problems, like a family member or a professional in this field.
The people posting here really want the best for you and will give you the best advice they can think of, but I don't believe anyone here really knows you enough to point you in the right direction. Like I said before, this has been an on going problem with you and its time to do something about it.
I hope everthing works out and I'm sorry if I offended you in anyway.

[~Katja~]

I hate to use it. Cause it's not me, yet it its. I was diagnosee with multiple sclerosis when I was 14. Had my first symptoms when I was 13. I grew up then, a little bit at least. And I've been in pain for the better part of year. I don't sleep much at night because of it. Which si why i drink. Cause I can still the pain for a little bit and get a night of sleep under my belt.

I've taken medicine for the pain, andit doesn't do much. Neurotin, lyrica, and it does nothing with me. It just makesalcohol the only availabile thing for me to that helpes me sleep. Or jsut function.

have you tried looking into other meds or a better combination? There are also many studies/ clinical trials out there that one can be part of.
Mixing pain meds and alcohol is not a wise choice, even if it is the only choice you believe you have right now.
In addition to the alcohol, people with medical conditions like yours that require medical treatment at all times often have a tendency to depression and anxieties. There are ways to find help. And there are people that would like to help you.

Sounds though as if you don't have the highest self esteem and even when a chick likes you for maybe just being you, you still don't believe it could be honest feelings on her part as you feel like no one should feel like that for you.

[Dougie Brootal]

I get the young kids confused. I have noticed a trend with all of them being unhappy with life or themselves ... they are pretty sensitive to life and all it's ups and downs.

All I can say is that it is up to you guys to make the best out of any situation you are given. Instead of looking for what has you down, seek what makes yo happy and work hard for it.

i agree! man up, young people!:unsure:

[keithy_19]

have you tried looking into other meds or a better combination? There are also many studies/ clinical trials out there that one can be part of.
Mixing pain meds and alcohol is not a wise choice, even if it is the only choice you believe you have right now.
In addition to the alcohol, people with medical conditions like yours that require medical treatment at all times often have a tendency to depression and anxieties. There are ways to find help. And there are people that would like to help you.

Sounds though as if you don't have the highest self esteem and even when a chick likes you for maybe just being you, you still don't believe it could be honest feelings on her part as you feel like no one should feel like that for you.

I'm not mixing the pain meds with the alcohol. I made a promise to myself that I wouldn't do that cause I know how wrong that could go.

It is true that I have pretty much no self esteem. I've been told I'm not a good looking guy abnd that I'm smart, but I jsut don't see it. It's kinda the same thign with my writing. I write and people think I'm great, and I really don't see whats so great about the wpords that I thro together.

[~Katja~]

I'm not mixing the pain meds with the alcohol. I made a promise to myself that I wouldn't do that cause I know how wrong that could go.

It is true that I have pretty much no self esteem. I've been told I'm not a good looking guy abnd that I'm smart, but I jsut don't see it. It's kinda the same thign with my writing. I write and people think I'm great, and I really don't see whats so great about the wpords that I thro together.

sweetheart, right now the words you throw together don't sound great... because even if you don't take the medication WITH the alcohol, you have to take it daily so you always have it in your blood stream.
Keep in mind that most pain meds can mess with your kidneys and liver, adding alcohol to the mix is a bad idea.
You should really concentrate on getting your pain under control and back to a sleeping cycle.
Do you have insurance? Are you able to get proper medical treatment or has it been hard?
There may be organizations who can help you.
You are too young to give up on yourself.

[keithy_19]

sweetheart, right now the words you throw together don't sound great... because even if you don't take the medication WITH the alcohol, you have to take it daily so you always have it in your blood stream.
Keep in mind that most pain meds can mess with your kidneys and liver, adding alcohol to the mix is a bad idea.
You should really concentrate on getting your pain under control and back to a sleeping cycle.
Do you have insurance? Are you able to get proper medical treatment or has it been hard?
There may be organizations who can help you.
You are too young to give up on yourself.

I was taking the meds for awhile and they still didn't do anything. It was the same with the neaurotin. I wa taking the lyrica for about a month and it didn't do anything.

I just don't really wannalive anymore. I don't wanna die/. Vut a coma sounds fine to me.

[~Katja~]

I was taking the meds for awhile and they still didn't do anything. It was the same with the neaurotin. I wa taking the lyrica for about a month and it didn't do anything.

I just don't really wannalive anymore. I don't wanna die/. Vut a coma sounds fine to me.

You didn't answer my question about being able to get medical help.
You seem to look for excuses not to get help and feel down instead.

Try to see a psychologist and maybe seek out a few more options for treatment of your condition.

[Foster]

I was taking the meds for awhile and they still didn't do anything. It was the same with the neaurotin. I wa taking the lyrica for about a month and it didn't do anything.

I just don't really wannalive anymore. I don't wanna die/. Vut a coma sounds fine to me.

comas suck, you wake up with more problems then when you went into the coma with and you wind-up missing a ton of cool stuff like the Superbowl.

How about what Katja asked do you have insurance?

[keithy_19]

comas suck, you wake up with more problems then when you went into the coma with and you wind-up missing a ton of cool stuff like the Superbowl.

How about what Katja asked do you have insurance?

I dont have insurance. But i Think i might npow since im bgon gacbk to school. I wasnt nder insruance for awhile. But now I think I am.

I havent seen a psychologist thoug since I was diagnose I shoul have been seeing one. I gueess I tryied tone toguheer thn I am. I',m jsut disad wiht ive. if I cant make myslef feel important who can/?

[keithy_19]

I'm reallysorry for brnigng uch negaitivit yot he the borrd.

[Dougie Brootal]

thats it hes drunk! :drunk:

[Furtherman]

Stop drinking now. You think you feel bad? Wait until you read this thread tomorrow morning and see all the places you pretended to type drunk.

[Dougie Brootal]

Stop drinking now. You think you feel bad? Wait until you read this thread tomorrow morning and see all the places you pretended to type drunk.

i know right? i get drunk every night and misspell my posts!

[keithy_19]

Stop drinking now. You think you feel bad? Wait until you read this thread tomorrow morning and see all the places you pretended to type drunk.

I just dont knowhow to get through thei -lace withoutbeing under the false pretense of somthing else. I'm weak. I am. 'm nothing compared to tohere. I hate that I' m so weak. I really am. I wanna be more to prove semthgn to myself but I'm not that strong.

[keithy_19]

I'mm sorry i broguth htis up. I really am. I amdrunjk, AND IT STUPID. i HTEMYSELF MORE FOR IT. bUT i'M JSUT OS LOST. i DONT KNOW WHA TO DO RIGHT NOW. iHTE THIS LFE.,i'M SO SORRY

[~Katja~]

I'm reallysorry for brnigng uch negaitivit yot he the borrd.

you are in the right forum for it.
The thing is; you are not going to get better by feeling bad for yourself, you can only get better when you actually take some of the advice given into consideration and seek help.

You don't even know if you have insurance or not, showing how "well controlled" you have had your condition over the past months ...

Get control over your mind, your body and then your life.
It is ok to get help when you find yourself unable to do it alone.

[Dougie Brootal]

I'mm sorry i broguth htis up. I really am. I amdrunjk, AND IT STUPID. i HTEMYSELF MORE FOR IT. bUT i'M JSUT OS LOST. i DONT KNOW WHA TO DO RIGHT NOW. iHTE THIS LFE.,i'M SO SORRY

stop drinking and call a relative! you are in a bad way right now.

[Foster]

I'mm sorry i broguth htis up. I really am. I amdrunjk, AND IT STUPID. i HTEMYSELF MORE FOR IT. bUT i'M JSUT OS LOST. i DONT KNOW WHA TO DO RIGHT NOW. iHTE THIS LFE.,i'M SO SORRY

you've got nothing to sorry for, expect maybe poor typing :wink:

Just try and get your head on straight and call someone who can be with you.

Do you live with your parents?

[keithy_19]

you've got nothing to sorry for, expect maybe poor typing :wink:

Just try and get your head on straight and call someone who can be with you.

Do you live with your parents?

i do. I just dont knowhow tgot hem nd say that m tired of livng/. I fele so awfl. ause eolehave it so much ros.e I feel patheitc. I really do.

[Dougie Brootal]

dude tube8.com nsfw

[Foster]

i do. I just dont knowhow tgot hem nd say that m tired of livng/. I fele so awfl. ause eolehave it so much ros.e I feel patheitc. I really do.

I know its going to be hard, but you have to go to them and say you need help.

They're your parents they love you and want to help you.

[~Katja~]

i do. I just dont knowhow tgot hem nd say that m tired of livng/. I fele so awfl. ause eolehave it so much ros.e I feel patheitc. I really do.

just took a brief look a your myspace and it looks like you have people that love you and people that you love around you. Trust me, they will understand when you talk to them, no need to feel pathetic, but they will be able to get you started on helping yourself.

[JDE]

The first step in getting help, is knowing you need it in the first place, and you seem to be at that place in life, so all is not lost.

Talk to your parents, the girl you mentioned, siblings, a friend, or if you want someone not close to you, find a professional, there are options for you, now you just need to choose one.

No one's problems are any bigger or smaller than anyone elses, we all struggle in one way or another, so don't belittle yourself, know you are struggling and you need help, if you're at that point, it's a good thing not a bad.


I hope you sleep off this night, and then if you're ready tell someone your problems, you do so.

Good luck to you.

[SatCam]

keith you are a good guy and I wish you the best


I hope you read this thread tomorrow so you can read everyone's advice sober. specifically the ones about seeing a doctor once you get back on insurance

[keithy_19]

I was laying in my bed when the door bell rang. It was the girl I'm seeing. I had been on the phone with her and she said I sounded really bad so she came over. We talked for pretty much the night and she said she would sit with me when I talk to my parents which I will do today.

I got pretty sick in the morning. Had to pull the trigger. I deserved it.

Thank you all for your advice. It means so much to me. It doesn't feel so bad when you know that there are people you don't even know and they support you like family. Thanks again. It means the world to me.

[RoseBlood]

Have you looked into any support groups for people with MS? Sometimes talking to people under similar circumstances can help more then any of us could. Good luck Keithy, I wish you well.

[keithy_19]

This has to stop. It comes in waves, and they're breaking more frequently now.

[Gvac]

To the frog living at the bottom of the well the sky is very small indeed.