losing my mind

[sexy bastard]

I am starting to lose my mind, all this stress and all this pain is making me go mad. Saturday I talked to my ex, and was expecting and I said something like a baby joke I was setting up and she told me there was no baby. I felt like such an ass I didn't know she lost the baby and I felt so stupid and I was so sorry for her, it hurt so bad. Then I saw grandma in the hospital she smiled but she looked so weak. I bought her roses but forgot she is allergic to flowers but I cant help but see her so helpless, shes is slipping away. Then I went to this sports bar to eat and drink and then poof my stalker starts calling me. He or she fucking called me 17 times while I was there even the waitresses got in on it and talked to him or her. LEAVE ME ALONE YOU FREAK I got more important things to deal with then this crap. But I am so tired and sad, and hurt and burned out I don't know what to do anymore and don't know who to talk to. I am not me anymore I am someone different.


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[Jennitalia]

sorry, sexy b. i'll try to cut the phone calls down to 10-12.



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[A.J.]

Sorry about your grandma Sexy. I went through the same thing last month with my grandfather so I know how you feel.

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[Earth2RON]

sorry to hear the news sexy!just take it easy on yourself.dont get yourself stressed out over things that you cant stop from happening:):):):)

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[Earth2RON]

not to see here just move along.......

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This message was edited by Earth2RON on 6-24-02 @ 2:00 PM

[Jackie Sloan]

Stay Strong man, that which does not kill you shall make you stronger. I know it doesn't seem like much now, trust me, it's true. Hang tough, you'll make it.

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[Hawiian shirt craig]

leo... man i've been there, seems like you can't do
anything right. one thing on top of another. i wish i
knew a trick or something to tell you, that always
works. but sometimes you need to just wait it out.
look back to other times when u got totally ass
raped by life, and it seemed no matter what you
did, you fucked it up. didn't it all seem sort of trivial
as time went on? eventually thats what this will be.
ur grandmothers probly more ready to pass than
you are to let her pass... and as far as other thing
man theres nothing i can say to make u think about
it differently. so if u need to chat i'm any board regs
would love to help u out, i wouldn't mind either. i've
been exactly where u are and sometimes dumping
ur shit on like 5 different people cna help. i
dyunno..... hope i was of som


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[ChrisTheCop]

SB, I'm with Craig on this one. Couldnt have said it better myself. Anything you need that I can do, just ask.

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[sexy bastard]

now today dad was in a car accident... and mom had a nasty spill this morning going down the stairs

this is so fucking nuts i dont understand anymore ireally dont

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This message was edited by sexy bastard on 6-25-02 @ 7:07 PM

[Hawiian shirt craig]

dude, just leave the country and go to niagra falls,
ontario canada..... u could meet a nice marrying
type girl....


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[HordeKing1]

SEXY - If you knew about your gf's miscarriage you wouldn't have made the joke. Since you didn't know you weren't being insensitive you were trying to be humerous.

Don't beat yourself up for something you didn't know. I have a feeling that you're being much harder on yourself than your friend is being on you. You appologized, you felt bad (empathy is almost always a good thing) and that shows you're a good person.


Regarding your grandmother, you brought her the roses to make her feel good not to give her an allergy attack. Your intentions were good, and she smiled at you. With an elderly sick relative that's a wonderful moment that you have to treasure.

Regarding your stalker. If someone is calling you 17 times a day, talk to the phone company or police station about what remedies are available to you. The cops might get involved becuase it seems like ongoing harrassment. The telephone company also acts to prevent harrassment of thier customers - although they just might give you an unlisted number. Check this out.

You are the same person you always were but you're under considerable stress now. You have to expect that you'll engage some form of defense mechanism to help you get through everything. That's probably what you're experiencing now.

JACKIE - Nietzche was a nut job (not just because he was Hitler's philosopher because of his belief in the Ubermench) and his oft quoted excerpts show that his philosophies don't even have prima facie validity. Anyone who ever had a stroke for example will tell you (if they can) that they are not stronger for having survived - they're a shell of their former and much stronger self.

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