Hate About Yourself

[keithy_19]

I hate that I'm not taller. I hate that I'm unlucky with girls. I hate that I'm unhappy and I think about the future. I hate that I suck at math and science. I hate that MY body attacks MYSELF. I hate how I am too thin.

Now your turn. It's good to just vent it. If you want...

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[Melrapuo]

I hate that I stay inside a lot. I hate that there is this one girl who I like that I haven't really talked to for 3 years and everytime I get the chance I make myself ignore her. I hate that I need others to compare myself to in order to make sure that what I'm doing is right.

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[Mike Teacher]

You have Food Shelter and Clothing.

Access to a computer.

With or without bringing any other factors whatsoever; you are better off then 99% of the people alive today.

And Hate? Takes up way too much energy. Why hold that in front of you?

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[TheKnicks23]

I hate that this has become your personal bitching message board. I'm not one to attack someone but godamn every time I check the front page theres a new topic with you bitching in it. You're not the only kid with problems.

Suck it up.

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[fluffernutter]

I hate that I am fat.
I hate that I am nothing.
I hate that i am a no talent.
I hate that girls find me repulsive.
I hate that I am ugly.
I hate how my reflection runs away every morning.
Well, its not really that bad.

I could shed a few pounds and work harder to become a better artist. I was told I was cute and hot last week. It felt good. I get told all the time that I am a good artist and people like my work. I compliment hard but I just need to realise that people are genuine when they tell me these things. There is that inner smile inside that makes things feel good.

Focus ont he good things about yourself cheif. We all have faults but there may be good things that others don't have that we can call truly our own.

Or something like that.

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got so much trouble
hate this job
tried to get out
trapped like a dog
no I don't like

pumpin' gas
do ya hate to wait
life's a game
play your rules
is the bottle half empty
or the bottle half full
it does no good
no good to shout
but I scream I hate
say i'm hostile
gotta relax
better get a grip
here's the facts
I hate bein' here.

I hate people that make ya feel small
I hate having my back against the wall
I hate bein' talked down to
I hate your rules
I hate'em all
hate bein' marked to take the fall
planet's not big enough for me and you

got trouble over me
surrounded by jerks
can't ya see
smile to my face
know ya lie
knife in my back another game
rules, rules, rules
not for me,
you fuckin' fool.

so open your mouth
one more time
and my foot is goin' down
in one ear
out the other
a waste of time
don't even bother
I hate bein' here

think I know
how ya got this far
think I know
got where we are
think i'll hate you
where you'll be dead
I know it, I hate you
smile to my face
know to die
says the problems
ask your self way
hate the games
hate the rules
you're gonna loose
say i'm hostile
gotta relax
better get a grip
here's the fact
not much more of you


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[sr71blackbird]

Kieth, what I try and do is look at things that are "my enemy" and acknowledge them and work to defeat them. Like a general in the army, he has to see what he is up against and work on using his resources to overcome his enemy. The same with your life. You have to subsitute your hatred for yourself and look at each thing as a new objective; but dont hate yourself, its not your fault you have MS or that your short or cant gain weight. Those are all things beyond your control, so there is no use hating it about yourself because youll never be able to change it. Instead, look at some of them as good things. Because your thin and small, its easier to move around with MS. If you were a fat, 6 foot tall kid, who know where youd be now or even able to move around? What you need to realise is that your "enemy" is really your negative impression you have about yourself. And that the only thing that holds you back is how you chose to limit yourself.

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[Gaia]

I hate that I am nothing.
I hate that i am a no talent.



How in the world could you feel that way?? I am so jelous of your immense artistic talent, and I wish that I had half of what you have.....I have never seen you, but that doesnt matter. You should wake up every morning and say "hey...I may not be the happiest person in the world (nobody is ever TOTALLY happy). But I have a shitload of talent that many others wish they had." That may sound cocky, but you should feel that way. :)

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[keithy_19]

I'm not making this my bitching board. I'm using it to vent, and I for one see nothing wrong with it.

I'm thinking about the things I hate about myself so I can change it to make myself happier with who I am.

And Mike, your right. I'm doing a lot better then a lot of people. I know that. But there is still a lot I am unhappy with.

I'm trying to focus on the good, but I some how manage to pull the bad out of the good. I need to change that too.

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[mikeyboy]

I'm not making this my bitching board. I'm using it to vent, and I for one see nothing wrong with it.


There isn't, within reason, of course, but this isn't anybody's "venting" board, and overrusing it as such is inappropriate. I will again note that you should really look into a blog.

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[Jennitalia]

I'm thinking about the things I hate about myself so I can change it to make myself happier with who I am.
change that too.



you can think and write about the things you hate about yourself all you want. no about of bitching about it is going to help you. you actually have to put some effort in and work at changing things you hate about yourself.

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[fluffernutter]

How in the world could you feel that way??


I didn't want to take away from Keithy here and I was kind of kidding but the fact that I do feel that way sometimes is bothersome. I see how I have been out of school for two years and nothing has happened job wise yet. I got the resume out there and I guess I just don't fit what anyone is looking for. Hopefully one day I will get some kind of job in the field and you and you and you and your kids and their kids and his kids will be running to the department store to buy my characters toys and apparel and hugging my characters at fluffyland (These are some of serious goals. I would love to be that popular and famous with my cartoons.) and most importantly I can be a positive influence on kids and give them something to put a smile on their faces. As I said, those are lofty goals and God knows if I will ever attain them. Just now, I feel like my schooling and talent is so wasted and I am just not that good enough. So yeah, thats why I hate myself at times. I know better but it is a bitch at times as well.

Keithy, hope you are dealing with yourself beter and you should look into a blog. Hell, I would read it.

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[Mike Teacher]

I'm not making this my bitching board.


All evidence to the contrary.


I'm trying to focus on the good, but I some how manage to pull the bad out of the good. I need to change that too.


Trying is bullshit. It sounds so Yoda, but it's true. You have the choice. You can change yourself.

And to be really blunt; the hate you carry; if you really carry it? That will disable you more then any physical malady could.

We all have our maladies. Some are physical, some are psychological, some are utterly unknown to the person who carries them.

Some choose to scream of their maladies from the rooftops; demanding wrongs be righted, that their lot in life is not fair. But it is fair. Cruel, but fair.

Some choose to speak in silence.

Some choose to use their maladies as a reminded of what we are; to keep us in the present moment. One can hold the malady in front of them, acknowledge it, and use it as a 'pointed stick' to move forward.

MS is horrific. I hate that it exists. I mean it actually pisses me off; we spend more on military science. And if it were in my power, youd be cured in a second. However, that's only one malady. We all have our shit to deal with; the question is, can we acknowledge our faults, while using them to better ourselves. At that point; our 'faults' become a learning tool. And then, many things are possible.

Someday I'm gonna hear about Keith Bo Beefy The Doctor, Lawyer, President of something, Zillionaire, guy who summitted K2, whatever: all of these and so many others, all possible. We are humans; we have these wonderful brains, the enchanted loom of the cerebral cortex; the point of dismbarkation of higher thought, the power to change ourselves. Think of the possibilities.

In other words: Dude. It's staring you in the face.

Anyone ever hear of the Missing-Tile Syndrome?

Wonderful; but I write too much here.





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This message was edited by Mike Teacher on 4-4-04 @ 8:30 PM

[keithy_19]

Mike. You are 100% right. I need to stop focusing on the bad and start focusing on the good. Like:

I can walk.

I have a family who loves me.

I have a house and a bed to sleep in.

I'm not poor.

I have the ability to do good in school.

I have always been an optomist. Even when I was first diagnosed I told myself I'm not going to elt this stop me from being me and I'm not going to let this ruin any of my dreams. As I got odler I guess the fact I had to do a shot every night and I was just kind of sick of it, I started feeling horrible.

I'm feeling better though. So thank you to everyone who gave me support and opened up for me. That means a lot. :)

And to all of you who don't give a fuck, well fuck you! :p

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[Mike Teacher]

I can walk.


Saw my friend Dave two weeks ago; his wife and I worked in radio for a long time; and I hadnt seen him in over two years since his Diabetes had hit; I knew what had happened but...

Anyway there he is, and I call out "Dave-O!" and he turns around and we're all hugs and shit. And he's in a fucking whellchair noy coz his left leg is gone; he's lost two fingers, and everyone is wondering why he hasnt gone blind yet.

And we talk for a bit, and he knows me, so I just get into it; hows the prosthetic, and phantom limb sensations; hows the diet, and he's so matter of fact and positive and kept saying 'you should see the other guys' and shit like that and I walked away thinking: This guys got to climb Mt. Fucking Everest every day; wondering if he's gonna wake up with the vision decay worse, etc.

And I walk out of there, go over to his wife; one of the best female DJs I ever heard grace Alternative rock, put my arm around her and blurted out, 'Did you know you're married to one of the greatest guys I've ever met?' and tried not to burst into tears. She saw I tried real hard.

[Edit: It hits hard because me; once 360 now 245; Its a fucking miracle I dont have Adult Onset Diabetes. My booze binging was intense but short, couple of years, but I love that sugar baby and give me that coke classic and some yodels baby; fucking insane.

Sugar is essentially a metabolic poison. It looks like the CDC and WHO Science assholes who have to have commitees for five years before they annouce something are closing in to what everyone who took some Advanced Bio and study a bit of A+P knows; Fructose sugar, the non-identical twins of Glucose and Galactose, is a motherfucker when it comes to putting on the fat.

Ron once mentioned about juicers; it was Hysterical; he was like "I dont Know if we Humans are supposed to Have 8 Carrots and 12 Oranges or whatever at once. Fucking A right. When you eat a boatload of pure sugar [coke for one of dozens] your body reacts to it like he poison it is in excess, pumping out the insulin to keep the levels within boundries, and the boundries are a lot fucking smaller then youd think; between diabetic and insulin shock; both kill very easily. And the refined sugars, this High Fructose Corn Syrup; is essentially poison in mass quantities, slowly destroying your body. More cheer for Me! Go Figure]

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This message was edited by Mike Teacher on 4-4-04 @ 10:52 PM

[JPMNICK]

My dad has been diabetic since he was 9. about 6 weeks ago he suffered a stroke caused by the diesiese. He has lost most of the use of the left side of his body. Tommorow is his 51st b-day. 20 years ago 2 doctors told him he would never live past 40. Well obviously he made it. He is the most positive person I know. His whole life he fought this thing. Sometimes it would take him 2 or 3 hours just to get ready for work in the morning. Never once complained. Never once asked anyone to feel sorry for him. He is a MAN, someone who I am so proud to call dad. And someone who has shown me there is nothing you can not overcome. I push myself everyday to make myself better because that is what he showed me.

I am not sure if this is in response to Keith or Mizzle. Maybe it is something I just needed to share. But as I sit here and do 5 hours of homework a night to finish up 2 engineering degrees and work 4 jobs (2 are tutoring highschool math so they are not to bad) I can not think how EASY i have it compared to my dad. Who knows if he will live to see 52, and really who cares. If he died tommorow I would be sad, but so proud at the same time at the life he lead and provided for my family. Sometimes a little perspective goes a long way.

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[Mike Teacher]

He is a MAN


I'd say a Hero, too.

The real Hereos we never see on TV or Magazines; and that's exactly what makes them True Heroes.

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[ChickenHawk]

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[newport king]

i hate each and every one of the people i surround myself with. other than that, i'm fucking mint baby.

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[Arienette]

i hate that i care so much what other people think about me, and its corollary, that i'm so insecure.

oh well.

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[ChickenHawk]

I hate that I'm gay... Wait, what??? Did I say that?!

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[Arienette]

I hate that I'm gay... Wait, what??? Did I say that?!

if MTV offered me a fat sack of cash to go on TV and suck Justin Timberlake's dick until he jizzed in my eye, I'd probably be the first to do it. i think it's a little late to be acting so coy.

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Your so stupid. that i do not know why i not dating you.

[ChickenHawk]

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[DreamWeaver]

I hate that I am fat.
I hate that I am nothing.
I hate that i am a no talent.
I hate that girls find me repulsive.
I hate that I am ugly.
I hate how my reflection runs away every morning.


I know that you're not that dramatic but I see you posting little things occasionally like how you hate yourself and whatnot and these too may be jokes but you are INSANE. You are such a good artist and I know that when I have children I will be taking them to Fluffyland. And we will collect all the fluffy doll characters. I know that everyone on this board feels the same.

You'll make it someday. You have a true talent. Just keep at it and don't ever give up no matter how long it takes. You'll get there.

And you are cute.

p.s. Everything you listed above is exactly how I felt about myself a year ago. I still feel that way but Paxil makes me hate myself a little less each day. Just to let you know.

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[Furtherman]

blah blah blah ugly blah blah blah girls blah blah blah loser blah blah blah hate myself...

Ya'll should have been born in a third world country. Keep your chins up and love life a little, will ya?



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[Jennitalia]

Fluffer, you ARE a cutie. I'd throw ya one!
:p

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[DreamWeaver]

Ya'll should have been born in a third world country Oh screw that. I was born here and I have my own problems. I believe most of us here have all our limbs and aren't deaf or blind but we all have our own shit to deal with. I feel for the people with these problems but just because I'm healthy doesn't mean I can't hate my life.

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[Furtherman]

Sure, eveyone has the right to say they hate their life.

But who wants to hear it?

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[Iamnotatool]

I hate that the Mets will spend another summer losing. Constantly.

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[Iamnotatool]

El duble posto....damn Mets. Damn BoBeefy!!!

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[JustJon]

I hate the fact that I took the time to read the post.
I hate that there are people out there who will take the Boston Red Sox seriously this year, only to have their hearts broken. again.

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[Iamnotatool]

I hate the fact that even though they lost 6 out of 7 to the Sox, no Yankee fan will admit that it bothered them or that it means anything. You'll say "it's early" or "1918" or something else that makes no sense, when you know damn well if you won 6 out of 7 you'd be jumping on the Red Sox shit.

I'm not saying its the end of the world, but at least admit it hurt. If not, why are you a fan?

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