For the first time in my life, I took a pregnancy test with a negative result. Unexpectedly, I felt sadness, as there was a tiny hope inside me that thought this little miracle baby that overcome both an IUD and a minimal sex life was growing inside me as some type of survivor of the last year. Obviously, the implications of a negative result when taking a pregnancy test vary depending on who is taking the test but in the literal sense of these tests, a positive is pregnancy and the negative is...

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Three weeks ago, the prospect of Christmas for me was just not there. Not in a sad way, just an impossibility that I was fine with. Legitimately, I have not enjoyed Christmas for the longest time because of how commercial it's become. Not a unique statement, I know but personally just a downer to me because I remember Christmases growing up with the expectation for nothing and glee at receiving anything at all. Sadly, I suppose due to those Christmases I have unwittingly tried create glee by...

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I've heard a lot of things about myself for the last year, well my entire life actually. From the moment you're born, you are labeled and if you are lucky you are either labeled correctly or you know that the label does not define you. If you are unlucky, you spend years trying to fit into your label or finding what label to define yourself by. Either way, at some point you settle into whatever "self" you are and then proceed along within your own boundaries or those set by others....

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