Melrapuo
12-12-2008, 03:14 PM
I've kind of been seeing this girl for about a month or so. Nothing serious or official. I had asked her out for a date a few weeks ago, but canceled it since she had a test the next morning. I haven't been able to completely figure out what her deal was, but I wasn't trying to push anything hard on her because she had recently come out of a relationship roughly 2 months ago, and did not want to become a rebound. I had left the whole date thing just as it was, and didn't plan to ask her out again (since I also took it as a form of 'no', being that she didn't tell me about the test and how stressed she was over it until after she reluctantly agreed to go on the date. I can take a hint). However, just last week she asked me when we were gonna reset a time for the date. Don't get me wrong, I was glad to hear about this. I was thinking "Hey, finally! Someone who likes me for me, and doesn't just wanna screw around!" I did become hypocritical about it yesterday at a party though...
Last night my friends were telling me that I should make a move and just see if I could actually have sex with her. Now I hate this position, because in all honesty my whole goal was to do the complete opposite. But I was drunk and stupid enough to actually try it.
So I did, and she wasn't necessarily having it. My friends (and this is her friends, too. And these are girls as well as guys) had told me that I should just stop acting nice and actually be pushy towards it and just take her somewhere. Again, wasn't happy with the idea, but I did still do it. After a minute or so, I turned into Mr. Nice Guy again and told her that I wasn't the kind of person that would just pressure her into doing anything. It got a little weird after that, because I was becoming upset a. at myself for trying to pull such a stunt that is unlike me, and b. being really confused because my (and her) friends made it seem like she wanted this, and the answer I got was the complete opposite.
Instead of just sitting there and becoming angrier, I went with my friend to cool down (ie go to Wendy's, cuz I was starving anyway) and she called me. I knew I would say something stupid and mean, so I didn't pick up the phone. After hanging out with him, talking, eating, and smoking with my friends in the parking lot for a half hour or so, I went back inside to the party and she asked where I had been. I told her that I had eaten, yadda yadda. The rest of the next we sat next to each other, she was laying down/half asleep. Didn't make any more mention of it the rest of the night, and I had calmed down so I wasn't upset with her.
I drove my friend home after the party, had hugged her and said goodbye. Sometime during the morning though she texted me saying that she wasn't mad at me, but didn't want me to just treat her like some piece of meat. Of course this made me feel like an ass, as this wasn't my intention in the first place (hell, I thought she had been getting frustrated with me for not making any moves) and I aplogized to her and told her that i liked her for who she was, and not just because of the way she looked. That, and I told her there was no excuse for how I acted.
I went to sleep after that. Around 1pm this afternoon, she texts me and tells me that I should just stop acting like a sissy (wtf?) and actually just do what I want and go for it instead of asking permission (!!!) Complete 180 degree turn around. I pointed that out to her too, and made if obvious that she was confusing me. So she went on and on about how theres no girl out there that likes to be asked permission (told her I disagreed with her on that) and that she's used to guys just doing what they want (ugh). So I told her whatever, left it at that.
She texts me two hours later to ask if I'm upset. I was, but I didn't wanna start anything. She was insistent though, and I gave in and told her I was upset, but said that we should just drop it because I'll get over it.
Here's where it gets even weirder, and made me feel like a complete ass. She texts me explaining why she can't have sex with me. It was something along the lines of "its because I might be pregnant and I didn't want to get you involved with it if I fucked you." Yea, you can reread that one again a couple times. It's not her ex's either, if she IS pregnant. No, it would be someone else's. Now, aside from the OBVIOUS reasons why I would be upset, here's what also bothers me about it:
A. the way she acted last night, confusing the SHIT outta me, and then dropping a bomb like THAT one me as well.
B. the fact that she's made it seem like she hadn't had sex in almost half a year, and then having me come to the realization that she probably fucked someone within the last...1.5 months I guess?
She said that she's just a little late, so she might just be 'buggin' out over it.' She also told me that she doesn't want anyone else to know. She also referred to it as a "whatever" type of thing.
C. The other possibility - she's lying out of her ass so I stop being upset with her, and instead feel bad. This isn't a "whatever" kinda situation. We may not be official or anything, but what the hell. Don't lie to me about not having sex for so long if you really are. It's her business in the first place, and it wasn't like I was asking for that information. She just decided to say it out loud.
I just pick winners don't I? I'm ticked off right now, not sure what to do at this point. If she is pregnant, obviously I'm done with her. But even if she isn't the bullshit excuses are a turn off, and it makes me feel like an ass for actually liking her. Did this year end yet? :furious:
Last night my friends were telling me that I should make a move and just see if I could actually have sex with her. Now I hate this position, because in all honesty my whole goal was to do the complete opposite. But I was drunk and stupid enough to actually try it.
So I did, and she wasn't necessarily having it. My friends (and this is her friends, too. And these are girls as well as guys) had told me that I should just stop acting nice and actually be pushy towards it and just take her somewhere. Again, wasn't happy with the idea, but I did still do it. After a minute or so, I turned into Mr. Nice Guy again and told her that I wasn't the kind of person that would just pressure her into doing anything. It got a little weird after that, because I was becoming upset a. at myself for trying to pull such a stunt that is unlike me, and b. being really confused because my (and her) friends made it seem like she wanted this, and the answer I got was the complete opposite.
Instead of just sitting there and becoming angrier, I went with my friend to cool down (ie go to Wendy's, cuz I was starving anyway) and she called me. I knew I would say something stupid and mean, so I didn't pick up the phone. After hanging out with him, talking, eating, and smoking with my friends in the parking lot for a half hour or so, I went back inside to the party and she asked where I had been. I told her that I had eaten, yadda yadda. The rest of the next we sat next to each other, she was laying down/half asleep. Didn't make any more mention of it the rest of the night, and I had calmed down so I wasn't upset with her.
I drove my friend home after the party, had hugged her and said goodbye. Sometime during the morning though she texted me saying that she wasn't mad at me, but didn't want me to just treat her like some piece of meat. Of course this made me feel like an ass, as this wasn't my intention in the first place (hell, I thought she had been getting frustrated with me for not making any moves) and I aplogized to her and told her that i liked her for who she was, and not just because of the way she looked. That, and I told her there was no excuse for how I acted.
I went to sleep after that. Around 1pm this afternoon, she texts me and tells me that I should just stop acting like a sissy (wtf?) and actually just do what I want and go for it instead of asking permission (!!!) Complete 180 degree turn around. I pointed that out to her too, and made if obvious that she was confusing me. So she went on and on about how theres no girl out there that likes to be asked permission (told her I disagreed with her on that) and that she's used to guys just doing what they want (ugh). So I told her whatever, left it at that.
She texts me two hours later to ask if I'm upset. I was, but I didn't wanna start anything. She was insistent though, and I gave in and told her I was upset, but said that we should just drop it because I'll get over it.
Here's where it gets even weirder, and made me feel like a complete ass. She texts me explaining why she can't have sex with me. It was something along the lines of "its because I might be pregnant and I didn't want to get you involved with it if I fucked you." Yea, you can reread that one again a couple times. It's not her ex's either, if she IS pregnant. No, it would be someone else's. Now, aside from the OBVIOUS reasons why I would be upset, here's what also bothers me about it:
A. the way she acted last night, confusing the SHIT outta me, and then dropping a bomb like THAT one me as well.
B. the fact that she's made it seem like she hadn't had sex in almost half a year, and then having me come to the realization that she probably fucked someone within the last...1.5 months I guess?
She said that she's just a little late, so she might just be 'buggin' out over it.' She also told me that she doesn't want anyone else to know. She also referred to it as a "whatever" type of thing.
C. The other possibility - she's lying out of her ass so I stop being upset with her, and instead feel bad. This isn't a "whatever" kinda situation. We may not be official or anything, but what the hell. Don't lie to me about not having sex for so long if you really are. It's her business in the first place, and it wasn't like I was asking for that information. She just decided to say it out loud.
I just pick winners don't I? I'm ticked off right now, not sure what to do at this point. If she is pregnant, obviously I'm done with her. But even if she isn't the bullshit excuses are a turn off, and it makes me feel like an ass for actually liking her. Did this year end yet? :furious: