grlNIN
06-24-2009, 03:06 PM
Today is my mother's birthday, so during my call to her she told me that my nephew's grandmother (the one that is not my mother) has just been back from a doctor's trip to Massachusetts and found out that her cancer-which she has been struggling with for about 4 years now-has spread to her brain.
She went to NY for emergency surgery and radiation treatments but they sent her home to basically "recover" peacefully, comfortably, in her own home. I know there's always hope but to be honest it's looking slim. My nephew just turned 4 years old in May and this is tearing me apart for not only him but also for his mother who is younger than me.
This is now happening not even 3 months after my 26 year old cousin lost her battle with cervical cancer, the day after we held a huge fundraiser for her in order to pay off her medical bills. This was more than just devastating on a family level, it really had me emotionally fucked up for awhile and has now really brought up just how volatile our mortality is.
This past Sunday a girl i grew up with my entire life died at 24 to cancer as well. That brought me right back into the head space i was in after my cousin died and now to top that off my mother broke this to me today.
I stopped and thought about it, and within 2 1/2 years 6 people in my life will have passed away, 2 of which were my age and ias fucked up as this might sound, it wasn't from something immediate that was caused by a sudden accident. It was from something that completely ravaged their bodies over a prolonged period of time. It's just too fucked up to even think about and it's making ill.
I needed to unload this somewhere and my boyfriend isn't home right now, so even if this post goes unanswered, i still needed to put it out somewhere.
She went to NY for emergency surgery and radiation treatments but they sent her home to basically "recover" peacefully, comfortably, in her own home. I know there's always hope but to be honest it's looking slim. My nephew just turned 4 years old in May and this is tearing me apart for not only him but also for his mother who is younger than me.
This is now happening not even 3 months after my 26 year old cousin lost her battle with cervical cancer, the day after we held a huge fundraiser for her in order to pay off her medical bills. This was more than just devastating on a family level, it really had me emotionally fucked up for awhile and has now really brought up just how volatile our mortality is.
This past Sunday a girl i grew up with my entire life died at 24 to cancer as well. That brought me right back into the head space i was in after my cousin died and now to top that off my mother broke this to me today.
I stopped and thought about it, and within 2 1/2 years 6 people in my life will have passed away, 2 of which were my age and ias fucked up as this might sound, it wasn't from something immediate that was caused by a sudden accident. It was from something that completely ravaged their bodies over a prolonged period of time. It's just too fucked up to even think about and it's making ill.
I needed to unload this somewhere and my boyfriend isn't home right now, so even if this post goes unanswered, i still needed to put it out somewhere.