Dad's gone...

[Iamnotatool]

At 11:30 August 20th, 2004, my father has passed away. I'm a bit in shock, a bit numb, and tired of crying. He was the greatest man I've ever known, and he will be missed dearly.

He died at home, and now lies peacefully in my living room to be taken by the funeral home...


He made it through my birthday and went peacefully, for that I will be ever grateful. My heart is broken, but my hopes are that he is in a better place, saving room for the rest of us...



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[canofsoup15]

I am very sorry for your loss, and I know that it may not matter saying this, but I do hope that you and your family may progress through this situation at peace, that the grieving period will not linger, and with the knowledge that he is in a better place now.

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[JohnnyCash]

Im extremely sorry for your loss. All my best to you and your family.

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[monsterone]

tool, i'm very sorry for you and your family. i keep you all in my prayers.


i'm staring at a photo of my mother right now, who i lost a year ago, and i'lll let you know it's a long journey.

the best i can tell you is your father is looking down from a better place and all you have to do is make him proud.









pm me brother if you need anything. much love. again, i'm sorry about your loss and do all to help yourself and family.

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[Iamnotatool]

They took him. I don't know what to do. I won't sleep tonite. Can't eat. Feel like death myself...


Why him?

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[monsterone]

he is in a better place doing better thing since he is a good man. take hope in that. he will watch over you and give direction.

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[mikeyboy]

I've seen you post about your father's condition, and I always hoped there was a chance. I'm really sorry for your loss.

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[Iamnotatool]

Thanks guys. The funny (Or not so funny) thing. People say he's in a better place. I've said that to people who have lost people.

Answer me this.


What place is better than here with me and his family?

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[Justice4all]

First off Tool you have my, as well as my girlfriend Rosanna and my roomate Sylvia's condolences (both whom you have met at the last softball game). If there is anything we can do, please let us know. I know there is nothing I can say or do to take away your pain. I lost my grandmother who I was VERY close to just 2 days after my birthday so I know exactly how you feel. And I understand your confusion as far as him being in a better place. But even though you and your family brought him love and comfort and joy, especially in his last days, there is no better place then heaven where I am sure he is right at this moment, looking down upon you with great pride. Where he is there is no pain, no suffering and no illnesses. He will never age and never die again. And he can be there with you at all times. He is always with you and will live forever as long as you remember him and his spirit.

Please let me know the funeral arraingements. If you would like I could attend with Rosanna out of respect for yourself and honor for your father.

Again, we will keep you and your family in our prayers.

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[whoopsy]

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[bigbaldirish]

i can't really feel what your feeling, i haven't lost a parent, but my girl has while i was with her, and as someone who has been leaned on alot.

lean on someone, it will help you a bit. i've noticed a drastic change from january till now... she's still not 100% but you need someone to bitch about god too, talk about good times with, and crack jokes with to cheer you up.

God bless you and your family. and may your family have good days.

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[fluffernutter]

I am sorry for your loss. God Bless you and your family my friend. I will keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers.



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[Iamnotatool]

Still can't sleep.


Justice, much respect, that was some deep shit you just typed. I'm in Westchester, probably a hike for y'all, but your thoughts are appreciated.

Whoopsy, you hit a good point. This whole god thing I'm having issues with, though I guess I always have.


Everything happens for a reason. Used to be my motto.

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[PanterA]

My deepest condolences to you and your family. I dont know what I would do when I'm put into your situation. My father is my best friend and my biggest hero. It chokes me up just thinking of what I would do when that time comes. All I can offer is that you remember all the advise he's given you and become a man he always wanted you to be.

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[JPMNICK]

Tool -

I am so sorry to hear about this. I too have read about your dad's condition from posts on this board. I feel horrible that this happened and truthfully don't even know what to say. A few month ago my dad had a series of strokes that left him partially paralysed and the docs told us there is a good chance he will not make it much longer. No matter what anyone said to me, it did not make it any easier. At least he is not suffering anymore and is peaceful.
Best thing to do is try and get some rest, eat some food and take some vitamins to make sure you are ok for the funeral and wake and then not sick as hell afterward from being to run down. Losing a parent is never easy, and I fear the day I have to do it. BUt you seem like a really good person, so I know you will be fine. If there is anything I can do, please PM me. I live about an hour from you, and would make the drive if needed.

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[scorpion]

Tool I am sorry for your loss. My condolences to you and your family.

My thoughts and prayers are with you and family..



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Sorry Bro.

[DJEvelEd]

Sorry man. That really sux. At least you got to know him and have a great relationship together. Some of us will never ever get to know our parents. My dad died a few years ago and I never knew him at all, (and wished I did) so consider the time that you spent with him a great blessing.

My best to your family.


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[Iamnotatool]

He was 58, and had gone into the doctor for an earache. The ear doc saw something he didn't like and sent him to a specialist. He was misdiagnosed by a shitty doctor who refused to give us names for a second opinion. After researching, we brought him to Yale Med Ctr. which was the best we could find.

Their doctors and my fathers will to live kept him alive for 3 years with a disease that kills most in 5 months. We were on borrowed time.

AS much as this hurts, he's breathing easier now.

Love you pop

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[jafter]

Tool I am truly sorry for your loss and my thoughts are with you and your family. I lost my dad 3 years ago and it was tough, but you will work through the sorrow and the pain. As mentioned before his memories will always be with you and he will always be with you to guide you through this roller coaster of life.

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[Lumber]

All I can offer is that you remember all the advise he's given you and become a man he always wanted you to be.

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[TheMojoPin]

That's some awful news, Tool, and you and your family are in my hearts and prayers today.

Sounds like you and your dad were very close, so take comfort in the fact that he IS still living through you. Just take everything one step at a time, and always keep him in your heart.

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[mdr55]

Sorry for your loss.

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Stay strong for him.

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[Katylina]

I am so sorry for your loss. You and your family are iin my prayers. If you need anything at all, I will be here for you.

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[FUNKMAN]

Sorry for your loss! All I usually say is 'stay strong' and 'think of' and be 'thankful' for the life you shared together. If his spirit may be watching i would think he would feel comfort to know you are doing okay, continuing to live a good life, and cherishing the time you shared...

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Deepest condolences on your loss. My thoughts & prayers are with you.

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[jeffdwright2001]

What place is better than here with me and his family?

A place with no more pain (emotional and physical).

My sympathies to you and your family. The place isn't necessarily better for you as you have to continue on with life and the missing of your father.

But as someone who has lost a few loved ones over the years to lingering illness, I would have gladly taken on twice the sorrow at losing them if I could save them one extra day of pain.

I'm not a grief counselor nor am I an expert on religion. I spent 2 and half years as a Christian Ministries major and still have more questions than answers.

But what I am is a good listener and someone who is willing to explore with you any questions or thoughts you might have.

PM me if there's anything I can do, or if you just want to chat.

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[Duke]

thats sad and i am sorry u lost him...



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[Tall_James]

Please accept my sincere condolences. It is a wonderful thing that you cared for him so much and I'm sure that he knew that. Know that I will keep you and yours in my prayers.

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Tool... Even though I don't believe in Heavan, he is finished suffering and you and your family are in my thoughts. From your posts in this thread, it seems like you are dealing with this the best way you could. Good for you.

I'm very sorry for your loss.

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my condolences for your loss, tool

that sounds weird doesnt it? wish i knew your name...

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I am very sorry for your loss...

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Wow, Im really sorry man, I hope you and your family get through the forseeable future ok. I cant imagine losing a parent. Im glad it was a peaceful passing for him, because I have known many people who suffer a real long time. I'll remember you in my prayers tonite. Keep the faith.

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[Iamnotatool]

Alkey, good to see you posting...your humor is missed round here.


To all again, thanks, I wasn't expecting you clowns could actually be so kind. It is greatly appreciated.

Stiill kinda numb. Have only slept an hour and a half since yesterday morning.

We'll be fine. He'll be with us.

If I turn out to be half the man he was, I'd feel honoured.

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I'm very sad to hear what happened, you and your family are in my prayers man

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[Iamnotatool]

Picked out the cemetary plot this morning. Wake is at 2. This fucking sucks.



By the way, Jeff, my name is Scott, but Tool works.

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[Iamnotatool]

For those that have asked, the arrangements for the wake are...


2-4 and 7-9 today at McMahon Lyon and Hartnett in White Plains on Mamaroneck Avenue.

I don't expect any in attendance, but you are all more than welcome. The support I've gotten from this board is something I could never forget, and your thoughts and words alone are enough for me.

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[Hottub]

Tool, just found out. Really sorry for your loss. Stay strong and never forget what a great guy your Dad was.

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[silera]

Scott, I've never met you, but I sincerely feel for you. Both my grandparents died two years ago in July within 3 weeks of each other. They were the center of my family, and the greatest example of love and tradition that I could ever hope to emulate. However, I never feel like I lost them because they live so vividly in my memories and those of my children and the rest of my family, that I feel their presence and embrace and touch every day.

With time, the pain of physical loss will fade, and be superceded by your wonderful memories of what I'm sure was a great man and a great father.




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Toolie, I'm really sorry about your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

And I don't mean to derail this or make light of the situation when I say, if there's anything i can do like give you anal, just let me know. this is just an attempt of me trying to put a little smile on your face, even if it's just for a second.

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[Iamnotatool]

Jenni it worked.

Now what are you gonna do with the lump in my pants???


Wake's done, we bury him tomorrow.

There was so many people at the wake, between family, pops friends, mine, my bro's, and my mothers friends, and 5-6 teams worth of softball guys, I had no time to think too much which was probably good.

We had 513 people in 4 hours. Pops was loved.



Once again this board is a Godsend, and I'm not even religious...lol..

They like me, they really like me.



PS Silera, when are you me and your boytoy gonna break bread? You seem like good people.

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[TheMojoPin]

We had 513 people in 4 hours.

Truly the mark of a great man.

You're lucky to have known and loved him, my friend. Always remember that.

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I'm sorry to hear about your loss and I know your father is in a better place. My condolences to you and your family.

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Tool, I'm really sorry to hear about you dad. I've been in and out of the board of late so I missed this thread. Just wanted to send you my deepest condolences and hope you and your family are okay under the circumstances. My thoughts are with you and your family.



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