I have two journals...

[JerseyRich]

I have two really beautiful journals that I was excited to write in at one time. They were given to me by two women that I loved and probably always will in some way.
I didn't write in them very much at all but what I did write, I am afraid to open up and read.
I look at the outside of the books sometimes and think about how I wanted to fill them with really special stuff but can never bring myself to write how I feel in them.

It's a shame because I think they are perfectly sized and they both smell nice, especially the leather one.(Made in Italy)

I was having a conversation with some really insightful and smart men yesterday who brought up the idea of not thinking about the past and not thinking about the future either. Just live in now.

So why do I still have these journals sitting in my bedside table? They are objects of beauty and I will probably never write another word in them, and they will probably travel with my for the rest of my life.

I want to open you...but not now.

http://richstillwell.com/RF/journals.jpg

[Gvac]

Fuckin' weirdo.

[JerseyRich]

Fuckin' weirdo.

Look at the Forum jackass.

[Chuck Norris]

So let me get this straight. You have not one, but two vagina's? Congratulations, your mother must be so proud of her baby girl. FAG.

[JerseyRich]

Might I direct you to this page? (http://www.ronfez.net/forums/showthread.php?t=52177)

[Chuck Norris]

Might I direct you to this page? (http://www.ronfez.net/forums/showthread.php?t=52177)

oopss...........:innocent:

[Gvac]

I say you open 'em up and read 'em. While I agree to some extent with the "not living in the past or the future" part of your original statement, I also don't think it's healthy to be afraid to confront either of them.

[Friday]

give them to me. i will read them for you.

[reillyluck]

I have two really beautiful journals that I was excited to write in at one time. They were given to me by two women that I loved and probably always will in some way.
I didn't write in them very much at all but what I did write, I am afraid to open up and read.
I look at the outside of the books sometimes and think about how I wanted to fill them with really special stuff but can never bring myself to write how I feel in them.

It's a shame because I think they are perfectly sized and they both smell nice, especially the leather one.(Made in Italy)

I was having a conversation with some really insightful and smart men yesterday who brought up the idea of not thinking about the past and not thinking about the future either. Just live in now.

So why do I still have these journals sitting in my bedside table? They are objects of beauty and I will probably never write another word in them, and they will probably travel with my for the rest of my life.

I want to open you...but not now.

http://richstillwell.com/RF/journals.jpg


I believe you should live for the moment, not the past. but there's no harm in having keepsakes. when you are older....much older you can reflect on your youth. I remember my grandmother telling me as a child she kept a diary of her past before my grandfather and she threw it away on her wedding day. then when she started getting early signs of alzheimers, she would say "i wish i had that diary". pretty sad to see.

you said it yourself, they were given to you by two women you loved. sometimes its hard to let go of items like this. you also admire the beauty of the journals. i say keep em until you feel like your ready to let go. I think you should open them up and read them to remind yourself of what you shared with both of them.

you'll know what to do with them when you are ready.

[MisterSmith]

There is nothing wrong with holding onto them; not only are the journals beautiful, but they also hold sentimental value.

Although you might not want to read what you wrote right now, I am sure there will be a point in the future when you will want to read it. And I don't see that as living in the past any more than watching home movies or looking at a yearbook are living in the past. Sometimes it is nice to visit and remember - or if it isn't nice, then it can be good to remember (even bad stuff can be helpful sometimes).

[razorboy]

I agree that someday you probably will want to read them. Hang onto them, maybe just keep them out of sight for the time.

[cougarjake13]

i dont have any beautiful journals like that


i just use notebooks, kinda like the guy in fight club i guess


anyway once in a while i go back and read them to kinda see how i was thinking then and if im still that way now or if i changed in some way



also i sometimes write down good ideas and thoughts in there b/c i tend to forget them later on and go damn i knew i had an awesome idea or thought and fuck me if i can remember it now




whats weird is i write in it as if someday it may be a book but i know i'll never publish it

[scottinnj]

I guess I'm going to be too literal but.

I have two journals too.

One is for observations I see while I'm at work, and the other one is just for writing thoughts that I feel are too dark for anyone to see.

The "dark" one I also keep track of patients who have died while under our care. It's just a way for them to never be forgotten, because some of them never had family.

So keep up with the journals. It's always a good thing to write.

[jonyrotn]

http://richstillwell.com/RF/journals.jpg

you can reflect on your youth.Youth?! You don't see that hairline?

Personally I've never written in a journal but that's because most of the events in my life I work very hard to forget and I'd rather not relive them, ever..
I do however, have a slide show of my first 37 years safely nestled somewhere in my brain, this way no one can ever invade my inner most thoughts and secret memories, they're for my enjoyment only unless I choose to share them with someone special or an internet message board..

[~Katja~]

I have two really beautiful journals that I was excited to write in at one time. They were given to me by two women that I loved and probably always will in some way.
I didn't write in them very much at all but what I did write, I am afraid to open up and read.
I look at the outside of the books sometimes and think about how I wanted to fill them with really special stuff but can never bring myself to write how I feel in them.

It's a shame because I think they are perfectly sized and they both smell nice, especially the leather one.(Made in Italy)

I was having a conversation with some really insightful and smart men yesterday who brought up the idea of not thinking about the past and not thinking about the future either. Just live in now.

So why do I still have these journals sitting in my bedside table? They are objects of beauty and I will probably never write another word in them, and they will probably travel with my for the rest of my life.

I want to open you...but not now.

http://richstillwell.com/RF/journals.jpg


did you write in them each while you were with these women you loved?
I think you probably closed the book/ chapter with them and the end of each relationship. My guess is they hold happy memories and no sad stories. They are beautiful and have a scent that brings memories of that time, remind you of the love you felt.

I agree with Reilly, keep them closed, but look back into them many years from now. I would not continue to write in either of them.

[JerseyRich]

did you write in them each while you were with these women you loved?
I think you probably closed the book/ chapter with them and the end of each relationship. My guess is they hold happy memories and no sad stories. They are beautiful and have a scent that brings memories of that time, remind you of the love you felt.

I agree with Reilly, keep them closed, but look back into them many years from now. I would not continue to write in either of them.

I did write in them while I was with them and they are entries of really happy things.

I guess the wounds are still kinda fresh but healing. I will probably never open them to read them again...but if there is one thing I have learned, it's "Never say never."

Thanks all who wrote or even just read this...

Even you tools who decided to make jokes. I just hope you never post anything too personal here.

[SatCam]

The "dark" one I also keep track of patients who have died while under our care. It's just a way for them to never be forgotten, because some of them never had family.

So keep up with the journals. It's always a good thing to write.

that is a really cool idea. what do you do if you dont mind me asking

[JerseyRich]

that is a really cool idea. what do you do if you dont mind me asking

He's a manager at Chuckie Cheese's.

Creepy, right?

[SatCam]

He's a manager at Chuckie Cheese's.

Creepy, right?

maybe a wal-mart. sorry, forum I know :banning:

[scottinnj]

that is a really cool idea. what do you do if you dont mind me asking

He's a manager at Chuckie Cheese's.

Creepy, right?

maybe a wal-mart. sorry, forum I know :banning:

Funny.

Actually I deliver meds for a pharmacy all over NJ. We do intravenous meds only, which means we do a lot of chemotherapy and hospice care.

Myself and my fellow drivers and the nurses are the ones who go into the home and meet these people and make sure they and their family are getting the care and support they need.

My company's website is here (http://www.tpnathome.com/)

What really blows is when you get to know a patient, and then they take a turn for the worse and die. And a lot of them have been a patient of ours since the company started. It really sucks, but it's awesome when you go to a house for the last time to pickup stuff because the patient is all better. That rules!

[JerseyRich]

Funny.

Actually I deliver meds for a pharmacy all over NJ. We do intravenous meds only, which means we do a lot of chemotherapy and hospice care.

Myself and my fellow drivers and the nurses are the ones who go into the home and meet these people and make sure they and their family are getting the care and support they need.

My company's website is here (http://www.tpnathome.com/)

What really blows is when you get to know a patient, and then they take a turn for the worse and die. And a lot of them have been a patient of ours since the company started. It really sucks, but it's awesome when you go to a house for the last time to pickup stuff because the patient is all better. That rules!

Ahem. This thread is about me.

:bye:

[scottinnj]

Ahem. This thread is about me.

:bye:

Oops. :innocent:

[Sinestro]

My ex gave me a journal and all these years I still have it (I don't know why) . It's empty though, I was never much of writing stuff down. Should I be afraid to open it?

[Stankfoot]

Just keep them away from Ron or he may read them on the air (remember "Dumpy's Diary?")

[Aggie]

Definitely keep them but don't read them unless you feel moved to. I finally threw out my journals from junior high and high school but I read them all first. I got weirded out reading some of the entries because I didn't recognize myself in some of them. It was weird but I'm glad I read them anyway.

I keep saying I'm going to keep a journal but never get past a week of writing. Oh well.