Im scared

[CrazyClare]

Its fall and i always get depresed around this time of year. i have that seasonal thing with light and crap. Ive started drinking again which makes me even more depressed. Its this vicious cycle because when i feel crappy i drink. And while Im drunk i feel better but then afterwards i feel more shitty. I know I should go to AA but Im too tired and i dont have the emmotional energy to do it. Im scared because every winter/fall i get hospitalized. I dont want to do that again. Then i feel like ive been defeated yet again::sigh:: I know my life and my problems make good radio but its real to me and its what I have to live through. Just trying to not listen to your brain. oh well i guess im not asking for advice i think i just wanted to vent.

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[EffMeBoobs]

I hope it all works out Claire. Look on the bright side, you can wear those boots with a hot and sexy costume for halloween. ;) Keep your head up babe and things will get better. Want to know what helps me? I use tanning oil after I take a shower because it smells like summer to me and makes me feel good, besides the fact it makes your legs so smooooth. Good luck sweets. ;)

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[HordeKing1]

CLARE - Now more than ever is the time to rely on your friends support.

It's difficult not to sink into despair and/or depression. Try to get out as much as possible. Tell your friends you want to do things together.

Company and activity is often depressions worst foe.

You're a remarkable person in more ways than you can fathom and you're only now starting to realize your many strenghs.

You're also becoming more self-aware and it can be safely said that self-awareness is at the basis psychology.

Perhaps you can ask your friends to monitor your alcohol intake and make sure you either don't drink, or at least not drink to excess. For many people, it's easier to not drink at all than to stop at one or two.

And yes, you are wonderful on the radio. But you are not obligated to go on, especially if you feel that it in any way worsens your feelings of depression or otherwise negatively affects you in any way.

We stand with you, Clare.

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[Gvac]

It really is funny how unique and individual each and every one of us is. I love the autumn; it's my favorite time of the year. The changing leaves, the crisp, cool air - they all put an extra bounce in my step and make me feel alive.

Put a couple of dark, dreary rainy days together, though, and I am miserable. It makes me so depressed that I don't want to get out of bed in the morning. And I know people who love the rain. Go figure.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that whatever the reasons for your state of mind, don't ever forget better days are coming, Clare. You make so many people happy by just being you that you should never worry about anything else. I know it's easier said than done, but I just wanted to make sure you knew that. Love ya.

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Thanks again, WWFallon. You are an American hero.

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[IkeaBoy]

we're with you Clare. You're a charismatic, personable, very attractive, fun, lively young girl whose issues shouldn't hinder you and it doesn't seem to have (I don't know if that sounds nice but it's supposed to). The winter is always a bad time for everyone but remember you do have places you can go to including the board anytime at night. Dont' be afraid.

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stop I am not in the mood stop
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[Ralphy Ramone]

Claire-i think i suffered from some type of undiagnosed depression at one time.the thing that i believe finally brought me out of it was figuring out what was most important to me and getting it.kind of a self esteem thing.when i achieved what i wanted most,everything else fell into place(eventually).at least my former self wasn't around any more to pull me back in."because everytime i try to get out"....Good luck and don't give up!

[HordeKing1]

RALPHY - Welcome to the board. There are all kinds of depression. A minor bout of depression is much different from a major depressive disorder. In some instances, come what may a depressive cannot just "snap out of it" without outside intervention including medication.

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[CrazyClare]

thanks alot guys :) i went and spent time with my friends and i feel much better. thanks for the support it means alot to me

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[Ralphy Ramone]

HordeKing-thanks for the nice welcome,good to be here.question:didn't i hear you mention one time on the show that you were a shrink?sorry i can't spell psychiatrist.

[reeshy]

Clare,
Since you had the guts to be honest-let me be honest with you. I suffer from PTSD. Along with that comes clinical depression. Being a vet, I can get help more easily than most people.

About ten years ago, my condition got to the point where I had to be hospitalized for a short time. I received the therapy I needed along with some Psychotropic meds.

Since then, over the years, I have learned to cope with my condition, I no longer take any meds but do occasionally go back for some psychotherapy through the VA and my job.

I do quite well now. What I'm trying to say is that it is fine seeking out your friends for support but in the long run, you're gooing to have to seek professional help. Ask HordeKing. He'll concur with my opinionDon't be afraid. It will be the best choice that you can ever make,

Good luck to you and be good to yourself.

Reeshy.





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[HordeKing1]

RALPHY - The terms are somewhat confusing so here's a quick breakdown:

A psychiatrist (commonly known as a shrink) is an MD specializing in mental health. They can perscribe psychoactive (and other) medication.

In NY only a person with a PhD in psychology can call themselves a psychologist. A psychologist cannot prescribe meds, but when the occasion calls for it, refers people to shrinks for medication, and continues to provide therapy themselves.

I do not have nor plan on obtaining an MD, so I'm not a shrink. I do not yet have my Phd. so I'm not yet a psychologist.

My undergraduate degrees are in psychology and political science and my graduate degree is in law (I practiced for about 12 years before returning to graduate school.

The people I see and speak to now recieve "psychotherapy," or "counseling."

When I finish grad school I'm going to practice psychotherapy. The big difference is that all the clinical and other work I do now is done either as part of my grad program or on a volunteer basis.

The subfields of particular interest to me are teen counseling and psychopathology.

When I get my degree and hang out my shingle, I plan to specialize in these areas. Of course, I have many other interests as well, but those are my current plans.

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[Gvac]

Reeshy, you are one cool dude. That took a lot of guts to admit, and I applaud you for it. Same goes for you, Ralphy Ramone, and of course you, too, Clare.

It's true that there are varying degrees of depression; the important thing is to make sure you treat it fully. Don't ever let yourself feel there is any shame in getting outside help because you are not able to do it alone.



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Thanks again, WWFallon. You are an American hero.

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[Dirtybird11]

clare, tho i will be yelled at for this, i suggest suicide. nothing messy. pills and booze =) nite nite

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[IkeaBoy]

I think I'd suggest that to anyone but Clare because any girl as hot, kinky, and has as many weird fetishes as she does really deserves to live to spread that around.


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[reeshy]

Two of our more compassionate posters are finally heard from!!

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[HordeKing1]

Clare, you're beautiful on the inside where it counts the most.

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[IkeaBoy]

Clare, you're beautiful on the inside where it counts the most.And she's also beautiful on the outside which is just as good.

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