I've been thinking morbid thoughts

[Aggie]

I'm sure other people do this, but I think it's odd that it has been over the top lately.

For example, I'll be driving down the freeway listening to my sports station or music as usual when I have this vision of a car spinning out of control, hitting me and making my truck flip over and I end up with a pole sticking through me or something.

Or I'll be on a plane and I will envision the engine catching fire or a hole ripping into the side of the plane and us all going down in a ball of fire. Nice, right?

I guess as you get older you are more aware of your mortality but I don't like it. I'm not afraid to die, maybe it's more about HOW I will die. I just really don't want it to be in an awful way, but that's exactly the kind of thoughts that will just pop into my mind for no reason. Or maybe I just watch to many doctor shows and action movies.

[Dougie Brootal]

happens to me all the time. creepier than talking to hottub i tells ya!

[drjoek]

happens to me all the time. creepier than talking to hottub i tells ya!

Ewwwww

[King Hippos Bandaid]

I always have morbid thoughts n the exit ramp on the Major Deegan to the GWB, every one is cutting each other off, I see myself falling into the Hudson River to my death daily

[A.J.]

I think morbid thoughts every time I travel to the Middle East.

[Aggie]

I think morbid thoughts every time I travel to the Middle East.

Do you see yourself getting be-headed? How scary! :blink:

[A.J.]

Do you see yourself getting be-headed? How scary! :blink:

That, getting shot at in my car, getting blown up in a mall. I try to walk the line between paranoia and security consciousness.

[Dougie Brootal]

I think morbid thoughts every time I travel to the Middle East.

that is horrifying. i dont envy your job.

[topless_mike]

aggie,
i find myself doing the same thing.
only, i vision what my viewing and funeral would be like. who would be there? would anyone by crying? what would be said?

[Thebazile78]

aggie,
i find myself doing the same thing.
only, i vision what my viewing and funeral would be like. who would be there? would anyone by crying? what would be said?

Isn't that a John Cusack movie?

In one of his movies, he's got a friend who writes obituaries and the friend gifts the Cusack character with the obituary he might write for him if Cusack wasn't such a mope. He basically takes that as a cue to stop moping around and live like he deserved that kind of obituary.

Some people use that line of thinking as a way to live their life in order to have that kind of "happy" ending.

[Dougie Brootal]

aggie,
i find myself doing the same thing.
only, i vision what my viewing and funeral would be like. who would be there? would anyone by crying? what would be said?

...that your wife wont put out.

[topless_mike]

Isn't that a John Cusack movie?

In one of his movies, he's got a friend who writes obituaries and the friend gifts the Cusack character with the obituary he might write for him if Cusack wasn't such a mope. He basically takes that as a cue to stop moping around and live like he deserved that kind of obituary.

Some people use that line of thinking as a way to live their life in order to have that kind of "happy" ending.

really? never heard of it, but i'll have to look for it.

[topless_mike]

...that your wife wont put out.

:furious:
you said i was sexy.
or was it just my hat?

[Dougie Brootal]

:furious:
you said i was sexy.
or was it just my hat?

i have a thing for men in hats.

[topless_mike]

i have a thing for men in hats.

*jotting down in notebook*

[~Katja~]

I have that all the time, it got worse after I had my kid and I constantly had visions of somehow dropping or hurting him when he was still so little... And these days it gets bad when I worry a lot about being alone here with the kiddo and what would happen if I died... who would take care of him... so when I go though these phases the visions like that get worse and more frequent.

[topless_mike]

I have that all the time, it got worse after I had my kid and I constantly had visions of somehow dropping or hurting him when he was still so little... And these days it gets bad when I worry a lot about being alone here with the kiddo and what would happen if I died... who would take care of him... so when I go though these phases the visions like that get worse and more frequent.

:glurps:
need a hug?

[Thebazile78]

really? never heard of it, but i'll have to look for it.

I couldn't remember if it was Grosse Pointe Blank or Serendipity, so I checked IMDB.

It's Serendipity.

Here's the obit, which is done as a voice-over in the friend's office in the movie (Cusack's character is reading it from a sheet of paper):

Jonathan Trager, prominent television producer for ESPN, died last night from complications of losing his soul mate and his fiancee. He was 35 years old. Soft-spoken and obsessive, Trager never looked the part of a hopeless romantic. But, in the final days of his life, he revealed an unknown side of his psyche. This hidden quasi-Jungian persona surfaced during the Agatha Christie-like pursuit of his long reputed soul mate, a woman whom he only spent a few precious hours with. Sadly, the protracted search ended late Saturday night in complete and utter failure. Yet even in certain defeat, the courageous Trager secretly clung to the belief that life is not merely a series of meaningless accidents or coincidences. Uh-uh. But rather, its a tapestry of events that culminate in an exquisite, sublime plan. Asked about the loss of his dear friend, Dean Kansky, the Pulitzer Prize-winning author and executive editor of the New York Times, described Jonathan as a changed man in the last days of his life. "Things were clearer for him," Kansky noted. Ultimately Jonathan concluded that if we are to live life in harmony with the universe, we must all possess a powerful faith in what the ancients used to call "fatum", what we currently refer to as destiny.

[JerseyRich]

Stop listening to Ryan Adams.

That shit is sad and will give you a complex! :wink:

[Aggie]

Stop listening to Ryan Adams.

That shit is sad and will give you a complex! :wink:

Now you tell me after you've completely filled my iPod with him! I blame Rich.

[JerseyRich]

Now you tell me after you've completely filled my iPod with him! I blame Rich.

:smoke:

[~Katja~]

:glurps:
need a hug?

haha, I think reading your post before it seems that these fears are kind of similar...
though you worry about who will care or be there for you after you die... I have the fear for my kid more than myself... I could not care less about who will care... except for my son, I don't want him to hurt.

[Aggie]

Thanks for sharing people, I feel a little less freakish.

haha, I think reading your post before it seems that these fears are kind of similar...
though you worry about who will care or be there for you after you die... I have the fear for my kid more than myself... I could not care less about who will care... except for my son, I don't want him to hurt.

I can't imagine how much worse it will be when I'm a mother. It's bad enough just worrying about my husband let alone a child!

[topless_mike]

I can't imagine how much worse it will be when I'm a mother. It's bad enough just worrying about my husband let alone a child!

board gossip?

[JerseyRich]

board gossip?

Wow you really know how to jam a wrench into the works, buddy.

[Aggie]

board gossip?

I wish. :sad:

I'm gonna go listen to some Ryan Adams.

[Freitag]

board gossip?

way to re-inforce the stereotype

[topless_mike]

never dismiss the power of positive thinking...

[~Katja~]

I wish. :sad:

I'm gonna go listen to some Ryan Adams.

wanna borrow mine next weekend?

[Aggie]

wanna borrow mine next weekend?

If I lived closer I would offer my babysitting skills whenever you wanted. :)

He looks like fun, a handful, but fun!

[JerseyRich]

I wish. :sad:

I'm gonna go listen to some Ryan Adams.

Here's some more music to help.

It could be worse Aggie...you could be John Lee Hooker.

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[boosterp]

This is common and simply put, makes us more comfortable with our own mortalities.

I do it all the time, but then again I am pathological.

[CountryBob]

I have those thoughts especially when attending the NASCAR race in my hometown. 180,000 people all crammed into a gigantic bowl - perfect for a bomb. Or a dive bomb by a plane.

Sometimes I also think about how it would feel to kill somebody - not that I would EVER do it but like for revenge. Murderer kills my family and I get to take him out. That sort of thing. More movie inspired ideas.

[Gvac]

I'm no psychiatrist, but I think having random thoughts like this must be an indication of a certain amount of stress and/or unhappiness in one's life.

I'm also not sure you're "not afraid to die" as you stated in your initial post, Aggie.

I hope you (and everyone else who posted similarly) are doing OK and that you won't hesitate to talk to someone if the thoughts continue or get scarier.

Much love.

[jauble]

I have thoughts like that pretty frequently, I see it happen in slow motion. I find it kind of interesting though.

[ToiletCrusher]

Feel like I want to kill hookers from time to time.

[sr71blackbird]

I have those images flash in my mind too, I think it has more to do with what we are expised to as far as the entertainment we are constantly exposing ourselves to than something actually "wrong". Everything you describe sounds like a scvene from a movie I have seen over the years. If we chose to entertain ourselved with sunrise and suset images and cloud formatuons, we would be entralled y our commute and natures wonders, you know?

[A.J.]

I'm no psychiatrist, but I think having random thoughts like this must be an indication of a certain amount of stress and/or unhappiness in one's life.

Thank you for not declaring Aggie mentally unstable. She's a good egg.

[TjM]

happens to me all the time. creepier than talking to hottub i tells ya!

What the pole sticking through you?

[Aggie]

On my way to work today an 18 wheeler was next to me and I envisioned one of the tires blowing out and coming through my window, mauling me. Happy thoughts. :thumbdown:

[topless_mike]

im in port (and in a refinery) and on occasion, i've thought about

a) what if a cargo ship rammed the bulkhead SPEED 2 steez
b) what if a container loaded with a bomb went off?
c) what if a rogue wave slams us
d) what if a fire breaks out and goes KABOOM ?

there is nothing wrong with morbid thoughts. better to think them to act upon them.

[Thebazile78]

On my way to work today an 18 wheeler was next to me and I envisioned one of the tires blowing out and coming through my window, mauling me. Happy thoughts. :thumbdown:

I empathize; this is why I don't drive with trucks if I can help it.

It's bad enough that I get anxious whenever I drive past the airport while a plane is landing or taking off.

[~Katja~]

On my way to work today an 18 wheeler was next to me and I envisioned one of the tires blowing out and coming through my window, mauling me. Happy thoughts. :thumbdown:

that happens to me all the time... cause when I was an AuPair I was driving a minivan on the turnpike with kids in it and all and a truck kept pushing into my lane... ever since I freak out a bit about trucks next to me and always feel like they are trying to push me off the road.

[Thebazile78]

im in port (and in a refinery) and on occasion, i've thought about

a) what if a cargo ship rammed the bulkhead SPEED 2 steez
b) what if a container loaded with a bomb went off?
c) what if a rogue wave slams us
d) what if a fire breaks out and goes KABOOM ?

there is nothing wrong with morbid thoughts. better to think them to act upon them.

Hey, there's a refinery conducting a fire drill/test today and there's supposed to be a flash of some sort from the smokestack. We got an e-mail from our building management in case people freaked to tell them not to freak.

Thank G-d I don't have to be in the office today...there'd be too much panic on the street.

[Aggie]

It doesn't help that my aunt and uncle were killed by an 18 wheeler which orphaned my two cousin's. So sad. I really wish Texas had seperate highway lanes like the turnpike. The highways are filled with them here, it's like I can't escape them.

Mike, if I worked there I would think that stuff all the time. I don't blame you.

[JerseyRich]

Thank G-d I don't have to be in the office today..

I don't get it. The Grateful Dead?

[A.J.]

when I was an AuPair

Hot.

[boosterp]

In Colorado I was taken out by a dump truck pulling a big trailer. If not for my training I think I would of been dead because I was heading across the median into on coming traffic. I instead spun my car, shifted down, and ended up back on the shoulder before an overpass divider.

I still scare a bit near bigger trucks.

But again, these thoughts help to make us comfortable with mortality. It is natural unless it becomes so obsessive that you are pathological.

[Thebazile78]

I don't get it. The Grateful Dead?

Habit; not writing the full name of the Almighty in case it's printed and desecrated.

Picked it up from some Jewish friends in college.













<LordJezo>Maybe it's a conspiracy against Christians!</LordJezo>

[topless_mike]

Hey, there's a refinery conducting a fire drill/test today and there's supposed to be a flash of some sort from the smokestack. We got an e-mail from our building management in case people freaked to tell them not to freak.

Thank G-d I don't have to be in the office today...there'd be too much panic on the street.

really?
you'd think they'd tell us.
might not be us, though.

just wondering what they would use to flash that bright in the daytime? magnesium?

[Thebazile78]

really?
you'd think they'd tell us.
might not be us, though.

just wondering what they would use to flash that bright in the daytime? magnesium?

Yeah, building management e-mailed all the tenants to let the peons know that "[a] refinery in NJ will be conducting a fire drill today. As part of the exercise, a 'quick flash' fire simulator will be used .... This is only a drill and [they] did not want [their] tenants to be alarmed."

[Freitag]

I don't get it. The Grateful Dead?


You've never read one of FMJeff's posts in the 8 years you've been here??

[jessicaduh]

i rarely think morbidly about myself. i am totally cool with my mortality and have zero fear of death. i was on the precipice once...i made the choice to stay...it took away my fear.

however.

i constantly fear losing my loved ones. i'm someone who will check on my dog's breathing seven times a night...or who will create mad horrible scenarios when i don't hear from someone i love for a while, despite my attempts to locate him or her.

i know full well where and why it originated...but sometimes it's frustrating and i feel completely unstable and out of control.