Caseyelan
05-18-2010, 06:48 AM
I'm overjoyed today.
Happy first birthday!!!
I'll copy and paste the letter I wrote him on Facebook. I'm just so fucking proud of him.
Dear Stanley,
On your first birthday I want to reflect on all the hardships you have overcome in just one year. I want to tell you that the scar on your belly will never define you. You are in just a mere 365 days, the biggest fighter I have ever known.
When we first saw you get sick, we didn't think much of it. I actually recall saying to your daddy, "It's typical baby stuff". But, as the days rolled on and it became increasingly clear that it was not even in the realm of normal, I also felt sick. I felt everyday that if I admitted you weren't doing well to the world that suddenly you would be labeled a sick baby. I didn't want to hear those words.
That awful June day when I had to walk you up to get your surgery, you were limp in my arms and I just sobbed as I handed you over to the doctors. I remember walking down to the waiting room and getting lost. So I found a corner and slumped down against it, hands in my palms, crying till there were little pools of tears on the tile. I thought about anything I could have done wrong to make this your fate.
When I went to get you in the recovery room, you woke up pretty startled. But your eyes, were so blue..... and you were clutching my finger....... and it still breaks me up..... You were so beautiful. All the beeps of the machines and the wires coming out of your gown were suddenly invisible.
Now, after countless hospital trips and hundreds of new treatments, I just want to tell you that you are the one who has taught me how to overcome fear. I will forever be in your debt for this as I feel like my life has been nothing but better cause I can now take on anything. I can talk to anyone and I can FIGHT.
You are so handsome and so sweet. I feel like I have known you forever.
I can't wait to get you all better. I can't wait to not have to carry towels around. I can't wait to see you run outside with your sister. I want you to know that you can do anything, you can be anything.... the world is yours. People will be mean and people will doubt you.... But not me. I know you like no one else. I know that this is just the beginning, kiddo. It's all up from here.
Happy Birthday Stanny Mac. Thank you so much for making me believe......
-Mommy
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Happy first birthday!!!
I'll copy and paste the letter I wrote him on Facebook. I'm just so fucking proud of him.
Dear Stanley,
On your first birthday I want to reflect on all the hardships you have overcome in just one year. I want to tell you that the scar on your belly will never define you. You are in just a mere 365 days, the biggest fighter I have ever known.
When we first saw you get sick, we didn't think much of it. I actually recall saying to your daddy, "It's typical baby stuff". But, as the days rolled on and it became increasingly clear that it was not even in the realm of normal, I also felt sick. I felt everyday that if I admitted you weren't doing well to the world that suddenly you would be labeled a sick baby. I didn't want to hear those words.
That awful June day when I had to walk you up to get your surgery, you were limp in my arms and I just sobbed as I handed you over to the doctors. I remember walking down to the waiting room and getting lost. So I found a corner and slumped down against it, hands in my palms, crying till there were little pools of tears on the tile. I thought about anything I could have done wrong to make this your fate.
When I went to get you in the recovery room, you woke up pretty startled. But your eyes, were so blue..... and you were clutching my finger....... and it still breaks me up..... You were so beautiful. All the beeps of the machines and the wires coming out of your gown were suddenly invisible.
Now, after countless hospital trips and hundreds of new treatments, I just want to tell you that you are the one who has taught me how to overcome fear. I will forever be in your debt for this as I feel like my life has been nothing but better cause I can now take on anything. I can talk to anyone and I can FIGHT.
You are so handsome and so sweet. I feel like I have known you forever.
I can't wait to get you all better. I can't wait to not have to carry towels around. I can't wait to see you run outside with your sister. I want you to know that you can do anything, you can be anything.... the world is yours. People will be mean and people will doubt you.... But not me. I know you like no one else. I know that this is just the beginning, kiddo. It's all up from here.
Happy Birthday Stanny Mac. Thank you so much for making me believe......
-Mommy
http://sphotos.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-snc1/hs092.snc1/5115_121558801279_594886279_3394296_7423376_n.jpg