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blakjeezis
12-15-2003, 11:48 AM
I d'loaded Metallica Metallica on Saturday and was listening to it, yesterday, on the way to my chick's house. Of course, Don't Tread on Me is on it and after hearing the version with the September 11th clips cut into it, I still hear them even if they're not there. In particular, the first line of the chorus, "So be it", touches me. I don't know what it is, perhaps it's because it conveys the powerlessness we all felt but also has an implied strength. "So be it" - The deed is done; I couldn't stop it. But you've made this new world and these new rules, and when I find you, you will pay. I feel that rage, and I cry.

After Halloween at Karava's, Gina and I stayed at the Millenium Hilton overlooking Ground Zero. Nov. 1 we were walking around the neighborhood waiting to head out of the city back to Jersey. It was a nice, warm, clear, Indian Summer type day and we stopped to look at the church whose yard backs onto Ground Zero, the place where so many mourners were comforted and ministered to. They have a timeline of the events of that horrible time out front. One particular section details the firemen, changing into their gear, taking off their shoes and placing them on the top of the metal fence surrounding the graveyard. Obviously those that didn't return from The Towers, didn't retrieve their footwear from the the fence. Those shoes were left as a reminder of how many souls were lost that day. I saw this, and I cried.

Often times I think of Father Mychal Judge, NYFD's Chaplain, his was the first death certificate issued on that terrible day, and I think of his eulogy. Whoever gave it said words to the effect that it was fitting he was issued the first death certificate, because he would want to be the first in heaven, waiting to greet all the others when they arrived. I hear those beautiful words again, and I cry.

I read about the passengers of Flight 93, in a Dave Barry book of all places, anonymous to everyone except their friends and families until that morning. They called those families to tell them what was happening, and learned of the attacks in NY and DC. Those calls changed from calls of "I'll be okay" and reassurance to calls of "We're going to take the plane back" and tearful goodbyes. I think of myself in their shoes. Would I be able to do the same? I think of these heroes and "Let's Roll", and I cry.

I love this country. For all its downfalls and drawbacks and squabbling and imperfections, I love it. I wasn't born here, I was brought here when I was 9. I'm a man now, if I wanted to leave, to go back to my "homeland" I could. But I won't; I've made America my home. When those planes crashed into those buildings, my homeland was attacked and my countrymen were killed. For my country, I cry.



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Furtherman
12-15-2003, 12:00 PM
I am scared for my country. I cannot help but think when the next terrorist attack will take place. The panic, the dread and feeling of hopelessness that may return.

I still think of my friends who died in the towers. Surrounded by fire and death, and what that must have been like. I still see them falling. That makes me cry.



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CruelCircus
12-15-2003, 12:02 PM
Nicely written, my friend.

You are not alone. Not everyone hates this country. Not everyone feels guilty about living here or being born here. A lot of us love this country and don't apologize for it.

I love this country and know that is full of heroes and extraordinary people.

Merry Christmas!


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reeshy
12-15-2003, 12:57 PM
Jeezis,
Thanks so very much for those beautiful words!! I've noticed that as time goes on, people tend to trivialize traumatic events such as this as a means to cope with the depression and anger that they originally felt. But sometimes we need to be reminded of the tragedy that has effected us all in such a hidious manner. Again, thank you for letting me read that!!

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Contra
12-15-2003, 04:51 PM
What a great piece of writing there!

Unfortunately it doesn't change the fact that we are all going to die, soon.

Enjoy the holidays! I'll be drunk and waiting.

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Tenbatsuzen
12-15-2003, 08:34 PM
Rog, that was an incredibly moving post.

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JohnnyCash
12-15-2003, 09:12 PM
Over the past two years so many words have been written and so many words have been said about that day. The feelings and memories of the people we knew personally and those we only know as an unfortunate number come and go. A simple song lyric, an old photo...reminders are everywhere. You are not alone-we all feel the way you do. And Im sure we will for as long as we live.



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Mike Teacher
12-16-2003, 02:48 AM
Amazing wonderful post.

I wish not to re-visit those events, but sometimes I do, to remember exactly what happened on that day, how we didn;t know anything at all at first.

There is only one record of this event I can possibly suggest. And I do suggest it for those who wish to explore this, for those who want nothing to do with it, I hear ya, and understand 100%.

Anyway, the documentary shot by the two french videographers who were filming a documentary about Engine Seven Ladder One, and specifically, a new 'probie'.

They were on a call inspecting a gas leak, when you hear the roar, and well, they recorded the very beginning. You see the Chief make the actual very first call go out on this. And next thing, there they are, in the building. The fact that this was being filmed seems so unlikely as to be absurd.

Paul Keating, my friend. FDNY. I've said enough already.

Often it is very difficult to look at the skyline.





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Mike Teacher
12-16-2003, 03:01 AM
Blackjeezis; I also note, on a more positive tilt, your post of December 15th at 3:48PM.

In 1977, on December 15th, at 4pm this 14 year old was starting the trek to Madison Square Garden to see their very first concert ever. My father, of all people, knew someone who worked at MSG and got us the most kick-ass seats for the sold out KISS stand.

The show was the perfect induction into rock concerts. My best NYC moment. Ever. MSG? I was spoiled forever.


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high fly
12-16-2003, 09:46 AM
Nice post, BlackJ.
You're doing what you're supposed to do.
It's good to recall the incredible feeling of unity we all felt back then and how we wished it would never go away.

Your mention of Father Judge struck a chord in me. We do a poor job of remembering our heroes in
this country. We must find the stories of those wonderful people, in the recent as well as distant past and make sure they are remembered, that their deeds are told and retold to the next generation, whom we must impress upon the importance of remembering...

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TheMojoPin
12-16-2003, 10:41 AM
Very touching thoughts and words, blakj. I appreciated every bit of it. Thanks for allowing us to share in them.

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